[bai-e-archived]

→ this is my personal and selfship blog

→ will discuss kinks and dark content

→ ships w/ phainon, choso, & dan heng

→ sharing, other sharing doubles welcome!

-> non-sharing or selective doubles, please dni

→ no minors or antis please!

goodbye all! ✨

[bai-e-archived]

hi everyone! sorry for logging on here after that very dramatic goodbye. I decided to check whether bai-e had survived the incident or if it had been subject to more mass reporting, deletion, harassment - and it has not been!

your messages made me cry like actually aflsjdkdjs I am forever grateful for all the kind words you have left me. but I did want to address one inquiry that came up in a few anon asks, which was asking for the handle of the user who made the callout post.

to this, I want to make it known that I will not ever state their username. to those who have seen me handle drama through the years (lol), you'd know I believe in de-escalating personal conflict and only making callout posts when I think people are a danger to other writers. callout posts pose a high risk for justice to become punitive rather than restorative, and I'd be sad to see this community go that route.

for all that has happened, I do not believe this person will do this again to someone else. therefore, I do not see a point in naming them.

as well, I ask you to respect my wish to leave them alone. like I said in my last post, I have already DM'd them privately, and want for them to exist peacefully on here.

ultimately, my goodbye post was not really specifically about this incident, but the trends in the community that have hurt me enough to make me leave. so please, do not perpetuate those trends because of my departure.

thank you 💗 I hope we will all cross paths again someday. and, to this who celebrate - 新年快乐！！！！！！

[bai-e-archived]

If I don't get shin's dick right now, I think I'm gonna die. I need him I need him I nee- *explodes*

I need this to be my last post on this blog. incredibly real of you thank you anon 🙏

[bai-e-archived]

hi everyone!

sorry for disappearing so suddenly. as you may have heard, an anti account made a callout post about me recently, criticizing the depiction of mental illness in a selfship post I made a while back. I have spoken with the person responsible for this callout post, who turned out to be an hsr yume who had sharing issues and disliked that I was so visible in the hsr selfship space. they have since had the callout post taken down at my request, but as you can see, the damage has been done: @/bai-e has been mass reported and censored, I have been harassed, and my handle has been circulated among anti blogs.

I am not the only blog in the xreader/yume community who has been targeted by mass reporting campaigns recently, nor am I the only blog to receive anon hate from antis. this was not my first time receiving hate nor harassment over the content I write.

as well, this was not the first time I have encountered friction over sharing on this website, nor my first time witnessing it. I have seen both myself and others be on the receiving end of passive aggression and harassment due to jealousy in this space. it is, however, admittedly the first time I have seen sharing issues culminate in a callout post and mass reporting.

I am not saying these things because I want to prolong drama or encourage any attempts at "retribution". (if you know who the instigator is, please leave them alone. we are in the process of settling issues privately, and I wish for them to exist peacefully here.) I am saying these things because this event is not an outlier. it is quite extreme, but it is still part of a trend. we have a documented problem with antis in this niche. we have a recurring issue with sharing conflicts in this niche. time and time again, we encounter individuals who are unable to be honest about their boundaries and allow their jealousy to manifest as petty behavior and harassment. all these things have consistently bothered me over the last year or so, but until now, were tolerable.

I no longer find them tolerable. I have hit my limit.

writing and selfshipping mean so much to me. I am sure you all know how much love I've poured into my writing blog for years now, and how loved I've felt on it return. I also have had so much fun here on bai-e for the past few months as a selfshipper. I have seen so many beautiful connections being formed and so much lovely art being created by sharing and nonsharing yumes alike. people here are sincerely so kind, funny, and supportive.

however, between the targeted harassment of dark content writers and chronic jealousy issues in the selfshipping space, I do not believe it is sustainable for me to stay here. I will be leaving. maybe in the future, I'll return to writing, but my time here as a selfshipper on bai-e is over.

thank you everyone for all for all these years. I love you so, so dearly. you have brought so much joy into my life, and I hope I have sparked some joy in yours. thank you for everything. 💗

[bai-e-archived]

Hi, Mao. Just sending love and wishing you the best amidst all this. Your influence is so much more than a handful of posts taken out of the larger context of your blog. You've written far more about stigmatized disorders in a kinder, more truthful light than I've seen from other sources, both in fiction and lived experience. You've also written things that have made me feel very comforted and worthy of love in the face of my own traumas. It's unfair that you're being targeted this way, and I hope the good you've put into the world and this website won't be erased based on a few people's offense.

hi anon I just wanna let u know this was the first nice ask I received after that callout post and it made me feel so comforted. I wasn't gonna look into this inbox again but I remembered I had wanted to say thank you aglsjkdjksjs so. thank you 💗 I am so, so happy to hear that my writing has touched you in this way. thank you so much for reading and for being so kind to me :')

[bai-e-archived]

Love you forever ❤️

Love you so much 💗

[bai-e-archived]

I will miss you and all the work you've done. I'm sorry this has happened to you. This also happened to another favorite author of mine and I miss them, too.

thank you!!! I think we are thinking of the same author, and I miss them too 😭 these things happen, but we move!!! I will miss you too 💗

[bai-e-archived]

Why does a mature label on a blog make it unusable 🤔. This is a part of Tumblr I've never figured out how it works (also not sure it does work 🙄)

it's very annoying to try to interact with people with the mature content label. depending on their settings they won't be able to see your blog or posts at all, and if you are additionally shadowbanned I think your comments likes etc aren't visible. I am not totally sure if people can see my asks. more importantly though, if people continue mass reporting, tumblr might reassess their decision and just decide to delete this blog altogether. I don't want to lose this blog. there are so many nice memories associated with it. I'd much rather archive it and keep it as is.

but truthfully, what worries me more is someone identifying my writing blog and mass reporting that instead. I would be beyond sad if I lost that blog. and of course, my biggest concern is that someone will be crazy enough to go through my posts and piece together my identity. it really is just a smarter move for me, overall, to lay low for the next while.

anyway, sorry everyone for the sudden departure. I am deciding where to go from here. I miss you all!

[bai-e-archived]

due to being mass reported, bai-e now has a mature warning label and is no longer usable. I won't be posting here anymore.

regular pinned

[bai-e-archived]

i really do love you as a writer but you really, really need to work on your skills of taking criticism and reflecting rather than defaulting to “ew antis”. I don’t like them either but like… c’mon. like you have great takes! you really do! but oh my lord using FASCISM in fanfic discourse…. your privilege is showing. You are THIRTY. pleaseeeeee look at actual fascist history — fanfic is not so big or important that fascism is a valid term to use in the same way we see censorship of literature like banned books in the U.S.!

i really just hope you take a moment to really think rather than letting your ego talk all the time. it’s kind of exhausting to read dog shit take after another when you’re a really articulate person.

I ordinarily wouldn't respond to anon hate like this, and I want to be clear that if you send anything else like this, I will block you. however, I did want to respond to this interesting assumption that I hold the views that I do because I'm privileged. I am going to kindly point out to you that I am mainland chinese diaspora. my first memorable experience with censorship was at a government level when I was a child, and to this day it's something that my family has to navigate. additionally, I have directly experienced mainstream & social media censorship as someone who has been heavily involved in political organizing work in the west. now we are at an inflection point in the western world where governments and corporations are mandating censorship in a top-down fashion, in such a way that I can't help but see the parallels to my experience as mainland chinese diaspora. across all my spheres of life - western politics, mainland chinese news, and terminally online fandom discourse - I see similarities in the arguments that people make against transgressive media.

do you think that political movements such as fascism are born in a vacuum? do you think that conservatism is something that uniquely affects politicians and boomers, but people who are on this website are magically immune to it? do you think there is absolutely zero relationship between fandom trends toward censorship in the online world and larger political trends toward censorship in the offline world? people who are pro-censorship love to make the argument that fiction must necessarily affect reality without exception; well, why not consider that reality affects reality? that is to say - the reality of the world we live in also affects the reality of this microcosm we write in, and vice versa.

lastly, while I have always made it clear that antis don't have a place on this blog, it has never been said as a point blank insult ("ew, antis"). I have always strived to give coherent arguments and rational explanations about my stance on censorship and creative expression when asked about these topics. this is because I was actually anti-leaning many years ago. I arrived at my current position after years of reflection - not after "taking a moment to think rather than letting your ego talk all the time". I would invite you to try to also slow down and reflect rather than insulting strangers on the internet as soon as they post an opinion you disagree with.

on a related note, I know for a fact that my writing blog is a gateway into dark content for a lot of people, and they may or may not be struggling with feelings of shame as they engage with it meaningfully for the first time. so while it tires me that antis consistently harass me for choosing to write the things I do, I have always strived to reply to questions thoughtfully and civilly for the people who are sincerely trying to figure out where they land on this very complex question. if you find yourself insulted anyway, that's not due to a lack of thinking on my part.

[bai-e-archived]

insane chosomi (choso x maomi) no curses au life that is really convoluted. the backstory to this is that I think choso did all kinds of random jobs to support his younger brothers, and his two most respectable ones were tattoo artist and underground fighter. in canon whenever he's having his delusions about his brothers he's always like, very softboycore with comfy sweaters, picnics, surrounded by flowers. so he looks scary but he is very Loverboy in this when he's not on the clock. I'm a corporate slave who brings in all the money btw. after he retires from fighting he's my beautiful tatted house husband

[bai-e-archived]

reactions to pj reader and choso (a death painting abomination) getting together:

maki -> doesn't understand it but respects the game. sometimes your jujutsu clan family just makes you go insane and permanently damages you in a psychosexual way

megumi -> horrified. he's better than your exes but why couldn't you find a normal human. yuki was RIGHT THERE.

yuki -> has been wingmanning for choso for several months in the star corridor. pops a bottle of champagne after it happens

granny tengen -> toasts yuki. but tells choso very seriously to take care of you after she is gone and it makes him cry so ugly

principal yaga -> has a stroke. he has raised his adoptive child wrong.

inumaki -> "salmon, salmon, seaweed" ("but he's loyal, I like him")

panda -> asks if this makes choso his brother in law (you reply: "since when were choso and I married???")

yuuji -> says he's excited to definitely be your actual brother in law ("no, really, why is everyone assuming we're getting married?????")

gojo -> wants choso to call him his papa in law. you call him gross and tell him never to talk to your boyfriend again

your actual blood related family -> disowns you permanently

[saltedpears-archive]

kamo mc [for @phen0l​]

Keep reading

[farewell-itoshisoup]

ASKSHAKDKS OHHHH MY GOD NOER!!! I LOVE!?!!?! YOUR VISION OF KAMO MC!!! you took all the cues I haphazardly threw out and came up w/ such a cute design AHHHH IM IN LOVE WITH HERRRRR

Keep reading

[adrienwithane]

[bai-e-archived]

白猫 takes on tomorrowland 2026 ❄️🐈‍⬛🎆

hi guys I've been losing my mind over this beautiful comm I got from @rabbbitseason 🥹 bitti was so wonderful to work with and I can't thank her enough for bringing modern au baimao to life!!!

[bai-e-archived]

modern au baimao (phainon x mao) ig posts ❄️🐈‍⬛

relationship vibes are: exes to lovers, mentally ill 4 mentally ill, depressed but we stay silly. we party a lot, crash out a lot, work out a lot. broke up and got back together probably 33M times. we also have a samoyed and a black cat. phainon would smile more than most of the dudes in these pics!

tagging @moonsglare @friedeggyrice and anyone else who wants to do this!!!! :>