Cthulwho? Cthulyou

They/them/fae/faer adult

[spaceshipsandpurpledrank]

[cognitiveinequality]

[saltoncity]

girl is that a knife in your hand or are you jerking off your sharp detachable penis in my stomach

[goatedgreen]

i hate that when you try and look up shit for writing purposes it starts linking suicide hotlines and addiction advice articles like bro i just wanna know the information im not killing myself i promise. now tell me what i wanna know

[shubbabang]

Shout out to everyone who is just so tired So so exhausted So very very tired so very fatigued so sleepy and tired So

[freak-went-void]

It's called a deadline because it's the line that if you dondidnt do it in time they kill you to dead

[jellogram]

I should be doing more to appreciate the lack of marvel movies in today's popular culture. I once yearned for marvel movies to have this level of irrelevance. They used to feel almost ozymandian, like an empire that had no beginning and no end. and now tony stark iron man is naught but two vast and trunkless legs of stone.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I wonder if people in the fallout universe are still using 200 year old tampons or if some crazy chemist named fuckass atomic Becky or whatever has figured out how to mass manufacture them

[sword-saintisshin]

Come to think of it, I wonder what ancients did about their monthlies

[what-even-is-thiss]

Didn’t have them because of malnutrition, just bled all over the place, or used some rags

[sword-saintisshin]

Wait, you won’t menstruate if you aren’t getting the right food?

[what-even-is-thiss]

Yeah your body starts prioritizing survival over reproductive organs.

[axolotlcipher]

It’s a huge part of modern sex education (just education in general) and raising young people that puberty and menstruation keep coming earlier because children are getting properly nourished. Like people used to not get it til they were like 15. Malnourished adults often stop having their period.

Also the Athlete’s Triad - if you work out and stress your body too much you can permanently damage your reproductive organs which has an impact on frequency of menstruation. Alongside other complications.

My wonder about the Fallout Universe is what’s happening with the endo folks?

[infectiouspiss]

everyone line up i've got one bottle of testosterone gel and there's 17,000 of you i'm about to pull a move not seen since jesus did the bread and fish glitch 2000 years ago

[holyunholy]

should be able to leave kudos on scientific studies. i liked your paper dude keep at it

[holyunholy]

sorry, Dr. Dude

[thepioden]

Dude et. al.

[wormofmouth]

need y'all to know that most academics have publicly searchable email addresses and this not only makes their day but they can put nice emails in their giant packets for applying for jobs or tenure. "hi i read your paper for a class and it was very helpful, im at xyz college and the class is blah with professor blah" is sufficient and ENORMOUSLY helpful

[link-the-feral-anon]

It seems that, once again, when you can't kudos, commenting is the way to go

[wajb]

ragebaiting lemonade stand owner with one simple order

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

the supreme irony of orson scorson corson's virulent transmisogyny is that ender from enders game is like one of the most chillingly and accurately transmisogynized characters in all of science fiction

[xenasaur]

ohhhh yup. yeah. so that's why I liked that book so much as a kid. it was very easy to immerse myself in ender's world

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

if you take the explicit notion that is in the text that peter represents masculine power and aggression and valentine represents feminine love and nurturing, which the two of them discuss when making their decision to argue one another's viewpoints in the public sphere so as to temper each of their extremities, and you read that onto the notion that is again explicit in the text that ender, a "third" child who is illegal by birth and has only been permitted to be born in hopes that he can be the goldilocks child between his siblings' poles, is somehow the fusion of both of their natures, a quality which best qualifies ender out of anyone on earth to be sent to The Child Abuse Institute for Making Boys Into Weapons and trained through homosocial abuse to view genocidal violence toward an alien other as a game to be won, an experience which breaks him completely, it kinda just is like. bruh

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

fuck would estrogen have saved him, would estrogen have saved the buggers??? (what a name)

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

he is constantly wishing he was valentine and hating any part of himself that is peter. the most haunting line in the book, to me, which i can quote to this day from memory, was always after the brain implant which lets the military scientists monitor him is removed and he's ambushed (!) by a group of older boys (!!!) and he explicitly breaks the masculine code of fair fighting (!!!!!) by cheap shotting the ringleader and then stomping him on the ground, and once the fight is won and he gets away and he's completely sick with guilt and self hatred at having lashed out in violence, in his despair he says "I am just like Peter. Take my monitor away, and I am just like Peter."

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

my explicit goal in writing this post is to get it reblogged and spread so widely that orson scott card sees it and finally cracks her poisonous self hating little egg. it's never too late you wack bitch

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

everybody wants to fuck my run-on sentence that has like 8 clauses and is a 4 full inches tall on a screen

[andiwithan-i]

[loveridden1999]

i have that dog in me. you know. the losing one

[apocherri]

by 2036 all boys will realize theyre actually girls and all girls will realize theyre actually boys except ☝️those that realize they are neither. complete transgender world domination

[arcade-confetti]

Oh youre "nonbinary"? Can i put you in a box please. Can i pleaseeeee put you in a box. We have two boxes and i really wanna put you in one. But dont worry. My boxes are very Woke and Nuanced. So its fine to put you in one. Pleaseeeee. Wow... youre such a bitch... not letting me put into one of two nuanced and essential necessary boxes... you obviously go into the box all those evil bitches end up in

[cheaphalloweencostume]

CPTSD constantly has me acting so cartoonishly stupid. hello my partner of 4 years who has literally never so much as raised their voice in my direction, i heard you doing dishes a little louder than usual in the other room. are you going to kill me?

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

things to say after fucking up egregiously

pack it up boys we've made a social blunder

let's run that again

one more time normal style

I'm going to become a statistic

further proof god is out to get me

it's because I tore my acl senior year

I couldn't do it for religious reasons

my ex took my talent in the divorce

good thing nobody saw that (said directly to someone who definitely saw it)

[ndnbutch]

negative self talk IS unproductive and painful for you and often those around you. but like every other post that talks about this is like “yeah it makes you an exhausting and burdensome person to be around and if you don’t stop now everyone in your life will abandon you. Also I personally hate you for it”. and it’s like hey hi hello. basically the theme of all my negative self talk is that I’m an exhausting and burdensome person to be around and that everyone in my life will soon abandon and hate me. so like haha what’re we doing here? are you going to provide any actionable advice for how to get out of this habit, or just tell me that I’m Doing Bad And Wrong And Must Suffer For It?

Anyway. If you struggle with negative self-talk I feel for you. It’s hellish, and it’s not something that can just be bludgeoned out of someone by telling them it sucks. We know! I’m not out of the weeds just yet by a long shot, but here’s some of the stuff that’s been helpful for me:

Fake it til it’s real: cliche, I know! but it really has helped for me, even though it makes me suuuuper uncomfortable at times. but literally tell yourself that you’re super charismatic and sexy and everyone loves you. or whatever version of that feels good for how you’d like to be seen. it’s gonna feel silly and untrue for a really long time, but it helps!

Reframe: I struggled to phrase this one, but what I mean basically is like… taking that notion of “hey negative self-talk sucks for the people around you too” and turning it into “wow, it is kind of mean to my friends to just assume they’re lying when they say they love me. I don’t want to be mean to my friends. I’m going to take the risk of trusting them”. Try not to go too far in the direction of “oh god I’m being mean to my friends” and stay on the path of “I want to and CAN do right by them”

Separate from it: I like to kind of act like my negative self talk is something of a different entity from me. Your mileage may vary on this one. I was a really mean really sad teenage girl once, and for me that kind of feels like the place the negative self talk comes from. So instead of being like “I guess I just hate myself and always will”, I can be like “I have this wounded inner child who is lashing out. I’m going to be gentle with her, but I’m also going not going to listen to the things she tells me we are, because she is 16 and hasn’t experienced anything good yet.”

This is far from a comprehensive list but this post is getting long—feel free to add on if you have any tactics that have worked especially well for you!

[ndnbutch]

I’m preserving these tags from @lesbianwyllravengard if you don’t mind because I think the humor aspect is REALLY key actually. I struggle immensely with earnestly saying anything kind about myself, which I’m working on. But I had like a year where one of my favorite jokes to make was to say “I’m much like Jesus in that way” about various things I do or am. And it was like an obviously absurd joke on its face, but it genuinely did kind of boost my self esteem? Still one of my favorite things to say when I fuck something up or am generally struggling with a task is “I’m huge and good at basketball”. I’m neither, but it’s kind of a stand-in for “I’m confident and good at things”. I struggle to say the latter still, but the former works just about the same in how it affects my mentality.

So basically it’s okay if you can’t say the earnest, grounded nice stuff about yourself yet. Get silly with it! Your brain can barely tell the difference.