[kiwipeel]

this shit sucks. wish bulbasaur was real . 

[atriflecattish]

my sister is trying to move to nc and thatd be cool bc she’d be closeR but like idk i miss when we’d cry together when we needed it. i need it right now lol! i think comforting and crying together is nice when it’s needed! i miss being around my sisters i miss them so much i miss my mom and her dog

[atriflecattish]

low key in a shitty mood because the incredibly exhausting amount of effort i put into things is like. useless lmao

[atriflecattish]

love whenever i find out that someone im friends w is in a good union 😊

[atriflecattish]

Fucked uppp over some childhood trauma shit today

[unseelie]

[atriflecattish]

Being taught from an early age how to effectively kill myself "if i really really need to in a situation" also probably fucked me up a little

Sorry i only post sad shit now i have to not say anything like this out loud

[atriflecattish]

Seeing my dad try to kill my mom and seeing my mom try to kill herself like reaaaaally messed me up huh

[atriflecattish]

contamination style ocd got way worse since corona hit. i am so overwhelmed and worried and i need support but everyone tells me to keep it to my therapist who urges me to talk to friends when i get the Kablooies 🙃 I feel like everyone important to me hates me and all the things i want to do to extinguish it aren't usual in conversation lol i just idk i feel like too many things that lead to too many things and i'm so scared it makes me hateable and i have to clean the apartment even though i'm running on a calorie deficit and i'm too upset to eat lol. I'm so tired and frustrated i'm just going around the apartment exasperated about the task and then i pull my hair and then i cry bc i love my nice thick hair and i don't want to ruin it, and i can't escape the most sad thoughts my brain conjures

[atriflecattish]

lying in bed watching seinfeld, switching between udon and dark chocolate. towel under me bc i got the sake sweats 😳 probably gonna try to nap or something and in a few hours get more chocolate lmao. should grab orange juice too bc i need a lil boost to handle going grocery shopping tomorrow

[atriflecattish]

Yeah actually it does suck

[atriflecattish]

Haters will say i spend too much time in bed and in the shower but y'know what! I will say i have a difficult time and in these places i can cry and i can sing softly a little and in bed i can watch a familiar show and sleep. I don't really want to feel bad for wanting to rest.

I also love to do stuff though. I love projects and I love making things and I love getting into silly conversation in passing I love working under terms i'm aware of I love doing things i'm good at which feel fulfilling/are helpful I love all these things too but man you know what i want to also have things be made clear so i understand how it operates otherwise lol i feel drained

[atriflecattish]

🙄🙄🙄

[atriflecattish]

ugh ry*n is so hot

[atriflecattish]

WASP girls will post a photo of their blonde peach fuzz armpit hair and talk about their personal bravery for challenging the male gaze which barely cares about them in the first place

[atriflecattish]

anytime a friend whose work i admire especially when it’s for like over a decade compliments my art or design or whatever it kinda is like. oh hell yea

[caesarsaladinn]

So much of what is “cringe” is just… earnest.