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why is this even rejected?

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no to be honest why he chose her over me, well except physical feaures because shes so pretty and sexy and im not. so uh yeah heres the thing, he said that he doesnt really into looks and what he like in a girl is her personality. and then when i knew that hes more into personality then my esteem had grown and im so happy because maybe he'll like me. so then i began to change my personality, i tried not to be that loud, not to be easily annoyed, i controlled my emotions, tried to work hard in school and i also tried combing my hair always and i tried to be a tame little lass just like his rumoured crush (and now i think theyre dating and it hurts alot) and literally i did everything just for him to like me. i really cant understand because if he's into personality, why did he chose her? i mean, im funnier, smarter, radder, cooler, fabber and richer than her. im nice, i know im nice. well i can be nice. i just sometimes i cant control my emotions because thats the way it is and i cant change that but for him i tried. and i can be lovely and cute too. i studied hard just for him to see that im working so hard for him, and now im the top 8 of my class and the girl he likes is in top 15? i think. so why did he chose her over me? i really cant fathom why. just a little thought, now i know why, its because shes happy and im not. its because theres sadness in my eyes. its because shes contented and happy. its because shes not insecure like me. maybe its because he knew that im sad and he likes a happy person. but little did he knew that hes one of the reasons why i am sad.

#mine #rant #idk #sad #yup