To battle is the only way we feel alive... @away-i-go-away - Tumblr Blog

My existence is worthless, useless and pointless.

And it is painful

22.12.18

I'm bit drunk, very depressed and endlessly lonely.

I struggle with depression since I was 17 (it's 7years now), tried (unsuccessfully) to talk to my family about it....and I don't really have friends....so here we go.

I needed to get it out

hence this

I wrote few thoughts which crossed my mind when I was thinking about decribing how I feel right now

and I'm sorry for my poor english, I'm just learning

in the morning I did not know a single thing

I couldn't know

Couldn't prepare

But later today my frequent companion came

Visited me again

Filled me with emptiness

spread the darkness

started the pain.

Often I think when my body aches,

it would hurt me less to cut it all out

My stomach while menstruation cramps,

my sore feet after long day

give it all away

and when the gloom conquers my soul

I wish someone could cut my throat

pierce my hearth with some steel

that's where my enemy resides,

where he sits on my lungs crashing them

making them weep on my tired spirit

I would not mind

would not be angry

I would be grateful.

I'm sure this would hurt less,

it could even bring me pleasure.

just take it

make me lighter

make it go

make me go,

please.

#depression #depressed #pain #no one to talk to #mental health #poem #thoughts #anxiety #mental illness #mental instability

autumnblood

Nick Drake - Place To Be

postitforward

away-i-go-away

one year of post it forward! <3

#post it forward

bunlly

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

Jim Morrison (via lazypacific)

#jim morrison #the doors