At the Iron Dragon Dojo, Terry Silver and Sensei Wolf aka Feng Xiao Terry's husband both training the two best students of the Iron Dragon Dojo for the Sekai Taikai. Wolf was working with Axel about defence and Terry was working with Zara on offence when Terry's phone rings its the nanny Mayfair telling him that she had to drop off their little ones at the dojo because she couldn't watch baby Stacie and toddler Maxwell this afternoon because she had a dentist appointment.
Terry says ok bring them and I will pay you for a half day today once there Maxwell runs in and Mayfair hands Stacie to Terry and pays Mayfair for her half-day watching the two little ones Maxwell says, Daddy daddy can me do kawate pwease. Terry says sorry buddy you are still too little how about I let you watch something on your table Maxwell pouts and says otay Daddy and Silver places Stacie in his and Wolf’s office on the floor on a blanket he says ok sweetheart please be calm you have kept me and papa up two days in a row so please fall asleep. Maxwell drinks apple juice from his sippy cup watching Bluey.
Meanwhile, Wolf and Terry were finishing up their intense training session with Axel and Zara once they finished Wolf said to Terry, my love remember when we adopted our little ones it was like yesterday you remember how stubborn Maxwell was at first and how fussy and Colic Stacie was when we got her remember Maxwell tried to help but he couldn't and he kept trying to give her candy. Terry then says yep but I love our little family but if I see my ex-husband Kreese I swear I am going to kill him then Wolf wraps his arms around Terry and kisses him and says love lets not let hate tear us apart.
Summary: Johanna and (Y/N) find ways to live after the pain.
Wc: 4k
Tw: hunger games details, mentions of death and gore. Less that The Hunger Games , but more that the average agree fic.
I feel like I’ve lost control of everything since the games ended and the rebellion succeeded. After years of torture, it was over but I wasn’t over it. Mentally I was never free. I feel it lurking around every corner, in my brain and physically.
I see the faces of the people I killed in the arena and for the rebellion. I see the faces of those I lost: Finnick, bogs and so many others. I see the torture I endured in the capital and in my district. I cannot sleep due to this haunting.
I’m lucky enough not to be alone. After the rebellion won the therapist said both Johanna and I should not live alone. We both quickly decided we tolerate each other well enough, so we would rather live together than have a “babysitter”. We still have mandatory therapy appointments but most are done on the phone.
Johanna was loud and harsh a majority of the time, she seemed to have calmed down slightly since our freedom was established. She was outspoken still but she was honest and genuine. She always tried her best to calm me during my episodes, she has improved her ability to empathize but still struggles.
She says I help ground her too. I never feel like I do, but I suppose I can’t determine how she feels. She sometimes talks about how we met, she talks about how she saw me during my games while she was the mentor, and she discusses the past and who we were. Johanna has grown nostalgic, talking about the innocence in my eyes during my first interview. It’s hard to remember. I’m only 21 now, but it’s hard to remember when I was a child or when I had a childhood.
Even before the games, I fought to survive and help my family survive. I trapped animals by the fences and worked for anyone willing to pay. And not to talk about the horrors from after my first game.
Now we live in a house on the edge of the woods in district 7. Johanna has started building a log cabin farther into the woods, as she has wanted to do for a long time, it’s part of her therapy I think. I meet with my therapist meets with me every Saturday morning, and so far she’s said I’ve made no improvements.
She wants to actually meet in person this weekend so we can try a new method. I agreed, only because I knew Johanna would be in the woods. She would probably stay close enough to hear me if I scream, she’s always nervous to leave me with strangers.
Johanna had left early for the woods, claiming she wanted to get a lot of work done. My therapist showed up with a large bag over her shoulder. She made herself comfortable in Johanna and my living room. She accepts my offer of water, rejecting coffee or tea.
“So how have you been sleeping?” She asks, as soon as I sit across from her.
“Umm… The usual amount… I guess maybe a little more…” I reply shyly. I hated that question.
“That’s good that you are increasing your sleep, even just a little. That’s a huge step for you!” She said, she was sincere, but I always feel like she’s being sarcastic. “What about nightmares?”
“No change,” I said almost too fast. It’s not that there was an increase in number, it was an increase in severity.
“Okay, now I was hoping you would be willing to talk about what you were like before the games?” The therapist asked.
“God it’s been so long, I guess I was a normal child? I mean I had a family, I went to school, worked. I was the average kid in my district.” I reply.
“So what I’m hearing is you never really had time for those key parts of being a kid?” The therapist asked, “Did you feel like your needs were being met in all capacities?”
“Yeah! My family gave me the best life they could!” I yell, I felt like she was spitting on the efforts and the fight they put into providing the life I had.
“I didn’t mean to offend you, I simply meant compared to that of perhaps a capital child!” The therapist explained, “the reason I brought it up is so I could be positive that this therapy had a chance to be helpful.”
“What is this therapy?” I said reserved again.
“So it’s called age regression. It is a coping/therapeutic method that helps you reconnect to your inner child, to a point where you were safe and felt loved.” The therapist explained, “what it is, is you revert to a childlike mental state where you will have a chance to engage with like like you are that age.”
I grumble, almost embarrassed that this is even a suggestion. I think about how Johanna’s therapist told her to build the house she wanted and acknowledge the way she feels. AND I GET TURNED INTO A BABY?
“You don’t seem thrilled by the idea, however, I would really like you to give it a genuine try.” The therapist said, “I won’t ask you to attempt in front of me as I know you aren’t ready for that yet. But I would also like you to reflect if there was any time you might have accidentally or unintentionally regressed okay?”
“Yeah, I guess I can try to do that.” I signed.
“Okay, I will leave you with this bag of different items that might help you regress. And how about we call next week and meet in person the time after that?” She asked.
“Yeah, that will work for me,” I said staring at the bag as if it could come alive at any point.
She was quick to leave after that. Once I was alone, I picked up the bag. However, the door goes flying open, and in comes Johanna. She tried to play it cool, but it was obvious she wanted to make sure I was okay.
“What’s in the bag?” Johanna immediately asked, pointing her ax at it.
“Apparently stuff for a new type of therapy…” I gave up the information.
“Yeah? Morphling? That’s some good stuff to help you forget the pain.” She jabs at herself, she had an intense addiction after she was held in the capital.
“Umm… no… I don’t know exactly what is in it…” I didn’t lie, I technically didn’t know exactly what was in the bag.
“Okay,” She raised her hands as a surrender, “I have to get back to work, but I’ll be back before dinner tonight.”
“Okay, be safe,” I reply.
“Obviously, got a lot to do still!” She replied.
With Johanna gone, I brought the bag to my room. I closed to door and immediately started going through the bag. I was almost embarrassed to say that I was excited, it felt like I was getting lots of gifts.
On the top of the bag, I pulled out fake stuffed animals, a bunny, and a bear. I giggled lightly thinking of how Jo and I presented, the stuffed animals looked like us. I was fast and jumpy during my games, like a bunny. Johanna was strong and sturdy with her axe during her games, like a bear.
I go into the bag again and find a few types of dolls. Then I pull out diapers, I yelp at this. I placed the diapers very far away, I wasn’t willing to try that! I grab another item quickly to avoid lingering on the diapers. The item I pull out is a storybook. It was a picture book, it looked like something I would have enjoyed as a kid.
I dove into the bag again, this time pulling out a coloring book. I could do that and not feel too embarrassed. I continued pulling stuff from the bags, primarily toys, pacifiers, and teethers.
With everything laid out, I decided that I was willing to try the coloring books and teethers/paci tonight. The stuffed animals somehow already made themselves at home on my bed. I guess I should put on something comfortable and try what the therapist said.
Once cozy, I lay on the floor and begin looking through the coloring book. I settle on a picture of a Pegasus with butterflies. I begin coloring the picture, I start on the butterflies, coloring the wings a burnt orange. I was cautious of the edges.
Soon enough, I was done coloring the butterflies and I am feeling slightly fuzzy in the head. It was odd, it felt like when I would go to the parties in the capital and would drink the strange bubbly drinks, that always made me giggly. I was giggly now too. I notice I am not holding the crayon correctly anymore. I am gripping it in my fist, and rubbing it against the page.
I feel light, almost weightless. It is nice to feel so carefree, I am childlike again. I feel like when I was 7. I dive back into coloring, one page turns into two turns into a handful. My drawing begins to ignore the lines and I pick the most fun colors rather than the ones that would work together the best. I start sprawling on the floor, rubbing my eyes with my balled-up fist, and haphazardly swiping my hair out of my face with no grace.
I suppose it must have been a while since I began my session. Because it grew dark in my room, as the light from the window faded out of view. I whimper at the change in light, I feel silly being scared of the dark but I was so small. Smaller than when I was 7, I wanted Johanna. I always felt safe with her. However, I couldn’t let her see me like this. I felt embarrassed that this made me feel better, I should be able to deal with it like every other victor. But here I am sprawled on the ground giggling at the pictures I color, as my thumb migrates toward my mouth. Just as it passes my lips, the slamming of a door startles me. Johanna always was rough on the doors after a long day.
“(Y/N)?” She yelled out from the living room. I freeze, think big thoughts, think big thoughts I repeat to myself.
“Yes?” I yell back, I sounded wrong. I move to get up and go to the door, hoping she wasn’t set on coming into my room as there was no time to get everything hidden before she comes in. I was lucky enough to slip out before she made it to my door. I smile at the sight of her sweaty frame, she had been working hard on the cabin. Seeing her like this was always slightly domestic, she had a slight smile and her axe was left at the door.
“What have you been up to, birdie?” Johanna asked, she called me that as the first time we met, I squawked like a bird. I did not mean to she startled me and now she wouldn’t let me live it down.
“I was doing something that the doc wanted me to do…” I reply shyly, It was scary to talk about treatment. Johanna would want to know, making a comment about ‘supporting’ each other. She acted like it was important to us, but I think she just likes being nosy. “I meant to make dinner, but I go distracted…”
“You sound off, weird almost,” Johanna said bluntly, she didn’t mean it in an offensive way she just spoke like that. “How about we cook up some soup now? We got that rice from district 11 that you liked, we can try to make the rice soup seeder made that one time.”
She always seems to remember the small things that I liked. Last week, she decided to visit Finnick (He was alive but had some nasty scars from the muttations.), and came back with a Tupperware of the same dessert Annie made for her baby shower. I mentioned once that I wish I had the recipe so I could remake it, but I knew it was an important family recipe for Annie so I didn't pry.
“I would like that…” I reply, I sounded small and innocent still like a child. Johanna said nothing this time, I suppose she didn’t care enough to point out that fact.
“Start filling that pot up with water, I’m gonna clean up a little,” Johanna says walking to the bathroom, Johanna has gotten better with showers and water in general. She doesn’t freak out about water she knows is going to touch her, but surprise water still gets to her. Puddles, rain, and any splashes.
Once the pot is filled up, Johanna is out of the shower. She is dressed in a tank top and sweatpants. She looks so pretty.
“All filled up, what is the next step chef?” I asked my voice almost back to normal. I still felt slightly fuzzy in my head.
“You are gonna chop up some broccoli, and I am going to make the base and rice.” She said she was always good at delegating work.
With that, she’s pulling goods out of the pantry and fridge, and I am getting the knife and cutting block. By the time I get the large block of wood, I am pretty sure Johanna made it. If I was being honest, using a knife made me nervous still. I would start to shake and think back to my game.
I stood there staring at the board that had broccoli sitting on it, the knife in my hand. I didn’t mean to space out at this scene. I must have stood there too long, not moving. I felt a hand wrap around mine, as I hold the knife. My head whipped around only to see Johanna’s pity-filled smile.
“It’s just broccoli,” Johanna said, it was blunt. It was meant to be soothing though, it worked better on me than it would on others. Johanna did the leg work of cutting up on veggies while I just leaned back into her sturdy frame.
Johanna was always overly gentle with me, even when she was rough on me it did not compare to the roughness she had towards others. When she had flashbacks or breaks, she never hurt me. She would scream and cry, trying to get me away, but would never hurt me. When we first moved back to district 7, she would rarely shower due to her fear of it, however, I slowly got her to shower. I would stand in the way of the water and she would let the mist that bounced off me hit her. It took a while but she eventually got to a point where she was comfortable showering alone.
“You know you can tell me what your head doctor said to you right?” Johanna asked, before following it up, “Or I could call her and have her tell me…”
“I feel like that would be breaking a rule,” I giggled at her. We placed the knife down as we finished cutting the vegetables.
“Then tell me, little bird,” Johanna said, as she poked at my sides. I felt my face go red and my eyes water a bit.
“You will make fun of me, and then leave me here alone,” I reply looking down at my hands.
“Now, does that sound like something I would do?” She asked as she dumped the vegetables into the soup and left it to simmer. “What if I told you something that my head doctor told me to do that I don’t like?”
I stood there, ‘would I trade a secret for a secret?’. I nod as I pull myself onto the counter to sit.
“My doctor says it's important that I start connecting with more people and try to connect on a different level…” Johanna all but groaned out.
“Like date someone?” I squeak back.
“I suppose, something about taking care of someone I connect with and care about… blah blah blah. Like I pay attention to that.” Johanna huffed, her eyes bearing into mine as to say she wanted to say more, to be vulnerable but wasn’t able to form the words.
“Do you not want to ever have that? Someone that loves you as you love them?” I ask quickly, I was never good at hiding my feelings. I always had an affection for her, although I tried to break it. As Johanna would always refuse to love another person after what happened to her.
“I…” She starts and trails off as she stares into my doe eyes. She bit the inside of my cheeks as her eyes flicker to my lips. “Stop trying to stall, tell me what your stupid head doctor said.
I stare at her for a second before reaching my pinky out and asking her if she would still stay with me no matter what. She connected our fingers with a small scuff at my antics. I soon spoke, “So she said before we could deal with the trauma from the games and the umm… you know afterward. I have to address the trauma I have from my childhood…”
“What the f*** does that even mean?” Johanna says, getting angry that the doctor wasn’t just fixing me. I appreciate that she cares this much, but she was being loud and aggressive about it and it startled me.
“She wants me to create a safe childhood for myself…” I am still picking at my nails but I am hyper aware of her shifting next to me.
“What?” She was confused, I could almost hear the cogs turning in her hair.
“She ummm… she wants me to regress…” I finally say, Johanna still didn’t understand but she faked a smile.
“Well, do you think it will fix the screws that are loose?” She asked, it was all she could, she didn’t know anything about it. All I could do was shrug before turning my attention to getting bowls and spoons.
Johanna did not push the topic anymore, at dinner she talked about how the cabin was coming along. She said that I was going to get to decorate it, she would make any furniture I wanted. It was her way of sharing what mattered to her. Her love language
I told her the following day I was going to go into the market to get groceries and asked if there was anything she needed. She said no like always, she always wanted to be the provider. I only smiled and nodded before resuming eating my soup.
The evening was like any other, Johanna and I sat on the couch. She is reading a book about an adventure that takes place far away from here. I sat close to her, writing a grocery list. My head eventually makes its way to her lap. Her hand finds its way to my head, playing with strands, almost petting me. Johanna and I fell asleep like this, I was the first to fall asleep obviously.
This happens a lot, usually when this happens Johanna will either carry me to bed or if she is tired also she will simply wiggle in. She tries to wake up before me so I dont catch her being soft but sometimes I get lucky. I was not lucky that morning, she was gone by the time I woke up. She was most likely in the woods again or perhaps she went to speak with the lady down the street to get a new ax head made.
I did not fret over her whereabouts, she was strong and reliable. I was quick getting ready, I loved days at the market. Now that people are able to enjoy life, the market was light and airy. Kids played and danced, there was always music playing and the shopkeepers were always throwing extra into my bag, as I was a ‘leader’ in the rebellion. I always refused the gifts, I was never a leader, simply a survivor.
Today I stopped by a small flower stand, I always pause to look at them. I could never get myself to buy them, I feel like a capital citizen using money on lavish goods when people could be starving. I am aware the war is over and the likelihood of starvation is low with the new leadership.
I was in the market for about two hours before deciding to walk back to victors village. I took what was considered the long way back, and it only took an additional 5 minutes. However, I enjoyed the extra 5 minutes of birds singing and trees so tall I couldn’t see the top.
When I returned, I opened the door to find Johanna on the couch reading a book. ‘Must have decided to have a short day,’ I think as I drop the groceries in the kitchen before walking over to see how she was. Once I walk back into the living room, I see the title of the book she was reading. I freeze, “Age regression: explanations and tips”. There were other books all similarly themed.
“What are you doing?” I ask nervously. I nibbled on my lip to keep from attempting to remain grounded.
“Reading.” She said dryly, flipping the page. She was obviously enthralled by the book. She had tabs sticking out of it and a pen in her lap.
“You don't have to read that, you can act like nothing is happening!” I meekly reply. I want to cry from embarrassment, how could I be doing this nonchalantly. This is embarrassing.
“Why would I do that? That is stupid.” She didn’t spare a glance away from the book, “Do you need help with the groceries?”
“Umm… No, I can do it. You don’t have to worry about it.” I sputtered out as she finally glanced away from the page she was on, placing a bookmark in it and stood up.
“Too late, you are stuck with my help.” Johanna grunted walking past me to the kitchen.
I follow behind, looking lost. All I could really think of was ‘why?’. Why would Johanna go out of her way to do this for me? Why did it seem she was enjoying my suffering?
“Ohhh, you got the stuff for the meal we had when Katniss visited! It was tasty. When are we making it?” She asked, snapping me out of my mental tirade.
“We can make it whenever, there isn't a specific day I was planning to make it.” I reply, grabbing the bag that held the fruits I bought us.
“Cool, cool. You should read some of the books I got, they are really informative.” She said, watching me like she did during the 75th hunger games. Cautiously, ready to save me from an unseen force.
“Why did you get them?” I ask, staring at the apples I placed in our fridge.
“Well we are gonna be living together for a while so I thought I should at least know a little of what was going on in that head…” Johanna trailed off, an unsureness settling over us.
We let the silence fill the room until she lets out a forced cough. I popped my head up from were I was squatting, still holding the food I meant to put away. She spoke, “So I read that usually regressors have a caregiver, did your doc say anything about getting one?”
I shook my head, not knowing exactly what it was. I did understand she seemed bitter about it. She seemed glad to know I wasn’t planning to get one, she was rather territorial.
“Okay, for now perhaps, I could take on that role? Then my shrink is happy and I know that you are safe.” She suggests.
“Okay, I suppose that’s okay. I don’t know what that means though.” I said.
powerful wittle cg nancy and cg Jonathan xlittle reader
one day Nancy and Jonathon was dropping off el to hoppers cabin when Nancy went in because she had to use the bathroom and she saw another spare room she saw a y/g sitting there with children's
toys and then hopper says well guess the cat is out of the bag this is y/n they are el's little sibling please don't tell anyone about them they are special they have a bigger power then el so we don''t want the government to take them el is so protective of them she has not even
told mike and Nancy i thought friends don't lie and el say's i know but i love my little sibling i would do anything for them that even means lie to protect them the only one who know about them is me dad and mama and Joyce and kali and now you so don't say anything and Nancy says i won't tell
Eleven says they is like this because of what papa and her husband did to them and Nancy says husband how who and eleven says Peter he was a nice orderly but he was subject but he was evil and they he tryed to kill them yes they is half of brenners daughter biology but that’s other half brenner says from some guy named the winter soldier and her mom is the black widow
Jonathan say’s like natahsa Romanoff and Bucky Barnes and Eleven nods and Nancy hold you and you say mama and Nancy says yes I am your mama see over there is your daddy can you say dada and you say dada and you drool and smile .
From that moment’s on you were her and Jonathan’s baby
Enid:(leans on door frame out of breath)why do they have so much energy
Xavier:y/n baby don’t run away from us right now because I don’t want you getting hurt or lost ok
Ajax:I think we should use the leash hear me out I just don’t want to chase after them over and over
Bianca:I think it’s a good idea and that one of us stay with y/n at all times
Y/n:(jumps on bed up and down)
Enid:ah y/n cullen/volturi you get off of that bed right now it’s not made for jumping on (picks y/n up off of bed)
Xavier:hay y/n sweetheart will you look at dad please I have to ask you are your parents going to come this parents week
Y/n:esss they timing
Wednesday:who else’s parents are coming I know maybe mine Enid what about yours
Enid:oh yes they are they want to meet our little one
Ajax:mine I don’t think so
Bianca:mine’s is a definite nope
Miss thornhill:hay guy’s I just came to check on you all (holds Tyler’s Hand)you want to say hello to y/n for a minute we’ll I talk to her mama’s and dada’s
Tyler:(runs and hugs y/n)wook I gots this (holds out candy )ants share
Y/n:(nods)esss we hare thisss
Miss thornhill:Tyler hunny come on we have to go great the parents
Tyler:bye bye friend (hugs y/n runs off)
Wednesday:what is that on your face y/n (wipes y/n face)
Y/n:tandy titi givs me
Xavier:oh boy I have an idea let’s go on a walk put’s toddler leash safety backpack on y/n alright little one you ready to go
In the center yard
Enid:slow down sweetie ok oh no there here already
Wednesday:great there here why can’t I just hide from them
Xavier:so are we going to ignore that the little one is trying to run off again
Enids mom:hay hunny oh my god is this the little one you have been talking about
Enid:yes but they are having a sugar high right now because of a other little gave them some candy hay y/n sweetheart will you say hello
Y/n:hewo *hides into xavier*
Enids mom:well aren’t you just adorable
Morticia:and this must be y/n hello little one
Gomez:ahh my little death trap and who is this lovely little one
Wednesday:ok let’s not gloat here about y/n they have family too
Y/n:hewo’s
Bianca’s mom:well I never thought that you were the motherly type
Bianca:oh but I am and I love y/n to death
Carlisle:there they are (runs over and picks y/n up)hay sweetheart I am so happy to see you
Esme:oh I so happy to see you and thank you for the newsy letters back home
Rosalie:what smells like mutts
Aro:ahh there is my little witch
Caius:why do I smell mutts
Xavier:ok well you probably smell the wolves and the other vampires
Emmett:and who are you because I want to know if my little y/n has a boyfriend
Xavier:no I am Xavier I am one of y/n caregivers
Wednesday:and I am Wednesday y/n other caregivers
Ajax:I am Ajax y/n other caregivers
Bianca:and I am Bianca one of y/n other caregivers
Carlisle:it’s nice to meet you all and thank you for taking care of our little witch
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