Bi.polar

I am different. And I don’t understand exactly how. And I don’t understand just why. MNL

[perfectfeelings]

“The truth is that monsters are real, and ghosts are real, too. They live inside us, and sometimes they win.”

— Stephen King

[obscurix]

i feel so left out. like everyone around me knows how to be a human and i don’t.

[mariposas8494]

Exactly what’s happening rn…

[h3lloyou]

Are any of my emotions actually valid…? They all seem so unreasonable. I cant tell apart my genuine reaction from my mood disorder

[blownawayy]

do you ever feel like you're worthless and everyone would feel better without you

[sonjathevampire]

[futureless]

i be in my own head fighting for my life

[daddystinygirll]

I hate the feeling that people tolerate me, rather than truly want me around

[hauntedbydemonswhilefollowinggod]

i been pickin myself up since i was a kid i promise ima be alright.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Someone tell me how I’m supposed to live on knowing that it might never get better at all

[surrah698]

[wheelie-sick]

I'll constantly see people list of disorders that cause psychosis and talk about how they're highly stigmatized and somehow they never ever mention bipolar disorder? ever? and it's almost certainly because people online tend to have this perception of bipolar as the "socially acceptable sad happy disease" and it is not. it is just not. bipolar disorder is so incredibly stigmatized and its symptoms go so much deeper than just "sad and happy"

did you know bipolar causes psychosis?

do you know what mania actually is? (hint: it's not "extremely happy"!)

did you know bipolar causes hypersexuality?

did you know bipolar causes aggression?

did you know bipolar causes generally socially unacceptable behavior?

did you know bipolar people are more likely to kill themselves in a manic episode than in a depressive episode?

did you know bipolar causes a thousand other highly stigmatized symptoms?

did you know that after my bipolar disorder diagnosis people started gossiping about how I was "unstable" and therefore "untrustworthy" and I was "erratic" and "a liability"? would you guess that these things were said by a progressive activist group who were "anti-ableism"? does this all sound like an destigmatized mental illness to you?

does it????

[tezriaetho]

i’m fighting a war within my head that i don’t want to fight anymore it’s so exhausting and no one understands

[athenas--ashes--777]

"But you were fine 2 seconds ago"

yeah and now im not

"But you said you were getting better"

yeah and now im getting worse

[eternallychaoticc]

watching yourself spiral into a mental breakdown while knowing you can't stop it is a different kind of heartbreak

[blownawayy]

i want the world to stop for like 1 year so i can rest

[daddystinygirll]

crazy how trauma isn't your fault but it's your responsibility to heal