today i am grateful for all of the people that i have loved and hated: i am only twenty-one but i have lived lifetimes through you
i. scared children kissing each other in the dark saving each others lives over and over until we couldn’t any more
ii. the definition crush for the way i loved you and the way you hated me
iii. the most heart-aching almost of my life, now a stranger who i hold infinite adoration for i wish i was braver back then
iv. children making promises they knew nothing about other than that it hurt when it was done
v. you who found my heart broken on the floor, built me back up with pieces of yourself until you crashed down with me into the sea of infinite darkness.
vi. strangers giving themselves to each other entirely and then never again
vii. taking everything from me because you knew i loved you
viii. beings filled with hatred trying to resemble love and finding that this worlds broken sinful nature can’t keep the bed warm
ix. almost maybe but still my best friend
x. you who took my heart from the one who makes all hearts beat, you who has moved mountains of our own ash, you who will never let your love have any sort of punctuation mark, you you you you you you always you