a summer child's winter heart;

J. 18. Cavite. Maroon. "The weather varies between heavy fog and pale sunshine; my thoughts follow the exact same process."

[thesewordsacheforyou]

She is the stars to your night sky, and I am the black void behind those stars. I always thought  the ghost of her was following us, I was wrong — I was the ghost all this time.

I wish I was her || d.c.a  (via themystiquemiss)

[asummerchild]

Pagod na pagod na ako

In fairness, for once naramdaman ko na maging puta. Halos ibato na lang sakin ng nanay ko yung testing fee ko para sa law tangina ano ba so di na ba ako mag-aapply? Ano bang gusto nyong gawin ko? I know I screwed up pero I’m working my ass here para ayusin yung buhay ko. Hindi ko na alam kung ito ba talaga yung gusto ko for myself pero I’m doing it kasi doing it seems to make you happy. Except now it nothing I do pleases you anymore.

My whole life, matino akong anak. I screwed up once! And para bang lahat na lang ng ginawa ko for 18 years, wala na. Para bang hindi ako yung naging pinaka-trustworthy mong anak for a while. Siguro nga I never was. Ako lang yung madaling utusan, yung most pliable. Bakit pag yung mga kapatid ko yung nag-screw up, binibigyan mo sila ng luxury of your wrath. Ako, suddenly naging transparent??? Naging inconvenience??? Naging harang?? You don’t talk to me! You don’t even acknowledge me!

I’ve reached a point in my life na sobrang stretched na ako and I find no comfort anywhere. Even alone. Even in my own home. Where am I to go?

[asummerchild]

I have a rainy day fund, you know. Until recently, it was raining rather a lot. But I... I've been trying to use an umbrella.

☂️☂️☂️

[asummerchild]

I want to end this year with you the same [way] we started it, together. Thank you thank you for sticking with me.

b

[asummerchild]

Asking for a friend

How do you tell someone you really really you-have-no-fucking-idea-just-how-much miss someone without sounding needy or clingy?

[asummerchild]

[wnq-writers]

She’s on a hiatus. Let her rest. Don’t bother her. Don’t be so foolish as to think that she’s done. She’s only getting started. There is much more to come. Let her be. She will be ready when she’s ready.

Bruce Adler (via wordsnquotes)

[ayearofthoughts]

[socialconflict-deactivated20240]

My goal is to be so warm and full of light that no one has any idea the kind of terrible shit I’ve seen and been through.

[cocsasuggestion]

i had to grow up before i was supposed to 

[blossomfully]

Call me at 4am. Wake me up. I don’t care, I just want to hear your voice. Tell me about the bad dream you had, tell me why you can’t fall asleep. Tell me why you prefer to talk at night, or why the words only come spilling from your mouth when you think no one is listening. I am here. I will listen to you when your shoulders feel heavy; I will hear your words when you feel so crushingly small. I will sit with you in silence when you are slumped against your pillow. I know your sadness is not beautiful, I know it is overwhelming and destructive and ugly. I know you feel powerless and redundant. So call me at 4am. I prefer you over sleep any day. Don’t sit there on your own. Talk to me. I love you and I care.

S. Zhao (via blossomfully)

[gunseli]

[dollpoetry]

We all have old versions of ourselves. Do you see yourself the same way as last year, last month, or even last week? I do not. I talk to people so easily these days, I stand where I once crumbled just at a touch last year. I do not cry when my father raises his voice like I did a few months ago. I compliment a girl I could not talk to last week. Constantly, we are changing, growing, fluctuating. This is how I know we have many soulmates. Maybe you met yours when you were as young as eight or as old as seventy-eight. Either way, we have a soulmate of every version of ourselves. You loved an old version of me. You can keep her. I do not want that version of myself back ever again.

We are growing and changing constantly, we all have different versions of ourselves that different versions of people love. (via dollpoetry)

[lovemelikenutella-blog]

I need someone who will sit on a rooftop with me at 2 in the morning and will tell me their favorite songs and their family problems and how they think the earth was made

[asummerchild]

“You do not take back words you have spoken; 

you take responsibility for them.”

[asummerchild]

“I’m not sure if he loves me or he’s just lonely...”

credits to Sundae Kids

[asummerchild]

Head up. Clear your mind. Maximize current options, then work from there. Don't compare yourself sa iba, focus on what you have to achieve. I believe in you, ***. Kaya have faith in yourself, ayt?

I’ve been collecting motivational quotes and photo texts online, alternating them as my desktop background in order to save my sanity. They are all shit compared to this. Thank you.