I asked my little sister if she thought I was cool…
I have been dealing with depression, no motivation, no type of interest in anything and living day by day just trying to figure out my purpose. To others I may look useless but I wish I could show everyone what’s going on in my mind. In the midst of all this, I’m laying in my bed (like I do very very often) and you come next to me so I decide to ask you if you think I’m cool. I was more so thinking you’d say no because I have no job and lay in my bed all day but to my surprise you actually made me feel like someone, you made me feel seen without even knowing. You’re 7 btw. You look at me and say yes and I’m like well what about me do you think is cool? You say, “well, you’re pretty, and you have cool clothes, and you have cool things, and you have cool friends and you make really cool things and you know how to do a lot of cool stuff.” I almost cried. Occasionally I’ll make random things, whenever I’m feeling creative and willing to move and when I say random I mean I’ve been wanting to start a business for handmade created things but they just haven’t taken off how I wish they would so I lose interest in them although I thought they were cool once upon a time. And I do occasionally do my own nails and really diy a lot of things. Idk for the first time, I felt seen. All the things I thought turned “uncool” were cool again. You don’t know what it’s been like not feeling like I’m enough, but you made me feel happy to be here. Thank you🤍
To: Lily
