#1 lawrence garte enjoyer

[averageratfan]

ok intro post here so i can make an intro on the system blog and link to this one

hi i'm rowan, i'm a fictive, and i go by he/they. individual from EBS @broadcast-sys - we're a traumagenic system of like 20 with no permanent host

just for my comfort, i'd prefer if solo permanent hosts (that being any host that has no other host and does not change hosts over time) (especially if they identify with the term 'core' or 'original' or whatever) didn't interact with this blog. there's nothing inherently wrong with systems that function like that, but i personally am more comfortable without those folks interacting with me. you are welcome on our collective system blog tagged earlier or on any other alter's blog that you may find on our collective intro post

dms are open btw :)

[louisegluckpdf]

friendships end. relationships end. black turtleneck is forever

[averageratfan]

anyone else ever grieve the inherent reality of being part of a system? like. i front once or twice every few months if i’m lucky. i’m never really gonna live a full life. best case scenario, i’ll get maybe 5% of a life’s worth of consciousness throughout my entire existence. i won’t be able to decide our job or where we live or even our friends. the best i’ll get will be one vote out of the crowd that could get vetoed anyways if long-standing hosts aren’t fond of it when i’m not around to defend it. all of the friends i’ve ever had really only cared about me in the first place because they were friends with other members of the system. i’ll be lucky to make a handful of my own friends with my fronting frequency. all of those odds assuming i don’t go entirely dormant. it’s fine being here and all, but it’ll never fully be my own life

[bonesawdotrom]

will wood - Willard! pk / sp alter bio temp!

might be the only one i post, made it for my friends who are did and/or osdd systems!

“You might seem behind bars,,‘’

⋆˚࿔ name ␥ nickname 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ › 🌕 ⋆.˚ age ୨୧⸝⸝﹕gender ; pronouns﹐⊂🐀⊃ ‹𝟹 ꉂ˙ . ꒷🧀 . 𖦹˙— source〃 ෆ ⌗ • sexuality ౿ rstatus ʚ💫ɞ ᯓ★ . ! ₊˚ < partners name 3 ๋࣭ ⭑

“. . .but friend this cage is inside out. . .‘’

꒰ role ⚡︎ secondary role ꒱ 🐀𓏲๋࣭࣪˖ front activity :: txt 🧀ル ˖ ♡ ₍ front trigger ;; txt₎ 🌕 ࣪ . › ᵎᵎ likes // 💫 :; txt txt txt. . .ೀ ⋅˚₊‧ ୨ dislikes ;: txt txt txt 🌕;༊ ˖ ݁𖥔 ݁˖ /neg triggers .. txt txt txt (🧀) 𝜗 /pos triggers __ txt txt txt !! 🐀

“It's dangerous out here,, socrates. . .‘’

⌗ㆍノfront requests ;; txt❛🧀❛ touch/p ;; txt 𐦍༘⋆🌕 ⋆˚꩜｡ 🐀 ⋆୨touch/r :: txt୧˚ ⌞ 💫 ⌝ // pda :: txt ,, ‧˚꒰🧀 | flirting /p ;; txt ꒱༘⋆ ୨ 🌕💫 ,, flirting /r ;; txt ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ ༄˖°.🐀🧀 pings >> 🐀💫✧₊⁺ dms .. txt ⸝⸝⸝💫🧀🌕

“It's lonely out here. . . Socrates.‘’

[willgrahamscock]

ⓘ this user has been abandoned by god

[traumasurvivors]

Your trauma is valid even if your abuser was respected and adored.

[funny-tik-toks]

[broadcast-sys]

weird as hell but sometimes we get like. suspicious? of solo hosts who consider themselves to be cores and/or have always been host. like. there's absolutely nothing inherently wrong with that and very often it's entirely out of the system's control. but also, consciously or not, there's often a part of us that thinks "do you think of the other alters in your system as people or just like. things in your brain? do you think of yourself as an alter as well or do you think of yourself as 'the real one?'"

i think it's entirely possible to function as a healthy system with happy individuals while functioning like that. but i think it shapes the way you think of other systems, too. it contributes to people who hardly consider fictive hosts to be real hosts. it contributes to system friends who know how we function telling us to "tell your host" the most basic things that we should all know. people asking to talk to our host when one of our hosts is already fronting

it's not some inherit cause & effect thing. it's not some sort of 'slippery slope' thing and systems who function like that don't inherently do/say those things. but man they're much more prone to all of it.

[blotb0x]

lyfrassir edda. you agree