chiron: how trauma occurs in your life
- in 1st: In a way the wounds become visible to others, either in the way the person is presented outwardly or in relation to appearance or even health issues. Trauma can occur either emotionally, mentally or physically. Sometimes you feel inadequate in relation to your personality or even your body. You may magnify in your mind the problem of a defect which you may have as a physical characteristic, e.g. that you don't have the perfect body proportions and to consider that this imperfection is the reason why others reject you. Usually the trauma has started from your childhood. You may have been neglected or marginalized in your family environment. You learn to survive by satisfying others and not yourself. Many times the your identification with the injured therapist is particularly visible, as you assume the "role" of the therapist towards family and friends and can lead to the decision to make a career as a therapist (doctor, nurse, psychologist, etc.). It is a childhood trauma that is always obvious, it stays there deep inside you growing up. Sometimes in the course of your life you learn to hide or cover it, but you don't disappear it.
- in 2nd: Somehow in your life you may have felt insecure in your home or you may have experienced something that threatened it's existence. Of course, the sign in which Chiron is, could show how the trauma came about. A Pisces Chiron, for example, may indicate a parent who has had an addiction (eg, alcohol), is away from home, or has his or her own psychological issues. Many times the problems have been created due to an unstable financial situation or a financial disaster. Insecurities can be emotional in nature or even financial in nature. You may feel helpless and unprotected mainly inside. Many times you may not have experienced tenderness and felt that you didn't deserve to be loved. Thus you grow up with low self-esteem, feeling unable to properly evaluate yourself and completely insecure, both in your relationships and in your values. You may be trying to control your physical condition in an almost neurotic way. Many times you end up on the opposite. That is, you begin to develop self-destructive tactics, both financially and in terms of health and fitness. Even in your relationships, you follow either the pattern of possessiveness and control, fearing not to lose the object of your desire or show a completely detached attitude, so as not to become emotionally attached and in the process get hurt if the relationship does not go well.
- in 3rd: Chiron here shows traumatic situations and difficulties in matters concerning communication, in the expression of speech orally and in writing. You may have difficulty expressing or communicating with your environment or feel that your voice is not "heard". Usually two different approaches are observed with the specific position of Chiron. Either you have a square logic, you trust only your mind and thoughts having a complete distance from his emotion or you express only with instinct and emotion without any logical approach. Sometimes this position is also associated with learning disabilities, such as dyslexia or attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. Thus the trauma can be born even in the period of preschool age. This position may indicate a different way of perceiving things, a different way of thinking that may be innovative, but instead of rejoicing that you have an unconventional and different way of thinking, you're often afraid that these differences from others they will isolate you.
- in 4th: With Chiron in the 4th house, the trauma seems to be born in the family environment or by people who played an important role in the period of your development in your childhood. Somehow the house failed to be the safe harbor that you need to feel fullness and security inside. In some cases, one parent may have been absent, either because he or she died, or because the parents divorced, or because he or she was present who was substantially distant emotionally, mentally, or spiritually. The result in these scenarios is that you actually struggle to feel that you "belong" somewhere. And whenever something shakes up family issues (usually love affairs are what shake these traumas) to feel intense despair or utter loneliness. Many times this position shows either addictive stressful relationships or avoiding relationships in order to avoid a trauma like the one you experienced as a child. So in your personal life, even if you're in a difficult or abusive relationship, you find it difficult to separate. It may still be difficult for you to set boundaries. Because it is a very "sensitive" position, you may have a natural talent to "catch" the wounds of others. This means that you can become an excellent healer of others. By offering healing to others you heal yourself.
- in 5th: Somehow you may hide or be afraid to expose your talents because you're afraid of being accepted by others. You are afraid of being rejected in love, you're afraid to rejoice, to have fun, to play, to be yourself. It is always like judging yourself harshly and never allowing yourself to relax. Maybe in your childhood you faced rejection when you tried to express your creativity. Or maybe one of the hobbies or the ones you did, did not find acceptance from your family environment. For example, you may have wanted to get a tattoo because it symbolized something about your adolescence, this was reprehensible to the family. Or you may have grown up in a harsh environment where play, sports, carelessness were considered a waste of time. This in the process becomes a trauma that follows you in your later life. You may be afraid to show your creative work, talent, if you don't first make sure that they will not make fun of you or accept you warmly. A rejection of a flirtation in adolescence may even have left its mark on your heart. Many times the position of Chiron is associated with difficulties in obtaining offspring and usually the reasons are deeply psychological. It is as if there is a connection with your childhood and especially in the case of a woman - who may not have felt safe, protected and cared for at an early age - her subconscious may say that it is not safe to give birth to a child.
- in 6th: Chiron in the 6th house indicates an injury that may be related to a health problem, either of the person during your childhood or of a family member who may have had to be cared for. Perhaps because of this illness (especially if it was a parent) you had to take on disproportionate responsibilities for your shoulders. Sometimes it can show that due to the hard work of the parents you were deprived of their presence for several hours during the day.Usually, the problems that you face in the course of your life have a lot to do with the concept of responsibility, work environment and health issues. Maybe from a young age you were forced, instead of enjoying the carelessness of youth, to have to work, maybe you followed your parents in family work or some other job, in order to contribute to the family expenses. As a result, you acquire a stifling sense of responsibility even in old age and is afraid of losing control in everyday life, almost never relaxing. Instead, you burden yourself with the responsibilities of even others at work, finding a host of reasons. So the fear of losing control begins to incarnate many times and mental or physical health to suffer. On the other hand, there can be a perfectionism to such an extent that you refuse to do something for fear that it will not be perfect. You may don't like surprises, you want everything in your environment to be in an order as you have it in your mind and you rejoice when there are no unpredictability in your daily life. Many times, especially if you grew up with some health sensitivity, you can acquire obsessions with perfect diet and exercise. In the opposite direction you can help others to acquire healthier eating and exercise habits and you to skip your own.
- in 7th: Chiron in the 7th house can show an environment of disharmony between your parents or the people who may have raised you. This is how you begin your life with a rather problematic picture of relationships with the opposite sex, which until you mature and work more in this area either prevent you from having a relationship or even feel that you are not worth a good relationship. Many times you try with your choices to reproduce the conditions that prevailed in your family. So if in your hildhood or adolescence may have experienced a divorce or quarrel and tension in your home, your image of marriage or relationships may be your own wound. It may even be difficult for you to make the decision to get married or start a family, because there is an inward fear that you will relive the same disharmony you experienced then. Or you may be afraid that something will happen and your relationship will be ruined. Thus, you may enter into the relationship with a lack of trust and suspicion or you experience the relationship somewhat distant and cold, so as not to be hurt in the future if something happens. The result is that your partner feels neglected, feels this distance and can actually leave the relationship or marriage. Thus you confirm your phobias, although what you acted from the beginning was in fact your subconscious, which undermined the relationship from the first moment. Another manifestation of Chiron's position in the 7th house is to attract into your life people who themselves carry a personal trauma or an incurable wound, whether it appears on a psychological, spiritual or physical level. Your need to be loved, to be accompanied, is so intense that many times you can beautify things in order not to see the truth of a relationship. Many times, too, the fear of rejection or loneliness leads you to serve the needs of others to the detriment of your own needs.
- in 8th: A trauma, which is born out of deep emotional relationships with others or shows a trauma related to a loss or even a traumatic sexual experience. And although it is a difficult position, on the other hand it is considered the best position if you want to become a therapist, psychologist, psychiatrist or surgeon. In your childhood or adolescence you may have experienced the loss of a loved one or even a beloved pet, which left deep marks on your soul. This early contact with the greatest truth of our lives, which is decay and death, it is true that at a tender age it is more deeply imprinted and plays a catalytic role in our development, if not treated properly. If treated properly, then you gain enormous power knowing that it is something inevitable in our mortal state and helps you overcome your phobias. If not treated properly, then it can develop several phobias, which of course are under the umbrella of this supreme phobia of death. You can be valuable to others because you know how to guide them on the paths of the subconscious and help them overcome their own fears. It is the position of the "shaman", you can possess almost magical healing properties in your hands. When you know and have experienced "pain", you can recognize it in others and help them overcome it or learn to live with it without negative consequences in their lives. With this position there can be a fear of abandonment in your love life and this can often make them very possessive in your relationships or develop obsessions. Injuries also related to your sexuality can be found in this position.
- in 9th: Perhaps you grew up in an environment where there may have been specific political, ideological or religious beliefs, which were somehow imposed in your childhood creating a distortion in the way you see things, causing you to often lose faith in people, in life or even your optimism. You may have grown up with the notion that the world is hostile and should have been permanently suspicious of others, or that if you did the a, b, c, which deviated from his family's "morality", you would be punished by "God" and this created phobias for you. Or on the other hand, you may have isolated it if you had a different way of thinking and other beliefs. Thus, you may have experienced a tremendous sense of loneliness in your life as a vague spiritual edifice grew that could be supported. Or you may have had the feeling that nothing is going well in your life and nothing is going to come your way, sinking into the impression of an unhappy life. On the other hand, you may have had "big ideas" and expectations for yourself, but there was always or there is an agent, and usually an external one, that forbids you to implement them or go further. Possibly at some point in your life you challenged any belief or ideology if it did not meet your needs. You may, for example, have asked God for something and because what you asked for did not come, you may have felt frustrated and questioned the existence of God and abandoned your attempt to believe in something higher. Many times this position of Chiron shows traumas in relation to immigration. Your parents or ancestors may have been in a foreign country with a different cultural background or believed in a religion that was not the official state of the country to which they were forced to emigrate.
- in 10th: Another angular Chiron that deals with injuries that are born in the family environment, whether the parents are to blame or not. Our attitude towards the "world", the figures of power, is directly related to our relationship with the mother. Her own unfulfilled or unconscious ambitions may have influenced you. With Chiron in the 10th house, you may have difficulty setting clear goals or achieving them or even feel like a member of the society in which you grow up. You may change jobs one after another or pursue a variety of career paths, until later in life you find what will satisfy you completely. Again, you may find it difficult to feel respected. Sometimes you set yourself such high goals that you find it difficult to meet or any obstacle that appears to be the last, until the next obstacle comes and thus leads to failure unconsciously. Sometimes you may be forced to work in a family business that don't want. Maybe you start something and leave it along the way, starting something new. Or even helping others by supporting them at work and receiving ingratitude. This position of Chiron is statistically considered one of the most common in the horoscopes of people who have chosen as an object in their career one of the professions of Chiron. In other words, they became counselors, therapists, psychologists, astrologers, etc. It is a great position, because you have a magical way of helping others find their own place in life, their own goals and possibly the right career orientation.This does not mean, of course, that by helping others you take on their own burden. You are there as a consultant only. The responsibility lies entirely with others for how they will use your contribution to their lives. Also, you have nothing to prove to anyone but yourself.
- in 11th: With Chiron in the 11th house, your trauma may have come from a rejection either at the level of social groups or even at the level of friendships. At some point in your life, and especially at a younger age, it is as if you felt that you belonged nowhere perhaps because of your own "strange or eccentric" interests, ideas or temperament. You may have felt that others were putting "labels" on you and marginalizing you. Or on the other hand, in order for you to feel that you belong to a group and not to risk a distance, you may sacrifice your own perceptions and adopt ideologies, perceptions and beliefs, without even believing them deep inside. With this position you can develop a phobia to express your own ideas, for fear of being ridiculed by others. Sometimes you may appear to those around you as a "revolutionary", as you have your own unique way of managing things or reacting to the "system". And although you can do everything in a better way than others, this difference and your superiority can be ridiculed or even pressured to conform to the established perception.
- in 12th: With this position you find it difficult to find your "self", to find your destination in this life and many times you lead yourself to the margins. The trauma may have been born even in the womb of your mother, if for example it may have been an unwanted pregnancy or a pregnancy at a difficult time for the mother. Maybe you feel on the margins of society or can consciously lead yourself there with your actions. Sometimes the trauma is "invisible" in your life and you find it difficult to realize it. This has to do with a tendency to idealize the past. No one wants to believe that his parents or those who contributed to his development were not good people. Thus you weave in your mind a fictional story, which is between reality and dream or nightmare. Because in this house Chiron finds it difficult to build strong boundaries between realism and the dream, you can confuse your childhood memories if you really lived them or saw them in a dream. You're afraid of loneliness, you're afraid of victimization and usually don't even realize that there is a wound that leads you to make wrong choices in life. You can see this more intensely in your love life. Because you fear emotional abandonment and betrayal, you can develop addictive relationships, even with people who do not really suit you. You prefer to be next to someone even if you dream of someone else than to be alone. The fear of abandonment, of course, can lead to the diametrically opposite scenario. To be isolated, not to go out with friends, not to accept people to your house. On the other hand, because you're a hypersensitive person with developed empathy, you often become the willing "ear" and the victim of the toxicity of others, who approach you to take advantage of your willingness to help.
written with love, Ellie<3
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