Hello! I came across your fic “some kind of haunted” literally three days ago and I haven’t stopped thinking about it ever since. Your comments are disabled, so I was very glad to see you had a tumblr account, so at the very least I could let you know how much I’ve come to love it, and how great I think it is.
This last chapter really hit me. I rarely see realistic depictions of depression in books or films, but you managed to hit the nail on the head. The way you described it, the way Mike felt so heavy all the time, like he wanted to sink into the bed and never leave, the way he only got up because of Gigi and his external obligations, even when they felt bigger and more difficult than climbing a mountain—that part when he mentally recalled that he needed to pay the electrical bills and take Maple to the groomer and go to work and get Gigi to daycare, and do a million things more made me feel so overwhelmed and emotional because I related to that feeling so acutely it felt like you had opened my brain and seen it for yourself before writing it—. But most importantly how he kept telling himself he was okay, because he was functional. He was functional. He wanted nothing more than to close his eyes for a second and forget about the outside world, and yet, he was going through the motions and keeping up with his responsibilities; acting like a functional member of society. It said, I’m TRYING! Everyday I’m trying my hardest! I just don’t know for how long I can keep it up
Anyways I had to stop reading for a sec there to gather myself, but it was worth it. I can’t wait to see the call to Harvey. Thank you for you work 🩷
Thank you so much.
Obviously depression looks different for everyone, even day to day, but I was able to draw on a lot of my own experiences for Mike and to know it resonated with people is amazing- whether it made someone feel seen or whether it gave someone insight into how it can feel.
My circumstances are different to Mike's for so many reasons, but it was cathartic for me as a writer to be able to give Mike a support network for this moment.
But thank you for this message. It means the world.
