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I love to cry and cry and cry and cry and cry

#second phone call w friend ended a lot better than the first while on the ferry but ohhh my god #how much can a guy cry #can i not cry at all yhis week maybe #id rly rly rly like that #anyway things arent as catastrophic now hooray #still holding complex feelings for the people in my live though #i should let time pass tho im thinking

transjudas

never take for granted the moments when you’re not nauseous

#for r e al

micromontage

when it wasn't meant to be 🤣🤣 but the potential of possibility still plagues you 🤔

barbellate

Fuck 8,)

barbellate

Nvm my mind is unstoppable and incurable 💪

#it is what it is #i have to like #actively try to not manipulate the ppl arojnd me i think #i think i may have problems #oh well onto enjoyment ig #am i selfish??????? am i a bad friend ????? yet to be seen i hope not but there are warring wolves within me

circusheart

If I keep practicing I might even be a person soon

Fuck 8,)

#there goes my infatuation #probably a good thing #but in a bad way #idk what to fucking doooooooooooo #i feel sick #humans are so fucking messy #i was having fun in my little mindpalace for a while tho #uguughghghfhh throws up

landmineblogging

thanks. thanks for being around. thanks for knowing me. thanks for liking me. thanks for holding your hand out & saying here's a place you can be. thanks for another night

landmineblogging

thanks for staying. thanks for taking care of yourself. thanks for making me feel safer. thanks for enjoying the things that i enjoy. thanks for being kind. thanks for putting warmth in my chest when it gets tight. thanks for sharing your world with me. thanks for having a sense of humor. thanks for proving the worth of a human being where i've doubted it. thanks for leaving nice messages. thanks for your time

landmineblogging

thanks for waking up today. thanks for checking in on me. thanks for looking after your own well-being. thanks for staying hydrated. thanks for believing me when i tell you you're doing good. thanks for remembering my birthday. thanks for being a good listener. thanks for drawing me. thanks for being so expressive. thanks for letting me see your pets. thanks for tolerating my psychosis. thanks for putting others before yourself even when you should always be your own top priority. thanks for being selfless. thanks for offering me advice. thanks for reading. thanks for watching. thanks for listening. thanks for being you

landmineblogging

thanks for everything

#a good vent

telepathylove

in the chillest possible way,

#sometimes #not related to last post btw this was more me last week #two weeks ago? who know

Feeling full of electricity with trying not to take smth personally (read: worrying I've been overstepping boundaries without knowing and being entitled to ppl's time bc I'm excited to know them but I've been too muchhhhh about it but idk how to stoppppppppp)

#feelings have been so electrified lately both good n bad #idrk what to do with myself #partly wishing my feelings werent so so so strong rn but also in a way its nice bc its been a long time #but also!!! i may b misreading things or more likely letting wishful thinking get in the way of reality #i feel like i have to curb my enthusiasm for how much i love n care abt some people bc perhaps ive been crazy idk whats happened here or wh #u ever meet ppl and youre like i want u in my life in a big way but theyre like im actually good with how my life is #and thats so fine and good but i also dont know where to put this #its no one's responsibility but my own #and also im probably reading into this current sitch way too much because im mentally unwell lmao #just getting a loss of faith in my own charm perhaps like hey if im kind and good enough youll feel the same way about me that i feel #about you!#which is unnnnnrealistic but ohh my delusions #man i just want a map to be better friends but perhaps in this situation trying hard to make situations happen will further push ppl away #it would probably be for the best if i could calm down but rrhrhghgghghfjghfh idk how idk how #im too full of love that has limited places to go #maybe im just lonesome and it's coming out in embarrassing ways #wish the feeling wasnt so stabbing is all!!!!!!!#shit takes time anyway and maybe ive been rushing this friendship but it also feels silly to not persue something i feel strongly about #but also!!!!!! not everyone is going thru whatever weird shit i have going on rn nor should it be expected!!!!#tbh this ruminating is probably bc of period lbr #its Literally fine im just dealing w disappointment and worry a little badly rn lemme keep myself somewhat in check

sakeofpower

Im rotting

#i have nothing going for me right now #im just a loser piece of shit

Worst I've felt in a while which feels selfish as fuck but it seems to me that everything is getting worse!

#i need so desperately to visit my family and friends #this week really got me fucked up #im so tired of sending in applications #fuck me fuck me fuck meeeee not sexual #i wan tto be able to draw again so fucking badlu #i want a doctor who knows me #i need to see my therapist again but i cant afford her

its-funnytwittertweets

#mememememememe today omg!!!

For the record it's fucking cruel to put words in my mouth

#this keeps fucking happening

whyyyyyyy

#OMG I MADE HER SO UPSET TIME TO DIE IG #i wasnt trying to inject any tone into my voice and im tired but whyyyy does it translate to Very Angry #im just tired but in a fine mood but now i feel guilty because of nothing #well lol not nothing 4 all i know this is spiral material fuck #literally impossible to tear my mind away from which just makes me fucking frustrated #i hate my brain so much why cant i just carry on #why does everything feel world shattering #i wish i could stick my guilt with a bowie knife and say im not in charge of her emotions #like why do i have to grovel like a fucking dog

Everybody's fuckin dying!!!!!!!!

I miss my fucking best friend who might not even be alive anymore I hope they're having a good life I miss them so fucking much where the fuck are they

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