feel awful. I hate this season. from the start and to the end the whole season is disastrous. I canāt stand this. despite every tears I shed due to basketball I loved this sport and I couldnāt lost my passion on watching this sport but I donāt know now I canāt sure. everything send me to the focal point and maybe just want to get out of this hell.
I have tried to feel better for this situation. I have tried to see what this trade can bring to both parties. I have tried to believe like this possibly can give some positive things to benn who wants to be better, be great, and be more competitive. I have tried to watch clippers ball even though I hate many western teams and to find something joyful instead but no I canāt pretend anymore. pacers failed to treat him right and after that just abandoned him like nothing. ignored what he has done to the team for the years and after all those tragedies happened. the worst thing is, new teamās fanbase never appreciate him.
yes he still has flaws and maybe thatās are what he cannot easily fix. yes he is not yet all star caliber player and maybe he will never make it.
so what? he always devoted to his team and through injury he gave his all to his new team.
before darius returned he is the one who can earn the possessions that could have been wasted due to the team lacking offensive talent and make it be productive. about 18-19 points per game and 9 something positive net rating. increased energy level and transition pace. at least thatās what he should get his flowers. what the fuck he has to do more to be respected?
shaedon sharpe getting 22.5m aav and kuminga got 25 or something and keegan getting 28m aav. at least benn cannot be said he is worse than those. but clippers fanbase saying āhe is suck just let him walk away no bird rights or if you want, get your 8m qo and just shut upā you fucking kidding me?
i donāt know. everything is just bullshit. I hate this. my poor baby. I saw tons of indy fans shouting on him and saying he is just empty calorie cam thomas-esque tanking team commander. benn you deserve better but they are just miserable human being.
he just wanted to stay indy and wanted to contribute for tyrese and indyās first chip but they kicked him out of nowhere, not admitting they failed him. and making excuse they canāt afford him bc he wanted his bag which is too many. and indy fans believe this and saying bennās gonna start tantrum when the organization refuses him to give 30 mil bag. PLEASE STOP LYING. he hasnāt done any media sulky shit and hasnāt said anything about money. unlike christian braun or kuminga have done with their agent during last summer.
and letās be honest. pacers fo, you are the side who didnāt want to make negotiations done on extensions because you already made your mind not to bring him again and send him to another team as a trade asset. all that move you has shown proved that you had tried to avoid poison pill rule that possibly let being unable to make the trade. knowing how disadvantageous being a rfa to a player in this new cba ruled market, but you just let him go through 4th year without any precise deal offer. and also thatās why you drafted kam jones to fill bench shooting guard spot. replacing him with college-graduated old 2nd rounder small guard, wow thatās good. so insulted.
people in indy keep believing some shitty words on him. canāt believe thisā¦ how could you do this to him? he always endured everything including demoting him to bench when he played half of the season as a starter and aaron got back from long injury. he been always team first mind player and proud of it but they always hinder with some trash ass narrative. fucking sick of it.
always go back to wander about thinking the early season and what if.
what if andrew didnāt get hurt because of the particular playerās dogshit foul getting at the first game of the season. what if benn didnāt get hurt at the second game of the season. I canāt stand seeing him being still bothered from that fucking toe injury and criticized by ātrash ass no shootingā thingy from people who donāt know anything about his playing and struggles due to injury. what if he didnāt play through his wrist and hand injuries for a month because he loves the team so much that he couldnāt help but just sacrifice his stats (itās being ruined) in the contract year by playing during hurt for his undermanned team.
what if the pacers couldāve stayed healthy unlike the early season injury report and what if they couldāve achieved 5-8 seed in this weak ass eastern conference just as they planned in the media day with benn/drew/aaron/pascal core.
then everything would be different at the point of the regular season almost ending?
I donāt know. you cannot change the past. but I saw and believed some possibility that they couldāve made something better than this.
I know tyrese will be back stronger and better. and 26-27 pacers will be great team. I donāt doubt. I donāt doubt at all. ty/drew/aaron/p/zu starting five will run through eastern conference and I assure they can go back to finals in 2 years. and that the part eventually hurting me. it doesnāt feel right going back there without benn. only benn. you maintain everyone, I mean every starters and every rotational pieces but not benn. at least he should and could have left here with a ring as a champion but damn adam silver took it from me.
you could say thatās the business. thatās the sports. I know. but it doesnāt mean I can assent and consent it with my heart. not brain.
I hate this. I miss last season. I loved them so much so still miss them. my beloved 24-25 pacers. but many things have changed from that season and game 4 rigged officiating ruined everything including tyreseās career, franchiseās fate, bennās value as a player and my mental health. canāt bear this no more. hate this season and glad this disastrous year getting ended.
