A Syntax Of Shaking Hands

34 she/her canada

[roua-poemului]

“It was a mistake to keep this single knife in my heart so long, but it is my knife, and my heart, too.”

— Richard Jackson, from “Basic Algebra” Richard Jackson Greatest Hits: 1980-2004.

[formlab]

Flexur T2, Sound Works

[yanushkaa]

It’s all about pink

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

I never really feel that I’m distant because I’m giving everything in that moment to be present but honestly I realize that I am very much distant, that I don’t really let people close to me. I don’t have a problem with being vulnerable but apparently there’s a part of me that I won’t give. It’s untouchable. There’s a certain level of closeness that I don’t give to people and honestly I don’t realize I’m not letting people close enough until later on when I no longer talk to them.

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

I was asleep until she woke me up by standing next to the bed and pressing her whiskery mouth against my mouth (kind of scared me) and now I’m stuck underneath the weight of her as she sleeps peacefully on top of me.

And you can see Mocha in the background who came and joined me at some point without waking me up.

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

To whoever cares I saw a yellow butterfly the other day.

(Apparently it’s called a Tigerswallow Tail or a Sulphur.)

[neptunianfairy]

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

Yup losing my voice but can’t take any cold medication because it always messes with my antidepressants.

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Many relationships would be a lot healthier if we romanticized honest, open and direct communication instead of idealizing the idea of a partner who's intuitively in tune with your every need. You don't need someone who can read your mind, you just need someone who's willing to listen when you speak.

[whimsifae]

the most fun a girl can have is finding parallels, noticing patterns, making connections, contemplating

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

works in the general public but goes to a family event and gets sick???? wth!

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

Do we all go about life looking for some sort of fix or is it just me? I’m not talking about drugs but it’s on the list sometimes…

Maybe spending money will help. Maybe overworking at my job will help. Maybe a trip will help. Maybe a new friendship will help. Maybe not sleeping will help. Maybe masturbating all the time will help. Maybe I should just get drunk again. Maybe I should do a line.

One impulsion to the next.

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

“same me just heavier metal.” 😈

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

The feeling of needing to work all the time is coming back… I don’t want to be a workaholic…

[j2hpics]

Cosmic Peach 🍑 💙

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

A reminder that even keychains and keychain attachments need washed. Many need to be washed by hand but some can just be washed in the machine. I’ve washed my lanyard a few times over the years.

[asyntaxofshakinghands]

I don’t know how to be who I am around people who know me as who I used to be.

That version of me is gone.