Ayaka Takahashi

Just a fanartist, utaite, and shitposter trying to find her way again. Just don't bring up my past, okay?

[ayakasajyouirl]

I've finally come to the decision of rebranding myself, because I wanted to keep up with some of y'all.

Also, I just started making some shitposts after being in the Fate fandom for a whole year. Dropping all the links down below, because it'd be nice to have more likes and comments on them:

If you enjoy these, there's more on my channel. Watch all of my shitposts, and who knows if you found something you like?

[ayakasajyouirl]

Here's my favorite set of the pictures I took during my fourth visit to Shirakawa-gō. I'm definitely planning a fifth by fall or winter, because I swear there's something about such a place that feels like it's always calling me back...

By this point, some of the locals recognized me almost immediately. Shop owners smiled, a few people greeted me before I even said anything, and I had that weird realization of, "...everyone knows me." It was wholesome... but also just eerie enough that my brain immediately went:

"Oyashiro-sama is watching."

It's a strange feeling when a place that's famous to tourists starts feeling oddly familiar—almost like you're the one returning home while everyone else is just passing through.

Needless to say, I spent far too long wandering around with my camera, chasing fog, rain, and every corner that looked like it belonged in a visual novel or horror anime. Even the highway cutting through the mountains had that damp, overcast atmosphere that made me want to stop and take pictures.

[mageinvelvet]

“The witch who records the sins of mankind rarely has reason to smile.”

Been getting more into Vocaloid among other fandoms lately, so here's my cosplay of the best Evillious character IMO: the ever-present and enigmatic MA ('Mem Aleph') herself, specifically from the era when she incarnated as Elluka Clockworker.

@dragonofdarkness666

[ayakasajyouirl]

Rena and 'Onna Onna' Miku are equally cute but also weird asf, TBH. That's why I knew I had to make this edit (see image on the right) as soon as I found the 'she had a disorder that normal people didn't' image in my screenshots folder.

[ayakasajyouirl]

After all those years, my prom dress still fits on me.

Even if there are a few noticeable changes here and there, nobody's truly too old to dress up.

@dragonofdarkness666

[ayakasajyouirl]

Sus Vocaloid playlist (aka, DO NOT PLAY THESE IF SOMEONE YOU KNOW UNDERSTANDS JAPANESE):

You know those Vocaloid songs you casually throw on in the background until you actually read the lyrics and suddenly can’t look any bilingual person in the eye for 48 hours? Yeah. This is that collection.

1. 『え？あぁ、そう。 (Eh? Ah, Sou.)』 – Chouchou-P We’re starting strong with the “we absolutely know this is wrong but we’re doing it anyway” anthem. It’s that very specific emotional space where denial, desire, and bad decisions are holding hands in a dimly lit hallway. On first listen: vibey. On lyric read: oh. Oh no. Just… maybe don’t Google the translation if you weren't ready for the F-bomb that comes up at some point.

2. 『Romeo and Cinderella』 – doriko This one lures you in with “tragic romance” vibes and pretty melodies, then quietly reminds you that fairy tale love stories in Vocaloid world are rarely just fairy tales. Yes, there are suggestive undertones in a couple lines, but underneath it is actually more about youthful longing, rebellion, and the pressure of expectations that come with growing up. Still feels like it should come with a warning label though.

3. 『威風堂々 (Ifuudoudou)』 – Umetora Let’s not pretend we don’t all know why this one is infamous. The intro alone is already… a choice. But beyond the very loud aesthetic, the core message is basically about ignoring social judgment and giving into desire without shame. It’s one of those songs where the thesis statement is “stop caring what people think,” and it really commits to that idea in every possible direction.

4. 『SPICE!』 – Kagamine Len This one is deceptively emotional. On the surface it’s all intensity and late-night affairs, but underneath it’s a messy blend of obsession, attachment, and not wanting to lose someone even while everything is falling apart. It’s less “romance” and more “I don’t know how to function without you in my life,” which is arguably worse. Healthy? No. Catchy? Unfortunately, yes.

5. 『Happy Fruit』 – Hatsune Miku Do not be fooled by the cheerful name. This is one of those “Miku is being way too direct with metaphors again” situations. Fruit symbolism? Everywhere. Subtlety? Missing in action. There’s a point where you just have to accept that she said what she said and move on with your life. Preferably in silence.

6. 『SOAP LAGOON』 – MASA Works Design And now we arrive at the final boss of “why does this exist but also why is it catchy.” It’s bleak, it’s provocative, it’s very MASA-coded in that unsettling way where everything sounds like it shouldn’t be happening but absolutely is. Thematically it leans into sex work, transactional relationships, and moral decay, wrapped in a beat that somehow makes you vibe like you're at the club before you realize what you’re listening to. 7. 『Gigantic O.T.N』 – Reol WHY THE HECK IS LEN SINGING ABOUT HIS DICK AND HOW IT ATTRACTS BOTH GENDERS- And that's basically the whole song in a nutshell, for those who want to know but don't want the weird details. The shock on my face when I discovered that 'O.T.N' was an acronym for 'ochin (penis)' was REALLY something.

Anyways, this playlist is what happens when someone says “I like Vocaloid music” and forgets that Vocaloid music has no concept of emotional safety whatsoever <3

@dragonofdarkness666

[oxymoronnic]

Bringing age into it doesn't defeat the point that you did a crime, also 200?! Yeah that type of money can definitely harm someone financially for a bit depending on their situation, they most likely saved that shit up just to get the luxury?? 😭 They could of probably used that for a lot of shit, like a singular grocery run (lmfao sorry)

Fact everyone in the comments were hyping it up, down playing the crime, which if you dont know SCAMING IS A CRIME especially if it's for real money, a few saying they're also going to do this tf <///3333 "Remembering the time I scammed someone for having a difference stance on fiction 😂😂😂😂😂" okay weirdo

▸ I DONT CONDONE ANY HARASSMENT TOWARDS ANYONE THAT IS POSTED TO THIS PAGE, ANTI OR NOT.

[ayakasajyouirl]

As someone living with an active proship supporter and (purportedly retired) fanfic writer, I absolutely agree. Age and opinion regardless, scamming someone of any amount of money is both cruel and widely illegal. Also, the Hatsune Miku picture fits really well, considering the fact that she's become an icon among proshippers due to her different types of relationships in various songs.

[mageinvelvet]

It's been 16 years since 'Magnet' by Minato (Ryuusei-P) was released, so I celebrated by bringing Luka's iconic look from the PV to life and took a bonus pic with my bestest friend of all. 💕

[Miku cosplay done by: Ayaka Takahashi / @ayakasajyouirl.]

@dragonofdarkness666

[ayakasajyouirl]

'Magnet' by Minato (Ryuusei-P) recently got a remastered version, so here's a very old video of me playing the original version that everyone knows on the piano. I was in college at the time and didn't know much about playing any instruments, so it took me some time to learn the melody and come up with sheet music, but I hope you'll like it anyways.

@dragonofdarkness666

[ayakasajyouirl]

I'm talented at a few other things besides drawing and singing, so here's a video of me playing 'え？あぁ、そう。(Eh? Ah, Sou)' by Chouchou-P on the piano. I really hope you enjoy this cover as much as I did, because I tried my best to preserve the melody of the original despite having learned the whole thing by ear.

@dragonofdarkness666

[ayakasajyouirl]

Ishtar (Prototype) by AyakaAtaraxia

I needed something to get myself out of a creative slump, so I figured out it would be redrawing Shizuki Morii's unfinished sketch of Ishtar's initial design on paper. I did a good amount of research about fashion from bygone empires when adding the veil to compliment the outfit, as I wanted something that reflects both Rin's mixed heritage and her status as a vessel for a mother goddess. (P.S., the heel design in the reference drawing was hard to replicate as shoes can be a pain in the ass to render, so I went with pearl anklets and gold-painted toenails because it was a good fit for the priestess themed aesthetic of this Ishtar.)

[ayakasajyouirl]

Giving Rina an irresistible tease, because I know how much she thinks about ruining me so beautifully.

A soft silk babydoll, the color of blushing secrets, slips down just enough to expose those perfect boobs that she just can't resist.

Rina always watches me with that dangerous tenderness, as if she's already planning how to break me in the most loving way.

So I'm giving her something to think about. Something to crave.

Because if Rina's going to ruin me… I want to make sure she enjoys every moment of it. 💋

[kurayaminosakura]

Last week, I attended a Yōsei Teikoku concert at CLUB CITTA and took some photos.

This show was absolutely mind-blowing. The energy, the visuals, the powerful performance—it was everything I could have hoped for and more. Yui’s stage presence was unreal, commanding the audience with her voice and movements, while the musicians delivered an intense and immersive experience.

The lighting and atmosphere made for some incredible shots, from the striking red and black aesthetic to the dramatic silhouettes and dynamic motion. Every moment felt like stepping into the world of Yōsei Teikoku’s dark and majestic empire.

If you ever get the chance to see them live, DO IT. You won't regret it.

[ayakasajyouirl]

Today, I found a hickey that Rina left on my neck almost 7 years ago.

Love bites never truly fade, huh? Nearly even years later, and her hickey decided to make a surprise reappearance. Rina really meant it when she said ‘‘You’ll always be mine.’’

[ayakasajyouirl]

Face reveal, bc I'm bored from enduring so much bullshit and don't know what I want to post anymore.

I look tired in the second picture, because I did not cover up my eyebags with concealer.

(Please do not put me through anymore bullshittery anymore. I've had enough, and now I feel like shit...)

[the-real-loser-otaku-girl]

Jirai tag game!!!

What jirai (canon or headcanon) character is literally you (repeats r allowed)

Ill go first duh

Kangel!

@mad0katsuki @mimimirukyu @also-bl00dn0t3 @notsocutelife @bbthatsme @bubblegummarlboros @xchryxanthemum @kyriaejiraiblog @dazaiidarling @zennotixs @landminebnny @lucifer-is-a-hermit @hisbeloved-angel @oshidorifuufu @blink-and-gone @jiraigoddess @jiraidanshi @jiraikasa-kun @jirai-landmine @ki-to-your-heart @kikkorii @failure--girl @pastelbandaidangel @pixiegiirl @oneeyawn @orchidmant1z @unzipped-jeans @yume-chiyo @theunderkid @raynpuddle @safetypinsama @rya-rants @sakiyaki-sashimi @personwholikespmtok @porcelainautopsy @porcelainguro + all moots

[jirai-landmine]

Is literally me she's jirai and no one can tell me she isn't

@maskedrealities @lovemari

[maskedrealities-deactivated2025]

I’ve been told that Yuno fits me relatively well! But I’m not entirely sure myself!

[ayakasajyouirl]

It's definitely Ayaka Sajyou, because her hidden instability (represented by the hooded girl in red) always lurks behind her during tense moments, similar to how some things I can't forget tend to overwhelm me at certain times.

[oursaviorkellinquinn-deactivate]

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

[wishing-forrain]

i mean currently im listening to today is gonna be a great day from phineas and ferb so that

@heartstopper-lover123 @yelenapines @sunbeammmm @goosetoogoodtobetrue @lilphve @tomyheartsblog /nf

[lilphve]

Down the witches road😭

@the-michaelholden13 @thetransgenderagenda @sapphicstatic-noises

[thetransgenderagenda]

OMG SAME 😭

open tags, but more specifically

@julia-writes-things

@not-linkachu

@unstableunicornsofasgard

@jules-2010

@justsomecorvid

@sapphicstatic-noises

@shadowytalekingdom453

@sillycourtjester

@personwholikespmtok

@imsooooooootired

@starvice

@sky-is-purple-because-i-said-so

@paranoianist

@twahtle-official

@lunathequeerscientist

@flamburger

@a-fucking-tornado

@5p4c3-5y573m

@dysphoric-bitch-boy

sorry if I missed any of you :(

[twahtle-official]

Kids by Robbie Williams

(also thank you SO much for tagging me :))

uhh… here we go

@yeetoffofme @acannibalisticswordfish @southofsound @rubberricky @planetaryleo @fandom-man

open tags!

[yeetoffofme]

Thenku for tagging me :D

The Flute

@real-british-empire @wholeheartedsuggestions @dumfak-106 @arohita @goldfishwithablowtorch @fantasysupremacy @daily-spooky

[real-british-empire]

IT’S TIME by Femtanyl because I’m listening to it.

[boughtmender]

Zombie Apocalypse by Mortician

[lesbianhouseplant]

Quiet as a Rat by Amigo the Devil

@justtransteenagerstuff @purfectmocha @thequeenofsaturn @stickbugknight @gayoticbeing @kirkland-brand-witch

[purfectmocha-deactivated2025120]

Blink gone from alien stage

@ventiilatte

[ventiilatte]

Unknown Till the End (Mizi & Till version) from Alien Stage

@hoisinblackcat @aroacecat

[hoisinblackcat]

Good Luck Babe by Chappell Roan

@carnage-scissors @daemonlikestodraw @ingridgh0st

[taemori]

fever and drunk-dazed (enhypen)

@deathwaltz-ao3 @cinavico @fishii28 @finisnihil @despairofafallenangel @sparkyreloaded @cakeyzcorner

[hatefrmfishii-deactivated202505]

carnival…

GO GO GO GO-

[failure-girl-fuyu]

brain revolution girl 2016 ver. (by maretu)

..and now go go ghost ship but the ghost and pals/dex version LMAO

(open tags)

[sleepy-internet-addict]

currently listening to atashi wa ame (nightcord vers) by inabakumori + nightcord cover of cutlery

@kiyan54 @psychodreamerangel @digital-mine @the-real-loser-otaku-girl @kyu-kurariin + anyone else (sorry i can’t tag a lot school wifi sucks T^T)

[ki-to-your-h3art-deactivated202]

Mizumafu Villain cover!!

@yume-chiyo @moon-mine679 @strawbgutzz @small-town-jirai @dolly-girl-rie + anyone else!

[moon-mine679-deactivated2025011]

for me it switches between bake no hana and ruler of my heart </3

@kyriaejiraiblog @jiraiema @sleepy-princette @omg-ame-chan @4tyuna-ij7 pzpzpzpzpz i cant think of anyone else so anyone else can join if they want!!

[mirainikkicentricblog]

I’m listening to ‘Kuusou Mesorogiwi’ by Yōsei Teikoku and 'Blood teller’ by Faylan.

@dragonofdarkness666 @sunniedesi @tsubakikasuganoirl @t3nso

[ayakasajyouirl]

Just finished watching S1 of Fate/strange Fake, so the answer is obviously 'FAKEit' and 'PROVANT' (both composed by Hiroyuki Sawano, but in collaboration with different singers.)