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Do it for her (you are her)

“I wanna see them lips, kiss 'em ear to ear

I wanna hear your song

I wanna feel just how you feel

Touch you one more time so I know you're real”

Mac Miller // Dunno

#mac miller #dunno #missingyouisawasteoftime #one more time #Spotify

anexperimentallife

Dude, the enemy is not "the group of people who can afford a nice house and car and take vacations and eat well and have enough saved for retirement."

The enemy is the group of people who make it IMPOSSIBLE for EVERYONE to have a nice house and car and take vacations and eat well and save enough for retirement.

In the US, "poor people" USED to be the people who had not-so-nice houses and cars, or who had to rent instead of own. And it's not the dentist down the street who changed that; among others, it's the ultra-rich CEOs and shareholders who refuse to pay a living wage so they can live off your labor, and the exploitative corporations that buy up as much housing as they possibly can and charge exorbitant rent so you'll never be able to own your own home. It's the bosses who decide that "excess" food must be destroyed if it cannot be sold at a price that enriches shareholders. And it's the politicians who encourage and enable all of that.

petrichara

And no I don’t think love ever leaves because it’s been eight years since my dad died and he is in every thought and hope and dream. and when I think I can’t fix the computer he is here. and when I eat chocolate cake he is here. and when the sun glows at 3pm he is here. and he will always be here because his life made mine, and my life will be his epilogue

balladofkandx

He lives in my heart. In everything I do. It’ll be one year in July.

Alive and Sober

It's been almost two years since I've been back on here. The last time I was here, I had slipped again and started drinking. Now I'm coming up on two years of being sober. I over have not missed drinking or had much of a craving. Mostly just a time here and there where I think it'd be nice to maybe have a beer on the beach or something. Then I "play it forward" and realize it wouldn't be worth it. I don't miss waking up daily and opening my eyes to wonder how bad the hangover will be, and I don't miss checking my phone to see all the damage I'd done while drunk. It's hard to believe and remember the person I let myself become for so long. I'm grateful she's gone. I have however gone through the hardest time in my life so far while being sober. My dad died July 11th, 2024, at around 6am. He died because he drank himself to an early death. I wish my sobriety was enough to save him but I'm thankful he got to know I was going to be ok. I'm grateful I was able to be present and by his side when he needed me the most.

#sober #sobriety #two years #loss #grief #dead dads club

javarisx-fightingthosedemons

elizabethanism

“I’m not telling you to make the world better I’m just telling you to live in it. Not just to endure it, not just to suffer it, not just to pass through it, but to live in it. To look at it. To take chances. To make your own work and take pride in it."

Joan Didion

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Sophia Joan Short

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F. E. Marie

safe-haven-safe-place

Ok so I didn’t make it very long. I guess I have to remind myself I just decided to get sober not too long ago. But I also haven’t been committed to making meaningful changes. Just enough so people can see I’m sort of trying. I’ve decided to try some online AA meetings and therapy. I went to the hospital in a panic attack yesterday from having drank so much for a few days. I’m ready to try again. But unfortunately my choices have made me miss some assignments so I have to try and make them up by tomorrow at midnight. Wish me luck.

Also! I’m down to meet some people who are also working to get sober so if you see this, feel free to reach out!

#sober #letstrythisagain #letsbesoberfriends