#AVENTVRINA a private and highly selective writing blog for an entirely
headcanon based aventurine from honkai star rail. the final victor in the game of life. established in twenty twenty - four. as gambled by Z. she/her . gmt . sporadic activity . 18+ minors dni. ( graphics credit.)
this is still by far my fav trailer of his it encapsulates him so well UGH
"Let's assume-just assuming now- that every time i roll the dice there's a possibility of achieving this particular outcome, then I would be quite happy to make that wager."
This statement is what encapsulates his whole cognition. Lemme explain.
I've seen some takes saying that Aventurine embodies Absurdism and I agree completely. Even though he has his own need to search for the rain even knowing it's end, there's still the underlying doubt that it's somewhat pointless. He still hopes for something, a revelation of sorts, even if very buried in deep skepticism, there's still a part of him that wonders if the he's really destined. And for all intents and purposes he should believe it given that whenever he attempts the near impossible, he somehow always manages to escape.
However that's where the rational kicks in, and the perfect lining of events unfold as according to the plan erasing whatever factor of luck may have been present there. As he accepts both fates, he is ready to roll and adapt with whatever outcome, denying then the actual point of "chance" as most bets are binary and easy to assert each possibility. If you bet between red and black, the answers will always just be red or black.
Where the blessing shines though is on what he cannot predict. I'll use his rescue from Nihility as example cause it's the easiest illustration of this. The outcome of going through the Nihility was either to survive or not. Possibilities that he assumed would be done alone, as his talk with Acheron suggest that there is a chance he'd make it on his own. Argenti finding him while in Nihility is the true surprise factor, it's no longer red or black, it's off the table. A possibility he did not consider and that forces him to accept the luck factor.
So yes, in this sense, he embodies Absurdism as even in a setting where there should be a fixed outcome, the absurdity happens to undo it and denies him of his rational conclusions. But there's more factors that add up to this philosophy. Some responses to "combat" Absurdism is to either a) suicide, b) seeking religion or c) fighting the absurd.
Throughout the Penacony story we see him go through all three. His plan is suicidal, even if heavily planned and curated, it was meant to end with his death one way or the other (and i did already discuss the death of "Aventurine" over him but that's just one of the outcomes he was aiming for, the chance of his actual death was still very much there). We then see him going through a religious journey, be it through Xipe, forcing him to accept a path between death or Harmony, or through Gaiathra, as he's reminded of his original beliefs and all that it entails to it. And then, finally, we see him go through the fight against the Absurd, via an acceptance of it on his talk with Acheron in the Nihility, and him choosing to still attempt to succeed through his own accord when the answer still remains unclear.
The last option is the one that is optimal when fighting Absurdism as it fully accepts it and addresses it for what it is. The willingness to accept that the answer exists but is still not within reach. The other two deny Absurdism, thus letting it win by default as it either it prevents the existence of an answer or offers an answer that may not be correct. When i speak of Aventurine being somewhat of an atheist this is what i mean.
He doesn't deny the existence of a higher power (that's almost impossible in the HSR verse since the Aeons are physical). However, the notion of fate and destiny is paradoxical enough to be contested as the Aeons play games without regarding humanity and "luck" exists. And he understands this, which is what makes him skeptical. He often clamors words like "cog in the machine", "humble servant", and these are very easily applied to him in the IPC system, but also to how he views himself in the grand scheme of "destiny".
He never once out right says that he his blessed. He does say that he is lucky, something that he only starts saying after his talk with his sister, who chastises him for putting his life on the line.
"You're a child blessed by Gaiathra Triclops and can lead the clan to happiness. So, always remember to protect yourself and never resent the pain and poverty you're going through…"
This line is very significant to him. While his sister does start with worry for him as he is her last living relative, the following scolding by reminding him of the blessing strikes him fully. It reduces him to be only valuable because of this "blessing", even if he clearly states that it was his smarts that had him winning. And this is where he starts counting luck as a factor in the universe. Because he figures that if his smarts isn't what the blessing is, then it must be something that he cannot control and that acts in favor or in detrimental of himself. Something that is beyond the justification of "this is all Gaiathra's plan to you."
Being lucky is what he interprets as the blessing, but even he cannot fully accept this answer when luck contradicts destiny. Even if the outcome can be perceptible, true pure and unadulterated luck, denies the existence of a pattern and thus, it should mean that he should be able to veer between paths and have several outcomes. But he does not.
He's still very much destined. We see it in his gambles with life, we see it in his last chat with his "past" self. He accepts that there is something that is waiting for him, in this case, he accepts that it's his family, he accepts death as the final destination.
"So until the time comes...I should be preparing."
"Preparing for what?"
"Preparing to face them, Kakavasha, and to make them proud."
But he also accepts that there may be something else that he'll only unlock as he gets to his destiny. That one thing that will make his family proud. And this is the part where he actually accepts Absurdism and faces it. Because even if luck is present, there is still something that he will learn, regardless of outcome, when and as he walks to meet his end.
I still stand by my stance that the whole trial with his kid self and other self are just character affirmations rather than renewal of faith. Because even after the whole ordeal, he does not mention anything other than the horrors of Nihility. And while we can excuse that as him not being close enough to anyone to share what transpired during his trial, as no one but himself (and partially Acheron (maybe Sunday?)) should know what happened. The fact that he was brought to a Doctor of Chaos says that Nihility revived Absurdism rather than smash it. So even if he did arrive at an "answer", since this answer is vague enough to encompass Absurdity with it, it did not prevent him from falling victim to Nihility's corrosion.
To seize fate by the throat, we have no choice but to stake everything.
Another point of agreement of him being the embodiment of Absurdity, is the mention of him being invited to the Tavern. The Masked Fools live in Absurd, choosing to laugh at the possibilities and toying with the strings for the funniest outcome to them. Aventurine has this potential, as he is "blessed" without being blessed, and is smart enough to make plans that can bend the outcome to his side.
The way he incorporates what is actually part of himself with his Aventurine persona is also a factor to have him join the Tavern. Mixing the gambler with the corporate and the survivor, making it be a mask without it being one. He chooses to maintain parts of his past on display, parts that should be buried, but when faced with them it's just acceptance. He is the kid of the desert as much as the slave who killed for his freedom and the gambling liquidation expert. But he is also the "lucky one" who is tearing at the IPC from the inside.
However, people only see what they wish to see in him, and he allows this to work in his favor. Whether proving them right or wrong it doesn't matter, it's all still a part of him, a part that they have to accept. He's unapologetic being himself without being himself, the greatest charade that is enough to warrant an invite from the Tavern.
Absurdism does fit Aha's stance in some degree, but I won't discuss this as I'm not as familiar with the Masked Fools nor Elation. But this would fall in line with why Aventurine would have been given the invite.
One thing i wanna quickly mention. Even though Absurdism is a strain of Existential Nihilism, it is not the same as Nihility in the game. Nihility in HSR is in it's pure form, not taking a stance as it does not even know of it's own existence. HSR seems to be adopting the strain of Cosmicism as the existence of Aeons and their behavior are echoing this ideology more than Absurdism. Absurdism denies the existence of higher powers as a whole while Cosmicism embraces the possibility of such, only it doesn't categorize it as higher, but as another species that coexists with humanity on a macro scale. While Absurdism can somewhat cover the existence of other entities, it does not factor them as coexistent in causality, as it does not contemplate the consequences of interactions between these beings and humanity like Cosmicism does.
the new hsr patch may just yet awake aven again cause wdym we get to visit the tavern? he got an invitation from them i need to know if they mention it again
it's gonna be an extra slow process getting the hcs, thread and asks from the other blog to here but we doing it as it comes i'm no longer gonna force myself to answer everything all at once i want to genuinely enjoy what i'm doing
following will also be very slow, i am going to be very picky for my own mental health's sake cause it did become overwhelming at some point on the other blog and i don't want to become tired of this man. for now if i follow you you can be assured that i do intend to rp with you!!
with that said, i am transferring some threads onto this side cause i have a muse to reply to them but if you want to abandon it after i reply i'm fine with it too!! i'm just gonna do it as a way to get back into the muse so it's not an issue if you want to start over
although i do like plotting i also don't always have the head for it so i do encourage you to just shoot whatever idea you have in mind at my inbox and 100% i'll be on board for sure
with that said hi its Z again dragging this man away from pulling for my gacha games and forcing him to be an active member of rp society. we'll both be in your care <3
"Wife?" Breathless laughter brims from his lips, a hand coming to cradle Kaveh's soft cheek. "I see no wife around, but a kiss can still be delivered." Careful their lips meet, making sure to leave the imprint of his smile upon the other.
