☪︎ ˚.✧‧₊˚❀༉ star | 23 | she/her | indian american | infp | tumblr newbie
hello!! this is just a collection of all the various fics and fanarts i've found on here from all the various fandoms i'm in hehe. i do reblog a lot of mature content so 18+ only. mdni.
current obsession: love and deepspace
crowfish girlie at heart
a love language in every track aka what bollywood songs do i think the lads guys listen to
a/n: i was driving and listening to my bollywood love songs playlist and these men would just not leave my head. i just had to get this out immediately. if you’re also a fan of hindi/south asian music, drop your favorite songs that remind you of them in the comments! would love to know what’s on your playlists 🎵
the first time you actually went through his vinyl collection you saw a first print edition of a lata mangeshkar record and were in shock
played the piano version of gehra hua for you one day and a tear came out
uses the songs to better learn hindi and asks you to translate them for him
slowly adds songs that you play for him to his playlist and you don’t realize how much he likes it until you see his wrapped for the year and ur fav song is on the top
has definitely recorded u while singing and plays it with the original record to soothe himself when you’re not there
songs in playlist: jashn-e-bahaaraa, pardesiya, tu hai, tum tak, ek dil ek jaan, goom hai kisi pyar mein, lag ja gale se phir, rimjhim gire, sawan, gehra hua (everytime this song comes on all i can think of sylus)
arjit singh’s no 1 fan for real
loves all the sappy love songs and the sad ones about longing
he listens to virah and the ache feels so visceral and he closes his eyes and he’s back in romirro staring at sea foam desperately wishing for you to be back
pretends to not know the lyrics of songs so that you translate them for him
one day you catch him singing tujh mein rab dikhta hai in perfect pronounciation and he grovels for a week for daring to fool u
songs in playlist: kesariya, soch na sake (i would die to hear him sing this), tujh mein rab dikhta hai, o bedardeya, tum kya mile, ek dil ek jaan (repeat bc i was indecisive and it also fits him so well), virah, o rangreez (if there is a song that is rafayel it is this one, i will not accept arguments u cannot listen to the lyrics and tell me otherwise)
knows which songs mean you’re sad vs nostalgic vs spiraling and responds accordingly without saying a word
made a whole workout playlist out of your bollywood favs and genuinely goes harder to them
has done crimes against humanity by playing some of your most nostalgic songs while doing the deed just to fuck with you
likes a lot of the hip hop or rock sounding tracks (think gully boy and dhurandhar)
learned the dance to you are my soniya with you when you were in middle school and still has it memorized
pulls it out at all the desi parties and whenever u need a quick silly pick me up
songs in playlist: raanjhanaa, you are my soniya, apna time aayega, tere rastaa chhodoon na (bc bitch he is not leaving u even in death), khariyat (i feel like he relates to this song as the one constantly shielding mc), ishq jalakar - karvaan, mere gully mein, aapna bana le (caleb to you fr - just make him yours he’s been waiting for so long for you to claim him)
likes all the songs from the bollywood movies he’s watch with you
he listens to them while doing his reports for the day and a smile creeps on his face as he remembers your joy singing along to the songs while watching
has tujhe dekha to from ddlj as his ringtone bc he’s a secret romantic sap
lights up and does this casual (read: dramatic) turn of his head when he recognizes a song in public
looks to you for praise like a proud kid - please give him the head pats he deserves
songs in playlist: tum se hi, chaleya, sooraj ji baahoon mein, balam pichkari (just imagine him at his desk with this blasting in his earphones with his stoic face lolol), tera bina, tujhe dekha to, sajni (i love this song so much and i feel like it fits zayne/mc so well)
likes the ghazals more than he thought he would
likes to play them on a vinyl while laying in ur lap as u card ur fingers through his hair and hum along
has also done crimes against humanity with your playlist but it was unintentional
he played your “lover girl era bollywood edition” playlist bc u got a noise complaint from ur neighbors 🫣 and u were too out of it to admonish him
some songs def have you blushing for no reason now
songs in playlist: sahiba (what goes on in his head whenever he sees you), o saathi, raanjhan, saiyarra, aap ki ankhon mein kuch (loops on repeat while resting), nainowale ne (this entire song just screams mc/xavier to me)
There was something profoundly intoxicating about being praised. Something addictive in the way it wrapped around your spine and sank into your bloodstream. The immediate, visceral confirmation that you were doing something right—something worthy, had your head spinning in a dizzying euphoria.
Sylus was particularly good at this dance.
He knew exactly how to build you up, how to feed you just enough softness that made you melt into the sheets while he bullied your pussy with his cock.
His hips snapped into yours in a relentless rhythm, each thrust punching near pornographic sounds from your throat as you sank deeper and deeper into the mattress.
“You sound so pretty, sweetie,” he grunted, dipping down to press slow, possessive kisses along your neck and jawline. “Always letting me make a mess of you… taking me so well.”
Forming a reply felt impossible. Each attempt of shaping a word tumbled out as a jagged moan or sharp breath as he drove harder into your throbbing heat.
“Fuuck, kitten…" his hips stuttered for half a second before picking up again, harder. "You’re being so good tonight. So fucking good for me.”
The praise hit deeper than his thrusts, had you mewling and clawing mindlessly at the shifting muscles on his back, as if they could anchor you to reality.
“Sy—! Baby—mmmgh— you fuck me so good—!"
"Yeah?" he panted, lifting his head just enough to really look at you. To admire your face which contorted in pleasure just for him. His hand snaked beneath your hips, lifting, angling you just right.
The change had you arching violently, a cry ripping from your chest as he hit that perfect spot. Your cunt suctioned his cock, dragging him back in each time he pulled out.
"Yes! Holy—nngh—no one makes me feel like you do... you're so good f'me—so good—"
His cock throbbed noticeably inside you at the reiterated praise.
"Careful, sweetie…" he muttered, though there was no real warning in it. His fingers found your nipple, rolling the sensitive bud between them until your back arched again. "…keep talking like that…"
You smirked, a tease emerging from the haze of pleasure.
"And you'll cum?" you murmured playfully, even as your body trembled beneath him.
His eyes fluttered shut, ears flushing a telltale pink.
"Brat," he huffed, voice thick and amused, yet strained. "I will," his hips snapped harder, dragging a gasp from you. "You keep running that mouth like you don't want me to show you what being good gets you."
Your stomach flipped as his thrusts grew rougher, becoming greedier, jolting you with each deep stroke.
“M’close—!” you cried, the words breaking apart as your lips fell open.
“Yeah?” he kissed the corner of your mouth softer now. “Such a good girl, kitten. So beautiful when you’re about to fall apart on my cock.”
"Syluusss—" you whimpered, the plea barely coherent. "Please…"
He seized your lips in a consuming kiss, swallowing the sound.
“You can,” he murmured, the words a promise delivered against your lips. “Cum for me.”
With a broken moan lost between his lips, your body trembled, your pussy tightening and pulsing around him.
His mouth pulled from yours, though stayed close. “That’s it… yeah… just like that.”
Sylus’ thrusts didn’t slow, staying relentless as he dragged you through every aftershock. His hands moved, firm as he pressed your shaking thighs—clamped tight around his hips—down towards the bed to give himself better access.
You kissed along his jaw. “Will you cum for me? Please, baby…" your voice turned sweet and coaxing again. “I’ve been so good… want you to be good and stuff me full.”
“Sweetie—fuck—“
"Yeah… c'mon handsome," you purred, cradling his head, lips brushing his ear. "Be a good boy n make a mess in me."
is rafayel the best express remedy when you're sick?
fluff and smut (cockwarm) because i think this is cute. yeahhh.. self indulgent bcs i caught a fever few hours ago.. and i cant sleep.
oh you feel very terrible and floaty and pissy at everything. at 12am too. worst part is you can't even attempt to sleep these miseries away like normal people should when the sky is draped in still black.
your nose is stuffy. at least it's only the right one. but it's still stupid and annoying to exhale harshly like you can repel the blockage out only to feel your warm breath coming out of one hole only.
"raf, i can't sleep," his body jolts at the intrusion of your nasally whine.
rafayel kissed you good night a few hours ago and dismissed himself to catch up with his painting.
he doesn't know you have a fever.
actually, you didn't know you'd caught a fever too until you felt an itch at the base of your throat. then came the whole coughing fit, your shared bed seconds away from becoming your death bed because you almost choked yourself.
"..why can't you– are you okay?!" rough fingertips gently slide across your warm skin, angling your head to his level. "did you get the fever?"
a true sorcery how hypnotic his touch is. his cool palm on your forehead. the next second, something soft and plush materialises beneath your body. back in the bed again it seems. bed means few other things too, your brain decides.
"can we cockwarm?"
the fever truly has a mind of its own. now your boyfriend's going to think you're a true freak at any given time and situation. fuck it, he's your boyfriend after all. your mind believes his dick can miraculously cure you.
"you need to sleep, cutie."
"'m going too. preferably with you inside me. promise." you hold up a pinky.
he's slightly concerned but oh well. if he's not in the slightest getting turned on from how soft and pliant you look in his bed. even earlier when you came up to him in nothing beneath the loose cotton, he was ready to pounce until he saw your frustrated face.
your nose feels less stuffy finally. you just need to sleep with something to keep you warm and distracted from the noise in your head. preferably with something inside you.
"please," you whisper. hand reaching for the band of his sweats. "cock." a funny, drowsy smile on your lips as you cup his half hard length.
"so funny huh, cutie." his sweats is quickly off and tossed aimlessly. the anticipation doubles when rafayel pulls your hips closer. giving his cock a few more pumps, the blunt tip languidly brushing your wet entrance, eliciting yourself an impatient hiss.
he elevates your leg over his waist and pushes his thick length all the way in. soft moans tip over your parted lips as rafayel gladly kisses the underside of exposed jaw. filling you up at all the right places, sick and hot cunt plugged up nicely.
"how about one round?"
"how about you sleep?" he kisses the protest on your lips, pinning your body in place. "sleep. see how i'll wake you up tomorrow if your body gets enough rest."
his other hand is up in your hair caressing and pulling the locks with such gentleness. effectively stealing any process of your early thoughts. as he watches your eyes flutter, gone the stubbornness as exhaustion takes over.
"sweet dreams, my love." the last thing you hear accompanied by feather kisses across your closed eyes.
a/n: this started with me thinking about how rafayel would really have no sense of balance when using his phone and spiraled into this. i'm sorry xavier's is so short 🫣 i haven't engaged with his content as much.
🐦⬛ sylus - 3/4 hrs
not too bad but def longer than you were expecting
most of it is spent on online auctions
luke and kieran mostly show him tiktoks on their phones
they learned through much trial and error what will catch sylus’ attention for longer than 3 seconds
now they have a curated list bc they know sylus has a limit to how much he’ll watch
there is always at least one brain rot humor video based on their audio trigger for the week and an unhinged animal vid
watches bike restoration and different builds for ideas
obviously on kitten!tok - loves the videos where owners rage bait their cats so he can learn new ways to annoy you
you’d think he’d be more aware with how many times u catch him on his phone but he’s just a chronically offline grandpa
🐟 rafayel - its either 16 hrs or non-existent there’s no in between
starts off saying he’s going to watch one video for inspiration → ends up doom-scrolling instead of painting
looks out his window in a haze and realizes the moon is up and wonders where all the time has gone
there is nothing this man hasn’t seen → if its trending he’s seen it
also ends up seeing everything related to any fandoms you’ve mentioned bc he needs to know your interests sweetie
deep into fashion!tok. loves seeing all the crazy outfits people create and takes inspiration from the silhouettes to make things for the two of you
likes the deep sea marine content bc it reminds him of home
critiques all the art he sees on the platform and saves them to show you later
“now this is what should be in galleries cutie. not the nonsense they put out these days.”
🍎 caleb - 6 hrs
tbh most of this is just you and him on facetime every day
has a secret thirst trap account
used to be public until you followed him and now he only posts on close friends (you’re the only one added)
goes onto tiktok to see wht you’ve sent him and ends up scrolling for longer than he intended
watches lots of food recipes to make things for you, saves all the workout challenges and calisthenics vids to remake for you
really likes the furniture restoration/reimagine after thrifting videos
the repetitive motions soothe him a lot
secretly gets a lot of the couples trends on tiktok and saves them to do with you later (especially all the photo ideas. mans has a new screensaver after every time you meet)
❄️ zayne - 30 min
you know he’s a doctor but you’re still shocked anyones screentime can be tht low
usually waits for you to just show him things
unlike luke and kieran u don’t have a list. you just show him whatever strikes your fancy as u scroll beside him in bed while hes reading
likes watching baby animal vids: the ones where owners test who their puppy likes more, a baby duck and kitten getting along, pets snuggling closer after you push them away
he gets the cutest little smile while watching them
you love ragebaiting him with all the inaccurate information in medical!tok and watch him take off his glasses and pinch the space between his brows as he goes on a tangent
secretly obsessed with the asmr slime videos
⭐️ xavier - 1 hour
would rather read or sleep
doesn’t see the point in social media beyond saving new restaurants and cafes
has a curated list of places organized by cuisine and location
is better than any recommendation app and everyone at the hunters association asks him for recs once they find out
was on book!tok before he read a recommendation everyone was raving about and it was so bad he lost all faith in it entirely
likes the usual rain and background noise asmr but prefers to listen to your voice notes on repeat to help him sleep
a/n: i love this trend i think it’s so fun LOL i hope you guys enjoy these silly headcanons :D might be ooc sorry !!
tags/warnings: fluff for all !! suggestive and mentions of sex (rafayel and zayne), nothing else i think!
masterlist
SYLUS
low cortisol bf x low cortisol gf, you are exactly who you think you are, and sylus is #him.
sylus literally had the entire N109 zone in the palm of his hands and anyone who tries to cross him gets turned to DUST
he knows he always gets what he wants and even when things seem to go awry he known they’ll get back on track somehow someway
you have so much faith in him and his abilities and intelligence that you rarely get stressed after meeting him
the times you have a dilemma or are wound too tight he knows exactly the solution to your problem and helps you relax in any way necessary <3
anytime you might be stressed by deadlines or insane work loads he asks you to take a couple days off and flies you out to an insane resort or private beach and is drinking piña coladas by the beach with you and taking naps in hammocks
you have a good head on your shoulders and solve so many of your problems on your own !! half the time you just rant to sylus about something and end with “i mean i already figure it out and fixed everything, but still”
the two of you are just chill as hell and are a genuine power couple <3333
on the odd times that both of you are stressed for whatever reason you end up staying home together and napping, knowing that with the other by your side everything will find a way of working itself out
XAVIER
low cortisol bf x high cortisol gf !!!! (he’s the reason yours spikes sometimes …)
he will definitely be WAY too nonchalant with his injuries and make you stress out so much especially when you think about the risks of sepsis …
randomly disappears to do god knows what and comes back with an insane scar on his torso you only notice when you’re feeling up his abs, suddenly nothing is funny anymore
he does his best to reassure you, telling you that everything is fine and he doesn’t need to go to the hospital, going as far as to poke the scar to prove it doesn’t hurt
xavier giggles when you smack him, scolding him for stressing you out, he just kisses your face and tells you how much he loves you
“I’ll never do anything to get myself killed because i love you too much to leave you”
stresses you out after the egg tart incident when he goes near the kitchen, terrified he’s gonna blow up the entire complex….
eventually after the third time he doesn’t start a fire you slowly trust him a bit more
he buys you so many snacks and cute little trinkets to make you smile when you’re surrounded by paper work and have so many deadlines approaching
professional nap taker will convince you to snuggle up with him in bed and take the best naps of your life, waking up and hearing his soft breathing and steady heartbeat makes you stop stressing for a little bit <3
RAFAYEL
both high and low cortisol bf but more low cortisol leaning bf x high cortisol gf
he has you absolutely STRESSED when you started guarding him, did not take any threats seriously even while you were on edge and eyeing everyone suspiciously
“loosen up miss bodyguard! we’re here to look at the art, not steal it in some heist” “you do realize you’ve gotten multiple death threats in the past week from some crime organization right?” “eh, I’ll be fine! now can you please listen when i tell you about art history? every question wrong i deduct your pay” “that… doesn’t seem legal”
raf will text or call you at 2 pm on a Tuesday, telling you he needs his bodyguard while he walks on the beach, like you aren’t part of the work force who works an actual 9-5
you still show up, telling yourself that this counts as billable hours, definitely not because you were drowning in deadlines and needed a good laugh with a certain purple haired artist
raf turns into a high cortisol bf after you guys have been dating for a while, sassy man apocalypse leader !!!!
he will genuinely tweak out if you don’t reply to his ‘i love you’ text in the right tone or with an emoji that seems ill fitting
when he gets behind on art pieces and has thomas breathing down his neck he coops himself up in the studio, only taking a break when you call him for the nth time and realize he’s in the same boat as you
you make sure to drag him out of the studio, taking him to dinner or bringing him over to yours for a change of scenery, watching movies and giggling quietly at stupid memes you send each other
he still stresses you out, teasing you to no end, making you flustered every second he can, putting himself in danger at times
but he makes up for it with sweet nothings whispered in your ears, gentle kisses and mind blowing sex (he also just showers you in gifts and flowers and ices you out with jaw dropping jewelry)
CALEB
high cortisol bf x low cortisol gf
you stress him out for fun way too much (but it’s so fun to wind him up :( !!) he will definitely get stressed by any stunts you do or pranks you pull on him
he once flew in from sky haven to linkon after you jokingly replied to his text with “she’s busy bro”
he gets so worried about you forgetting to eat and properly taking care of yourself when you tell him how much work you have to do, sighing when you tell him “eh it’ll work itself out,” which a shrug of your shoulders
you tease him SO much when you’re together, massaging his shoulders and telling him to relax “isn’t the colonel off duty? why do you look so angry?”
speaking of being colonel, the fleet pisses him off every other business day and he CANNOT catch a break in there #freehim
he’ll be drowning in paperwork at 1 am when a call from you makes his blood pressure spike, were you hurt? had something happened to you?
“caleb you still love me right? what if i was turned into an armadillo by an evil witch?” caleb pinches the bridge of his nose, answering with a gentle “id love you in any and all life times, no matter the form you took”
but it’s all worth it when he sees your sweet smile and melts into your warm embrace, worries fading away when you twirl his hair between your fingers and tell him about your day
he takes pride in knowing you’re never stressed (he makes sure to make your life as easy as possible, and if any problems arise he takes care of them immediately <3)
ZAYNE
high cortisol bf x low cortisol gf <3
this man get so stressed out all the time it’s genuinely a problem , being a surgeon is already hard work, being a leader and the best in your field ??? insanely grueling
“my love please tell me those red bull cans were from friends you had over” “oh no i drank those last night studying for a final” “you realize how bad they are for you?” “you think you know it all because you’re a heart doctor?” “well yes” “… fair point”
you treat him SO well and know exactly how to finally get his tense shoulders to loosen up, you know the words to say to get his lips from a straight line into a soft smile, with deep laughter rumbling in his chest
you only raise his blood pressure occasionally, pranking him every once in a while but making up for it immediately with dinner or a flurry of kisses and soft praises
he finds himself so insanely tense at work, a breath of fresh air coming into his lungs when you walk into his office with a small smile “can i come in?” “of course you can” his eyes finally tear from the screen he’d been staring at all day, settling on your features and smiling, the slight furrow in his brows is gone for the first time in hours
zayne has a wide smile on his face when you pass him a box of macaroons you’d picked up for him, alongside dinner you’d cooked
particularly stressful days have him a bit snippy when he comes home, the pout on your face makes his face drop, and you only steer him in the direction of a hot shower
apologizes profusely for being curt with you, wondering how he got so insanely lucky when you tell him not to worry and are understanding, kissing him crazy style and helping him release pent up stress :P
you help him balance work and life in a way he never has before, finally prioritizing himself at times for the first time since before he entered med school
you coax him to bed and scratch his back, smiling when you stop and he wiggles slightly for you to continue, the world renowned cardiac surgeon reduced to pouts when you don’t immediately scratch him again
your jiejie, who’s decided her sweet, clueless meimei needs to learn how to make herself feel good—because apparently you’re hopeless at it on your own.
she’s got you spread out on her bed, back against the headboard, thighs pushed wide and trembling. she’s kneeling between your legs in nothing but her favorite black thong, long brown hair falling over one shoulder as she looks down at you like you’re her favorite project.
“poor baby,” she coos, voice low and syrupy while she drags one fingertip along your soaked slit, collecting your wetness just to watch you twitch. “you really don’t know how to touch this pretty pussy properly? jiejie’s gonna fix that right now.”
you’re already flushed and squirming, embarrassed but so needy you can’t hide it. she just smiles—slow, wicked—and brings your own hand down between your legs.
“show me how you usually do it, meimei. let jiejie see what a bad job you’ve been doing.”
your fingers fumble, clumsy circles over your clit that are too light, too fast, too all over the place. she watches for maybe ten seconds before clicking her tongue.
“no wonder you never cum properly,” she murmurs, prying your hand away gently but firmly. “you’re teasing yourself like it’s a punishment. let jiejie teach you how it’s done.”
she replaces your fingers with hers—two long, elegant ones sliding inside you without warning, slow and deep until they’re buried to the last knuckle. you gasp sharp, back arching off the pillows.
“there we go,” she breathes, curling them immediately, searching, pressing—then finding it. that spot. the one you didn’t even know was there. the second the pads of her fingers drag over it, firm and deliberate, your whole body jerks like you’ve been electrocuted.
“f-fuck—jiejie—!”
“mmhm. that’s the spot, baby,” she purrs, keeping the pressure steady, stroking it in slow, come-hither motions while her thumb finds your clit and starts rubbing lazy, perfect circles. “this is what you’ve been missing. feel how full you are? how wet you’re getting just from jiejie’s fingers knowing exactly where to touch?”
you can’t answer—only broken moans spilling out as your hips snap up instinctively, chasing the drag of her fingers, fucking yourself onto her hand like you’re starving for it. your nails dig into her shoulders, leaving little crescent marks on her soft skin while she leans in closer, free hand cupping the back of your neck so she can watch every filthy expression cross your face.
“look at you,” she whispers, voice rough with her own arousal. “humping jiejie’s fingers ... what a desperate little baby. so greedy for that spot now that you know it exists, huh?”
she speeds up just a fraction—curling harder, stroking faster—while her thumb presses firmer on your clit, slick and relentless. your thighs shake violently, hips bucking wildly, grinding down to take her deeper, to make her hit it again and again.
“jiejie—please—oh god—it’s too much—!”
“no such thing,” she coos softly, kissing the corner of your mouth while her fingers never stop. “you’re gonna cum like this, meimei. gonna soak my hand, gonna learn exactly how your pussy likes to be fucked. then next time you try to touch yourself alone? you’ll remember jiejie’s fingers right here—” she curls again, hard, making stars burst behind your eyes “—and you’ll cum so fast thinking about me.”
your moans turn into sobs, head thrown back, hips snapping up desperately to meet every thrust of her hand. you’re clenching so tight around her fingers she can barely move them, but she doesn’t stop—just keeps stroking that perfect spot, keeps rubbing your clit until your whole body locks up.
“that’s it—good girl—cum for jiejie—let me feel it—”
you shatter with a broken cry, gushing around her fingers, thighs clamping down on her wrist as wave after wave rips through you. she works you through it slow and mean, drawing it out until you’re whimpering, oversensitive, still twitching on her hand.
when you finally slump back, panting and wrecked, she pulls her fingers free with a wet sound, brings them up to her mouth and licks them clean while staring right into your dazed eyes.
“see?” she murmurs, licking a stripe up her palm. “that’s how you please yourself properly. but don’t worry, baby…” she leans down, kissing you deep so you can taste yourself on her tongue.
“…jiejie’s gonna keep teaching you. over and over. until you can’t cum without thinking of my fingers inside you.”
she smirks, already sliding those same slick fingers back down to tease your still-throbbing entrance.
“ready for lesson two, meimei? we’re just getting started~ ”
Okay, so... this is one of my favourite scenes in the donghua, and on a rewatch with wulian on the brain, I couldn't help thinking: WHAT IF, that long, wistful look in Xie Lian's face is not just the usual yearning, but because that moment reminded him of someone?
(By the way, I discovered later that the song that plays in this scene is called "recollections of old dreams (忆旧梦)"😭)
