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tis a rant dump | i can't tumblr | ao3 | avid reader

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i knew my cts not being bad when i was hella busy was sus - now when i have three deadlines, it's hitting me over the head with a hammer

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communicating with professors at uni is like - i know you have a real life too, but can you pleasepleaseplease answer my email, it's urgent TT

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sometimes i think my pain is way less than it is, but i know it hurts so i make the adjustments quietly to my lifestyle. and then i see the people around me notice and are concerned- and i'm like, "oh, so it isn't in my head?"

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opened tumblr to post something, but what that something is i can no longer remember, so this is a placeholder until i do - or if i do

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what is with elderly and invalidating your lived experiences when you know better than them. my aunt and grandma have come here for a holiday and i'm like, "don't use the sink in the toilet," and they're like, "that's not a sink, that's a cistern!" yes, i know what a tank is and that is a sink.

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i think one of the most heartbreaking things you need to understand as an adult is that, when it comes to new friendships (i'm talking relative to your life, like 3 or 4 years compared to 10 or 15), your best friend may not have you as theirs. it's a little heartbreaking, because you go about your day and they'll always occupy a thought or two daily, but you know you're not on theirs the same

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everyone rejoice, Ao3 is back

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it is 5 am and i just finished writing my finals and i wanted to sit down with a little chapter before i slept- *ao3 is down*

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

edit: 9 hours later i wake up, and it's still down????

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i love socmed fics. people are so unhinged and i devour their madness

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miss me with dem midterms, it has just started and im already dying, and theyre till next week???

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i did die. carpal tunnel has my hands in a hostage

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miss me with dem midterms, it has just started and im already dying, and theyre till next week???

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i find it so funny, that before i entered the f1 fandom, i was subscribed to maybe.. about 10? users on ao3. i have been on ao3 since 2019. now i have enough to fill two pages of user subscriptions in the span of about 3 months

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dear portal future fandom,

should i read hive mind? i'm so attached to earth girl that deviating to the other series seems like a betrayal. but give it straight to me and tell me whether i should get over this hangover of mine and start reading them.

sincerely, someone who reads the earth girl trilogy at least once a year

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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WHATS UP WITH SHIT WRITING OMGGG

the premise. is good (sorta). arranged marriage (they're supposedly in love with each other). one is suffering in silence, while the other is obliviously neglectful. it all explodes and fam gets involved. the other kidnaps the first one and that implodes and he needs to grovel to fix their relationship.

BUT!!!! there was no relationship in the first place!!! only a piece of signed paper!!! you ignored him and now suddenly he's yours??? only yours when it's convenient?? and the grovelling? all monetary and physical. the inlaws? traumatised and given no answers.

so, good plot idea, terrible execution

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so i rewatched the book of life for the first time as an adult (twice as a kid), and i have things to say:

in order of who pisses me off the most to the least: joaquin, maria, manolo

maria pisses me off as an adult; she playing games with manolo - like if you like him, why you entertaining joaquin too???? make it make sense

she also lowkey a mary sue - "oh yeh btw, i learnt fencing and kung fu"

the 'forgive me' song during manolo's final bullfight was better than any other love song in the movie

manolo and maria give "village boy who isn't intimidated by his girl's smarts"

please, why did i love this movie so much as a child?

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