“oh my god hollander you are so boring.”
• end of august •
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“oh my god hollander you are so boring.”
• end of august •
a man who has never denied himself anything meets a man who denies himself everything and the hedonist tries to lure the self-abnegator into succumbing to the pleasures of the flesh and succeeds but their rendezvous makes accidentally clear that true pleasure is derived from the perilous destructive nature of intimate connection and eventually true actual love and so we come to conclude that in fact the hedonist is the one who has never allowed himself anything true while the self-abnegator has never strayed from the path of his want and then they put them on ice skates and gave them sticks
it's been nearly eight months since heated rivalry first aired and i still spend every free minute thinking about hollanov
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putting shane hollander and ilya rozanov in situations after a stressful day is essentially equivalent to smoking a cigarette
my shane is a nuzzler and is happy to bury his head into ilya’s neck, his shoulder, he loves to nuzzle!!!
so do we think based off ilya being more vocal during the frottage scene he was actually holding back and this was another form of him being vulnerable and he might be more of a moaner in the future
Happy Pride Month y'all 🏳️🌈❤️
You are loved and supported ❤️
i’m such a wimp when it comes to hollanov on ao3, i can’t do main character death, dementia, etc. or breakups even with getting back together later in life. major props to the peeps who write and read it, i’m just not the yaoi gods’ strongest soldier.
angst with a happy ending though has my whole heart.
i can’t really rank hollanov kisses. i can say my favorite is the stairwell kiss but every kiss they share is different and is an important, so important, aspect of their sex scenes.
their first kiss is exploratory, buzzing, and opening a door for what would become a ceaseless desire.
their first kiss in nashville that shane hastily starts tells us, and them, their relief to be able to do so again, because that desire was just as strong.
when ilya kisses shane as they discuss a plan for next time, he kisses him to reassure him and let him know it’s okay to want to wait and that it isn’t putting ilya off to do something else instead.
at vegas, the first time, ilya tries to hide behind the kiss and shane is his most honest (in vino veritas) and hungry here.
their first kiss after close to two years at shane’s apartment is like saying hello again, and easing back into an act they ache to be familiar with.
when shane kisses ilya so softly and then kisses his forehead, all of those kisses prior seem to catch up with ilya. the voiceless conversations they’ve had, and the honesty in them all scares him. how he feels and can’t stop, it scares him. once he shares one last stairwell kiss, far too sweet and true to be safe, ilya steels himself to kiss shane as little as possible for as long as possible, even if it’s all he wants.
i could go on but every kiss they share says something. when they finally are on the same page and finally confess, with their voices, that they love each other, their kisses aren’t any less raw, sweet, or hungry. but now those kisses are backing up what they mutually know to be true - they never have nor ever will be able to stop loving the other.
so crazy that when taylor swift wrote i’ve been meaning to tell you i think your house is haunted your dad is always mad and that must be why and i think you should come live with me and we could be pirates then you won’t have to cry or hide in the closet she was actually thinking about svetlana and ilya
to add to this,
i hate it here so i will go to lunar valleys in my mind when they found a better planet only the gentle survived i dreamed about it in the dark the night i felt like i might die no mid-sized city hopes and small town fears i'm there most of the year cause i hate it here i hate it here
so crazy that when taylor swift wrote i’ve been meaning to tell you i think your house is haunted your dad is always mad and that must be why and i think you should come live with me and we could be pirates then you won’t have to cry or hide in the closet she was actually thinking about svetlana and ilya
"Hollander may as well have stabbed Ilya in the gut. Ilya could practically feel the blade twisting, tearing up his insides. He hoped Hollander didn’t notice his shaking fingers as he brought the cigarette back to his lips. In that moment, Ilya wanted to tell Hollander everything. Instead, he closed his eyes and said, “I should sleep.” x
what should’ve happened in the hotel gym 💘