𝐟𝐭. goldhhearts ┊ jina & jinsang.
OH , fuckfuckfuckfuck. he WOULD be stupid enough , in his jina - induced reverie , to leave his laptop screen open on an audio file . THE audio file that contains maybe the most sappy , disgusting piece of music he’s ever created in his life . oh , fuck him .
& he’s hyper aware of how the weight on the couch shifts next to him , how in one swift motion she could maybe lay on his shoulder , or his lap if she wanted . another timeline , maybe . another timeline where she WASN’T ryu jina of mystic girls & he wasn’t some lovesick idiot — ❝ um – yeah , ❞ is what he ends up saying , his hands curling up protectively , hovering hesitantly above the keyboard . it’d be weird if he didn’t let her listen ; he lets her listen to everything , because of course he values her opinion as another artist . but would it be weirder if she DID ?
but he finds himself nodding , forcing himself to unclench his asshole as he leans over to grab his headphones , holding them out to her . ❝ it’s , uh — it’s probably no good , though . you know how demos go … ❞ nervous laughter . because this is more than a song demo to him , now — it’s nothing short of a confession demo . how she reacts now must clue him in how she’ll react if he ever actually DOES … you know . tell her . not that he will . he’s not THAT delusional . har har . so it’s with baited breath that he stares at the file , before hitting play .
she’s about to scoff at the idea that his demos could be anything but brilliant ; then the first note plays, and then — i wander in the darkness — her breath catches.
although she can feel his stare — that was when i met you, the warmth, and the gentle touch that soothed me through the cracks — jina can’t bring herself to look at jinsang as the demo continues — you are the gravity to me who was unstable — eyes gazing unseeingly at the computer screen.
and while she is silent — after lonely times, i have found my place — her thoughts are anything but. the lyrics — i always pretended not to know about the feeling — threaten to overwhelm her — you did not ask me anything, just stayed by my side — as though the words were coming from her own heart rather than his ; did they come from his? were they something personal — in the end, it was you — or just a cliché he thought would make a nice song? the thought that he might be writing about someone other than her — the reason called you — is one that she can barely stand, but the subject maybe, possibly, perhaps, being her — you are the gravity that pulls me endlessly — is surely nothing more than a dream. right?
it’s only as the final note fades away that jina remembers that breathing is important, though she sincerely doubts the tightness in her chest is due to lack of air. “ i .. that was ... ” she runs a hand through her hair, pushing bangs back from her eyes. “ that was beyond words, jinsang, in a really good way. ” an understatment, to say the least, but her teeth return to worrying her bottom lip. “ wh — ” who did you have in mind when you wrote these lyrics? not knowing the answer is enough to stop the question in her throat. “ i mean, can — could i sing it? not just in the studio, though i want to do that too, but ... now. ”


















