no because it literally goes like this. she is this incredibly intelligent girl who was taken from her mom and forced to be a science experiment. for the first 12 or so years of her life she never felt the need to speak much besides "I understand", she called Dr.Brenner papa because he had introduced himself as such and that was the closest she had to an actual father. she was abused and stripped of her agency, she didn't know anything about the outside world but knew that what was happening to her wasn't right. when she finds an opportunity, she leaves and doesn't look back.
she may not know what "friend" means but knows she would do anything for mike, lucas and dustin. she is given a name, a name that doesn't remind her of needles and monitors and pain. el. she likes the sound of it. they give her a comfortable place to sleep and food and a feeling of safety and warmth she has never felt before, in turn, she defends them from their bullies and helps them find their friend. during the one week she spends with them she learns so much more than she did in 12 years. she has her first kiss with mike, she doesn't yet know the importance of a first kiss, but knows that it feels right. that mike feels right.
when she sacrifices herself, she thought she would die. but she didn't. she spends an undetermined amount of time with nothing but the pink dress mike gave her, hopper's jacket and hat, and her powers. until hopper himself brings her in, out of guilt or shame or some other unnamed emotion that gripped his heart when he thought of the little girl he sent to die. with hopper, she learns even more words. one of them is patience. she also learns that she doesn't have much of it. she could have easily stayed in the cabin, safe from the bad men, warm and comfortable. she is used to being alone after all , but she wants more. she wants to see her friends. she wants to see mike. she starts to understand why she misses him more than the others.
el has a mom and a sister. she had to have come from somewhere, she knew that. but the knowledge still knocks the air right out of her chest. she wants to find them and so she leaves. rules be dammed. she's not an idiot. she finds her mother easily enough, except the woman that greeted her wasn't who she expected. and it will take years until she is able to erase the image of her mother sitting on an armchair, motionless, mumbling words from a past life. that was not what she wanted. she leaves again.
her sister is different from el in more ways that one. well, she's jane now. or she's trying to be but that name doesn't make her feel like the other one did. she can't stop thinking about her friends, even when she's told to leave them behind, she is tethered to them, to mike, in a way that she doesn't have the words to explain. she probably never will.
it doesn't work out, her and her sister. they want different things from life. she leaves again. this time, she goes home. despite trying to find it elsewhere, she now knows, her home is in hawkins. it's with hopper and mike and dustin and lucas and the people who, despite the danger, chose to help her anyway. that is what she wants. what she has always wanted since first leaving the lab.
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