NOT MY FUTURE

ind. steve rogers / captain america

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i had the familiar conviction that life was beginning over again this summer

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                                 every night i live & die - i spill my guts to the outdoor light. 

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                                 every night i live & die - i spill my guts to the outdoor light. 

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                                 every night i live & die - i spill my guts to the outdoor light. 

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uhh like this is u want to plot out some stuff cause i dont have a lot of plotted stuff on this blog & i want more

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hopefully ? i will be here this weekend some but if u follow me on bucky i’m sure u have seen my ‘i’m tired & stressed’ posts 

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vihgilant:

             ❛   hey capsicle  ,    you know that thing you’re holding is an incredibly explosive device and any wrong touch could set it off and kill us all.   ❜                                       /         @avengingfirst

    ❛ i’m aware.    ━  bombs aren’t my specialty, okay ?  normally - i just throw them as far as i can.   do you know how to defuse a bomb ?  we didn’t really learn this in basic. ❜

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( ✉ → sms ) don’t listen to any of the voicemails i sent last night. i was drunk.

texting memes | @rdwng

[ sms → sam ]  drunk ?  where’d you go? 

[ sms → sam ]  & i won’t judge you too bad.

[ sms → sam ]  though i will be saving them. just in case. 

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redhexed:

* @avengingfirst

     “  i think i’ve caused enough  problems.   ”  

❛ it’s not your fault.  you’re still learning - you’re not at fault. you saved more people than got hurt.❜

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J.R.R. Tolkien quotes

“All that is gold does not glitter. Not all those who wander are lost.”

“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

“If more of us valued food and cheer and song above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world.”

“There is some good in this world, and it’s worth fighting for.”

“Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.”

“The world is indeed full of peril, and in it there are many dark places; but still there is much that is fair, and though in all lands love is now mingled with grief, it grows perhaps the greater.”

“Deserves it! I daresay he does. Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends.”

“I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil.”

“Do you wish me a good morning, or mean that it is a good morning whether I want it or not; or that you feel good this morning; or that it is a morning to be good on?”

“I am glad you are here with me. Here at the end of all things.”

“Courage is found in unlikely places.”

“It’s the job that’s never started as takes longest to finish.”

“May it be a light to you in dark places, when all other lights go out.”

“Moonlight drowns out all but the brightest stars.”

“A man that flies from his fear may find that he has only taken a shortcut to meet it.”

“I warn you, if you bore me, I shall take my revenge.”

“In this hour, I do not believe that any darkness will endure.”

“It is not the strength of the body that counts, but the strength of the spirit.”

“The world is full enough of hurts and mischances without wars to multiply them.”

“If by my life or death I can protect you, I will. ”

“I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread.”

“It is not despair, for despair is only for those who see the end beyond all doubt. We do not.”

“You have nice manners for a thief and a liar.“

“It is useless to meet revenge with revenge; it will heal nothing.”

“Yes, I am here. And you are lucky to be here too after all the absurd things you’ve done since you left home.”

“Pay heed to the tales of old wives. It may well be that they alone keep in memory what it was once needful for the wise to know.”

“It is perilous to study too deeply the arts of the Enemy, for good or for ill.”

“I wished to be loved by another, but I desire no man’s pity.”

“The whole thing is quite hopeless, so it’s no good worrying about tomorrow. It probably won’t come.”

“Sorry! I don’t want any adventures, thank you. Not Today. Good morning! But please come to tea -any time you like! Why not tomorrow? Good bye!”

“How do you move on? You move on when your heart finally understands that there is no turning back.”

“A red sun rises. Blood has been spilled this night.”

“Don’t go where I can’t follow.”

“I may be a burglar…but I’m an honest one, I hope, more or less.”

“For victory is victory, however small, nor is its worth only from what follows from it.”

“I have passed through fire and deep water, since we parted. I have forgotten much that I thought I knew, and learned again much that I had forgotten.”

“Why must you speak your thoughts? Silence, if fair words stick in your throat, would serve all our ends better.”

“If you sit on the doorstep long enough, I daresay you will think of something”

“There’s some good in this world, and it’s worth fighting for.”

“On their deathbed men will speak true, they say.”

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LIST FOUR SONGS THAT REMIND YOU OF YOUR MUSE.

i and love and you - the avett brothers 

twilight of the gods - mark mothersbaugh

moonlight serenade - glenn miller

boston - augustana 

TAGGED BY: @riverlilys TAGGING: anyone who wants!! 

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♔  :  MUSE PREFERENCES.

open curtains / closed blinds   ;   stray dog / house cat ;   people / pets ;  outside / inside   ; half-empty / half-full  ;   tv / radio   ;   sing / dance   ;   shoes / sandals   ;   cash / credit ; hike / drive / fly  ;casual / elegant ;  center / corner ;   sword / shield   ; airplane / boat   ;   fizzy / flat ;   garnished /plain   ;  extra salt / extra pepper  ; spicy / mild ;   record player / digital media   ;   opaque / transparent ;   white lies / complete truth  ;   blunt / subtle   ;   loud / silent  ; books / music  ;  familiar / new  ; youth / experience  ; spoon / fork & knife ;  knife / baseball bat  ;  space / ocean  ; bow & arrow / blow dart   ;   love at first sight / slow burn ;  freckles /dimples ;   long lashes / long fingers   ;  soft lips / sensitive neck ;   stubble / thick hair  ; slow dance /intimate conversation.

PLEASE REPOST, DON’T REBLOG. tagged by: @givenlegacy tagging: @reddeathed & anyone who wants to do it steal it from me

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five times smiled ;)

send this for five times ur muse made steve smile | @riverlilys

one.     she was the first person to make him feel welcome in this new decade, forty years after he dive-bombed into the ice. they went to a diner, & she ordered for him, some chef’s special, which was the best thing he’d ever eaten.  spends half the time telling stories about her son, peter.  who sounds like an absolute charm, & eventually he has to crack a smile, at her explanation of the current descriptor of peter’s child-like wonder of the world. 

two.      they went stargazing. she drove them out past the lights & into an empty field. at home he could never see the stars ; new york never sleeps, & it sleeps even less in the 1980s than it did in 1941.   but here, they span across the entire sky, the belt of the milky way stretching across the whole sky.  he leans back against the car, chin tilted up as far as it will go, staring at the sky.    ❛ thank you.❜   he says, his face breaking into a grin holding the hint of child-like joy which he hasn’t felt in -- forever.   ❛ this is - beautiful.❜  he doesn’t want to leave. 

three.      ❛ you have to teach me before we go in. ❜   he says, & they’re standing outside a dance hall. ( no, steve, it’s not called that.      he can’t remember what it is called now. he reverts back to what he knows. )    there’s a bit of spring breeze floating through the streets, & it floats meredith’s hair up a bit, blowing around.  he has to smile as she grabs his hands & tries to show him a few steps, unfamiliar & nothing like the ones he tried to learn back home, forty-five years ago.  he has to smile because she looks beautiful in the neon glow of the dance hall on one side of them, & the yellow street light on the other side & her patience in his two left feet warms his life. 

four.    he wasn’t sure what she’d think about going to a dodgers game.  especially since they’d moved out to CALIFORNIA of all places while he’d been under.   half of him feels betrayed, & like he can’t support the los angeles dodgers as much as he could the brooklyn dodgers.  nonetheless, they come to kansas city & he scrambles to get tickets, & in some miracle of chance, meredith says she’ll come along. after, of course, steve confirms that   ❛ oh, yes, of course peter can come along. i’d never dream of not letting him come. baseball is great for boys. he’ll love it, i promise.❜     they’re waiting in the crowded halls of the stadium & a smile creeps up on steve as he watches meredith & peter off to the side, as she ducks down a little to talk to peter for a minute, likely explaining rules & behavior -- goddamn, he’s happy to be here. 

five.    laying fully stretched out on her couch, legs overhanging the arm - built for someone quite shorter than his 6′ 2″ frame.  his head rests to the side, cheek pressed into the fabric of the couch.  he feels young & it’s strange.  ❛ mer - ❜  he says quietly, & she turns from her book to look at him.  there’s such a comfortable silence in the house, & he stays quiet so to keep peter from waking.   it’s a quiet, borderline sad smile, this time.  ❛ thank you.❜  it’s a loaded phrase, & he hopes she can understand.  it means thank you for being here for me,   it means thank you for accepting me,   it means thank you for helping me.     he misses his past, but he’s sure he could make his future right here. 

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Shouldn’t we wait? No, let’s go to bed. [x]

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