After The Summer

[atsdie]

If only I know. If only I know. If only I know. Forget it, let’s go. No, I hold it close

For whenever she wakes up.

She’ll need me I know…

I can’t wait any longer.

[atsdie]

If holding onus in signs of homeless we find a golden and cheek what’s sown then.

[atsdie]

God said the word and the word was…

In love not fake love

No faking, love - fake blood

But when I break in you I taste blood

Not mine but something like

A link between us.

Infinite pieces that make us

Take a breath I’m “waste love”

But when I’m with you I can create love.

What the fuck, I thought I was done. (thank god im not)

Seems even the knower knows nothing once.

[atsdie]

Impossible

Unstoppable.

Don’t blink you’ll miss the whole thing.

[atsdie]

Horrible horrible people practice throwing spears at elephants.

Man… elegant exercise in, demons aside, exorcism as healing. But at what cost,

I’m reeling?

The feeling never lingers when I think I thought I found it. Is it me all along? Am I the one creating spaces like open sores but they never close?

No, I know the difference, I’ve had enough of those.

Sometimes luck is just bad and a rose is really just a rose.

[atsdie]

Inside just trust her.

[atsdie]

That bad that way north way forced way is torn away from forcers fingers let it linger if I loved I think I didn’t cause I’m sitting here and now I do it’s subtle and ok to leave but I never want it to.

[atsdie]

Hoper

[atsdie]

Take truth take youths and use them to speak about meek mental illness to avoid noticing thieves.

But they do.

[atsdie]

Working on healing

[atsdie]

Bodied until you save me

You do every time.

[atsdie]

You guys know me

I’m the strongest one there is.

I just want you to be happy.

[atsdie]

And then it dawned on me that the dawn was upon me.

[atsdie]

In Harmer and sin

I find something within

[atsdie]

Trying my hand

Drawing lines in the sand

The lies hurt and worth

Is hard to come by

But I put the sandcastle down

or the idea aside

I look up

You clear my

Mine.

[atsdie]

Love is deep and brilliant, a fixed idea beyond human doubt.

[atsdie]

we are the same in cycles