Love letter confession 4rm my notes: The first time I met L he had pink eye in both eyes & walked right passed me bc he didn't know I was 6ft, but he had me hooked π. As I was Facetiming him at work today (he's singing "on the hotline" here π€£) I just kept wishing the world could experience the exact kind of spark & love he makes me feel. As much as I complain, this face right here puts me in my happy place. Sometimes I feel so irrational or overprotective because I care so much about him but after thinking on it and spending a lot of time watching our garden I've concluded in a weird alternate reality kind of way, he was (&still is) like my sun/water/life force when I was the little seed full of potential buried in the dirt. I never expected this unknown outside force to crack my shell open, shower me w/all this love, light & information then shake up my foundation only to reassure me once my core broke thru the surface that it was safe to unfold my leaves & let my flowers bloom. π± The beauty & real part of it though is that not every flower we've produced together has made it. We lost a child early on, we've fallen out over our egos on multiple occasions, we've experienced and worked thru infidelity, family issues, self-image/security issues, all the ugly shit people hate talking about bc it tarnishes their polished public image. Witnessing him for who he is and watching him live so ambitiously and free in his purpose inspired me to do the same for myself and pass that 2 our children. Loving him made me develop a new perspective on the cycle of life & death in every situation and that made me appreciate it all more. It also made me face the fact that this beacon in my life won't always be with me physically and that creates this heart crushing anxiety within me but then I realized he is so much more than the physical. He is an idea, a feeling, an energy and as that he will live forever. I just want to say I will love you for forever @artby_rox & thank you for everything. Plus "I really think you're great and I can't wait to make more of you πΆπΎ" ππlolπΏπ₯to #morelife . #loveeachother #thisisus #shine #Growth #marriedlife #friends #relationships