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Trigger warning

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It’s been a while. I’ve been dating someone for about two months now. High school is a bitch. Turns out I have thyroid problems. My ex is dating one of my old friends My friends hate me. they don’t even wanna hang out w/ me. When I’m not w/ my significant other I have no one to talk to I can’t ever be serious and it’s ruining my relationships My significant other might need to break up with me but we both rely on each other It’s a little unhealthy But we’re doing our best I love them so much I’m afraid that if we broke up they’d kill themself. I deserve to die. I’m so fat and I should just stop eating. I might start restricting again. Only one meal a day. I might take the five days of radio silence again I need to work out more I’m so disgusting I’m literally so annoying and boring None of my friends wanna be around me and I can understand that I cry way too much it’s pathetic I need to relapse I’m not valid

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Five Days of Radio Silence Oath:

I swear to not text anyone unless in case of an emergency, for five whole days. Today, April 5, 2018, was day one. This includes not posting, liking, or commenting anything on social media, tumblr mostly excluded.

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Doing this again

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fun fact: you need to take about 173 tablet of aspirin before you overdose and die.

another fun fact: 1/40 attempted suicides with pills are successful

another fun fact: things to be hung with can be rope or clothing hangers.

another fun fact: theres nowhere in my house thats a good place to hang myself.

another fun fact: theres a bridge walking distance from my house that goes over a bridge.

another fun fact: everyone around me would be happier without me.

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feelin this mood rn

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I think my ex boyfriend attempting suicide twice in the week after I broke up with him, me having to abruptly cut contact with someone who was my best friend, and my parents constantly proving I can’t trust them is maybe causing more damage to me then i originally thought i wish i could just ask out my crush but i know it would end up badly and end up hurting both of us

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i won’t kill myself but i want to

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upper thigh

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i haven’t been on this blog in forever but there’s so much shit i wanna vent about

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im constantly on edge i can’t even feel safe in my room

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i can’t stand being around my parents

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im so mad!!!! i did better all summer with a few dips and shits! i think my crush might like me back! my art is doing great! but one (1) measly panic attack and it all goes to shit!

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im so mad!!!! i did better all summer with a few dips and shits! i think my crush might like me back! my art is doing great! but one (1) measly panic attack and it all goes to shit!

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tumblr messes with the spacing on my last post

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my dad is so loud and fucking horrible i might be blowing things out of proportion but he just yelled at me for breaking my phone rules and i had a panic attack im still crying and snuffling and shit i grabbed my scissors, looked down, and saw blood on my joints my mom doesn’t really give a shit lmao it truly do be like that sometimes

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my dad is so loud and fucking horrible i might be blowing things out of proportion but he just yelled at me for breaking my phone rules and i had a panic attack im still crying and snuffling and shit i grabbed my scissors, looked down, and saw blood on my joints my mom doesn’t really give a shit lmao it truly do be like that sometimes

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i wanna kill myself my stabbing my pocketknife into my neck

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god i just wanted to have a happy last day of school but my friend made me feel self concious and my parents made me cry again, as per usual. anyway, i feel like absolute shit and i have to travel to utah with my family on sunday and we’re staying for at least three weeks. im so fucking tired of this bullshit.