Autistic mind

I never liked anyone

[maudelynn]

Truus van Aalten, and a friend,  by Alexander Binder

from my collection 

[babohksng94]

Some thought

My 14 year old me never felt cute or anything like that. He felt like a walking disabeld cockroach, not worth to achieve anything or even be able to travel on his own.

10 years later he is matured but stil he doubts alot. What do people find attractive to me? And why do they find me so attractive that they just want to do with me.

Why do fuckboys say that i’m cute or attractive but once I tell them to piss off, they change their character and suddenly they tell me im not attractive anymore. My 14 year old would come back and start to doubt. Because the people are attractive devils. Somehow I feel like judging them too “Ah he had pancake hair anyway”

I dont expect to people to treat me better, but I do expect that people would rather just ignore me and dont say anything at all. Then hearing the uglyness of their voice.

They laugh like a Hyena

They feel so though and manly

Once I start to criticsize all they think is “Kill this roach”

I just want to go to bed and sleep so long.

I want to go back to the dreams I had in my past. In a strange world.

The underground I walk in.

The train that I sit.

The cafe that I have visted.

The paris like city.

The amsterdam look a like.

A better hong kong.

Everything better then surrounded by monsters who only hurt people enough.

[babohksng94]

No one seems to care

My mind is not okay and I wish I could tell someone what is really going on. But I cant even trust the people I thougt I used to know.

I dont even know i write this on tumblr because no one is reading this that i know

[babohksng94]

Seoul

[kimonobeat]

new Suiyoubi no Campanella song featured in CM for “Beats” headphones, KOM_I

famous talento Becky is the star of a new commercial for “BeatsX by Dr. Dre”, where she’s shown listening to a brand new song by Suiyoubi no Campanella!

the song is titled “Mizaru Kikazaru Iwazaru (See No Evil, Hear No Evil, Speak No Evil)”. no other information at the moment sadly :(

[krobelus]

[wonderlandgirl4ever]

[babohksng94]

Pictures by moi (Please credit me if you are reblogging them)

[joint-tumble]

i stilll really like family party….

[raise-youup]

[witchguardian]

Helter Skelter (dir. Mika Ninagawa, 2012)

[coralcea]

[kasukanakaori]

desktop wallpaper  / /  full hq

[mjalti]

when the only ppl u block are really rude/ugly anons but then one of ur mutuals texts u talkin bout “why cant i message u on tumblr” 

[staggot]

omfg?????????????????

[babydreamgirl-deactivated201902]

BYE

[babohksng94]

When people read my tweets and feel like its all about them

[arryns]

endless list of movies ➛ pleasantville (1998)

“People change?”

“Yeah, people change.”

“Can they change back?”

“I don’t know. I think it’s harder.”

[babohksng94]

I used to know a guy that didn’t have Autism. But when I was angry one day at him. He said he would take his dog out. I said “Go ahead, I don’t care” He was convinced that I didn’t believe him and sended me a picture of his dog. One of the stereotypes of Autism is that autistic people can read things diffrently or take things more personal. A classic example would be if you say “Its raining cats & dogs” A autistic person would think that you talk about real cats and dogs, and mostly don’t understand the verb. Of course this isn’t always with people with Autism. But I have always the feeling when someone is reading my message very diffrently, I always have the feeling that someone have Autism.  And that’s because i’m Autistic myself so I can tell sometimes...