We really apologize for constantly spamming we just wanted to know that very thing! If we hurt you or stressed you out in any way we seriously apologize!!
//It’s okay, it wasn’t just you. Real-world events keep getting to me and seeing the same messages over and over just kinda set me off.
//I got some sleep though, so I feel a little better. I appreciate all the kind messages you guys sent. It really means a lot ^^
//And sorry for the whole breakdown. That really felt out of line. I’ll do my best about updating this blog more consistently, I promise
//Okay, this is something I want to address because it’s honestly getting on my nerves.
//I understand that there are people who want this blog to resume, and I’m sorry that my hyperfixation and motivation problems have kept me from doing that. But you know what doesn’t help with that? You know what doesn’t inspire me to get back to writing this?
//CONSTANTLY SPAMMING ME WITH THE SAME ASKS OVER AND OVER AGAIN
//There’s a lot of ways to kill my motivation, and that’s up there. It doesn’t motivate me, it’s annoying, disheartening and makes it seem like people don’t really give a shit about the other stories I’m trying to write.
//Yeah, maybe trying to run three blogs at the same time was a bad idea. Maybe it’s taxing, but it was my decision. I want to write what I want to write. It’s how I operate. At the same time, I don’t want to just churn out content for the sake of having content. I want to make things that are decent, not questionable or low quality, and actually in-character and entertaining.
//BUT I’d also like if my ask box didn’t keep filling up with “Hey, so when are you gonna update askhinonjizumi?” “Hey, when’s askhinonjizumi gonna start taking questions again?” “Hey, when’s this blog gonna start up again?”
// I get it. I hear you. I got all your asks. I saw these already. You don’t need to keep asking them over and over again. That’s about the least effective way to get a response out of me.
//I’m sorry, I’m just really sick of seeing the same thing over and over. I’m not mad at those who keep sending it, I’m just asking for the spamming to Please. Just. Stop. It’ll happen when my motivation comes back, I swear. Constantly asking me just makes me want to put it off.
//Hey guys, sorry for disappearing on you all so suddenly, and for the massive slowdown in asks.
//Just wanna let everyone know that, yes, I am still very much alive. What’s been happening? Well, long story short, depression hits and it hits hard. The start of this year has already been pretty hard on me and I’ll admit that I’m not exactly looking forward to what’s coming.
//I’d rather not go into specifics, but ennui, fear of the future, self-esteem problems, general lack of motivation, you know how it is.
//That, and the fact that I got a message that…well, to be perfectly honest, made me feel like a shitty writer. It almost made me want to quit doing this. It wasn’t even malicious, I just took it way too personally and it stuck with me for way too long.
//Because of that, writing anything was kinda hard for a while, but then I returned to working on my book and that helped me feel a bit better. I got swept up in that, as well as shows I’d been meaning to watch.
//Although, for the record, deciding to watch Your Turn To Die in the midst of a depressive episode wasn’t my best idea. I actually had to stop because it was getting to be too much for me. I’ll get back to it at some point though.
//I also decided to indulge in what’s probably a dumb fanfic idea that I just ran with, which I think I might post on AO3 at some point. Because I love giving myself more work when I already have so many unfinished projects : P
//Other than that, I’ve been hanging out with friends, trying to re-motivate myself and get back my passion. And seeing the messages people kept sending me, asking me to come back or if I was okay made me feel bad for just vanishing out of nowhere.
//Rest assured, I’m alright and I’m sorry. Thank you all for being patient with me. You guys are great ^^
Mikan, sweetie, how are you feeling? I just need to ask, did your family receive comeuppance for how horrible they treated you? If not, I'll do it myself!
Ummm...n-no, no, that’s okay. It’s fine. Please don’t do that.
Okay...I can do this...I just need to explain it calmly and carefully.
*Chiaki takes a breath and opens the door to the infirmary*
Ah, Chiaki! Hello!
Hey, Mikan.
*Chiaki kisses her girlfriend on the cheek*
How’s everything going?
It’s been alright. What about you?
Are you feeling better?
Yeah...sorta.
Do you...wanna talk about it?
Yeah. We should.
*The two take a seat together on a bed*
Mikan, you know I’m really happy to be together with you, right?
M-me too. Being with you makes me really happy.
Same here.
And I don’t want any of that to change, so please, please don’t get the wrong idea.
Is it about Hinata-san?
...
You’re...really good at guessing.
I guess so. You and him are still really goof friends, and you knew him really well first, right? From how you were acting before, after what Koizumi-chan said...
It sounds a lot like you have a crush on him.
I...y-yeah. I think.
B-but that doesn’t mean I’m not happy with you! It’s just...it’s been a long time thing, I think. I didn’t even really realize it until recently, and now that it’s there, I just-
It’s okay. I think I understand.
I trust you, Chiaki. You don’t need to give me a long explanation. Feelings can be very strange things.
Yeah. Tell me about it.
So...what do you think I should do?
Do you want to tell him?
Should I...?
I don’t...the three of them already seem really happy together.
Chiaki...
*Mikan hugs her*
I think you should tell him. If for no other reason than just to let him know, to get it out of your system. Don’t let it eat you up inside until you don’t have a chance anymore.
...yeah...
And also, well...I can tell you that, if you do wanna date him too, I’m okay with it. I trust Hinata-san too. He’s really, really nice.
He is.
Thank you so much, Mikan.
You make me so happy, and I wanna do the same for you.
I’m really sorry for asking which one you’d break up with. I didn’t mean it in any bad way, I was just curious of how you’d respond. If I came off as an asshole for that, I’m sorry.
It’s alright. It’s just something we don’t want to think about.
Trying to keep our relationship together is hard enough given our situation. It’s not something any of us really wants to think about.
you three are so cute together! wish i had a relationship as healthy, my partners so far have been pretty toxic :(
Well, first, thank you very much.
I’m sorry to hear that. Relationships shouldn’t make you feel like that, and it can be really disheartening to end up in one bad one after another.
Granted, it’s important to be aware of your own behavior too. Sometimes people do things that are harmful without even realizing it, and think the problem is with someone else.
Not that I’m trying to blame you for anything. It’s just something to keep in mind. Sometimes it’s expecting too much too quickly, sometimes it’s expecting your partner to keep you propped up and not doing enough to motivate yourself.
It hurts to be on the receiving end of either of those.
Relationships go both ways. You need to communicate with your partner and your partner needs to communicate with you. That’s the most important thing above all else. There needs to be mutual understanding, trust, and respect.
And it can get really easy to get discouraged when you’ve been in so many bad relationships. Sometimes you just get unlucky and end up with the wrong kinds of people for you.
But that’s no reason to give up. If you want a healthy relationship, you need to be ready to make a serious commitment and you need to keep trying. That’s what I’ve committed myself too when Hajime, Hiyoko, and I got together.
This isn’t easy on any of us at times, but what we have? I’ll do whatever it takes to help keep us together.
But it’s also important to remember that you don’t need to be in a relationship to be happy. Sometimes it’s good to just take some time to be yourself, to improve and find things you enjoy doing either on your own or with friends. Maybe find new interests that you can explore. Whatever you decide to do, I really hope things work out well for you.
Hajime, Hiyoko, and Mahiru, this may sound up, so I’m sorry for asking this question in advance. If you were forced to break up with on of your two mates, then who would it be?
...
...
How ‘bout nobody?
We’ve been trying our hardest to stay together. You think any of us actually wanna think about who we’d have to ditch? Not happening.
Hey Hajime what’s the reserve course like? Don’t you wish that you had a talent? I bet you remember that project I told you about right?an alternate timeline and there was secret project and you were a part of it? Like I said you are Izuru Kamukura the artificial ultimate hope what would you do if you had every known artificial talent at your disposal?
I really don’t get what you’re talking about. I’m not this Kamukura guy, whoever the hell he is. I don’t have any talent, but I don’t think getting one implanted is a great idea.
Yo Hajime I saw this picture on DeviantArt of Naruto proposing to two girls which is why I ask you when are you gonna pop the question to mahiru and hiyoko?
You do realize we’re still in high school, right?
I mean, yeah, we’re all pretty much adults and close to graduating, but still, we have a lot we need to work out before we can actually make an arrangement like that.
Besides, legally, I can’t actually marry both of them.
Are Aoi, Sayaka, Makoto, and Mukuro still going to the movies? I got a nice suggestion: A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood! Guranteed to restore your faith in humanity!
Yeah, we all had a great time.
Yeah, that was really fun.
Thanks for inviting me out, guys. I feel a lot better now.
