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Ugh

Been a while since my last post. I've kept up with my diet which without exercise (spoiler) maintains weight. I haven't been to the gym in months due to transportation issues and home just reminds me that I'm a depressed mess again. I'm just glad at this point that I haven't gone backwards.

#weight loss #obese #losing weight #plateaued

I reached my first scale goal!

I'm seriously stoked. I haven't stepped on the scale in three days because I was feeling a little discouraged. Three days ago my weight went back up to 268, turns out it was just period bloat. and I'm at 259 this morning. I've stayed diligent with eating healthy foods and getting to the gym a minimum of 3 times a week for high intensity cardio and weight lifting. Even while feeling discouraged, I made sure to keep up the work. I've lost 12 lbs.

SW: 271

GW 1: 260

CW: 259

GW2: 250

GW3: 240

GW4: 230

GW5: 220

GW6: 210

GW7: 200

GW8: 190

GW9: 180

UGW: 170

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Fluctuating

So the last couple days I've been fluctuating between 262 lbs and 264. Mostly in the 263 range. I had my appointment with my nutritionist and she said as long as I'm close to my calorie goal on either side, as long as I'm being consistent with staying active, it won't make much of a difference if that "close" is over or under the goal.

Over all I'm happy with the changes I was able to make, and I'm content with the goals I'm working forward for. Eating still feels like a full time job on its own, plus waking up at the ass-crack of dawn to eat breakfast and go to the gym.

Yesterday was cardio and arm day, today was just cardio so I didn't go to the gym. I did a 30 minute Fitness Marshall video. I think I'll do those on my rest days that way I'm staying active all days. Tomorrow morning is cardio and core. Last core day I did I felt like my back was being ripped apart for the next couple days. Hopefully it won't be as bad this time. If it is, it'll be worth it.

My irrational thoughts were wrong.

Yeah.. My irrational thoughts were wrong, like I knew they would be. I stepped on the scale while getting ready to head out to the store. I'm 262 lbs now. All of me arguing with my own irrational thoughts for my rational thoughts to be correct. It's exhausting, I know..

When I woke up this morning, my back hurt more than yesterday, like I thought it would, so I took another gym rest day. But I did still get up and moving. I went to the store to grab some quinoa for a carb mix that I found. It's 1:1:1 ratio of rice, quinoa, and lentils. I did 1 cup of each dry in my pressure cooker with 3.5 cups of water. Pressure cook on high for 4 minutes then let it release the pressure on its own. I also added 1/2 cup onions, 1/2 cup bell peppers, Lawry's garlic seasoned salt, cilantro, smoked paprika, onion powder, and lemon pepper. I'm excited for it for dinner with zucchini and a couple slices of pork loin.

Definitely getting back into the gym tomorrow. It's going to be leg day with the glide stepper for beginning and ending cardio. I'm so close to my first goal I can taste it. I just have to keep pushing through.

#irrational thoughts #getting fit #losing weight #rest day #weight loss

Rest day

Today was my first rest day from the gym. All my muscles are good and sore. I'm sure my back and stomach will be worse tomorrow, because second day soreness is so real. Going to set my alarm to get up early for the gym tomorrow and base if I actually go on how bad my back feels cause that's the worst of it.

Just existing hurts, but it's truly my own doing. My back hurts the worst and it's the only body part I worked with body weight instead of a weight machine. I used to do the same exercise when I was younger with body weight and the largest weight plate I could grip.

I'm also battling my brain because I weighed myself just before hopping on and I'm 265 lbs. So I'm a pound up from last time I logged in, and my irrational thoughts are trying to say it's because I didn't go to the gym today.

I did great today for my macro goals and my calories. I exceeded my fiber goal and met my protein goal spot on while only being 104 calories away from my calorie goal.

Over all, it's still a 6 lbs drop from where I started 5 days ago. That's a little over a pound per day. And again, I know because I'm obese it'll come off quicker to start, but it's a fucking great motivator for the start of this journey. I'm still excited for what's to come

#weight loss #losing weight #rest day #progress #off day #irrational thoughts #getting fit #obese

Exhausted

Holy shit! I'm absolutely exhausted! I've woken up at 5 AM the last two days to get ready for the gym. I did 30 minutes of cardio (split for warm up and cool down) and 30 minutes of weight lifting (leg day then arm day) both days. I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing. But I'm really proud of myself for doing it. It's a good time all around.

I'm going to do a core day tomorrow. I'm NOT excited for that one. What the hell am I going to actually do for that that isn't crunches?? I'm sure they have core specific machines there, but nothing is grouped together. It's like they just put everything where it would fit and moved on about their day. I think I need a map.

I'll probably look up some exercises and take it from there.. I'll figure it out one way or another.

On another note I've been doing great with my calorie and protein goals. It's been harder to reach my fiber goal, but my husband got paid so I was able to pick up some foods with those specific things in mind. Today is the first time I've gone over my calorie goal. It was only by 25 cals and I've been active all day even beyond the gym, so I'm not stressed about it. I'm going to talk to my nutritionist at our next appointment to see if she feels it's better to be a little over or a little under the goal she set because I'm still working on finding that balance to eat more, but not over do it.

And I'm already down 7 lbs. I started at 271 lbs. I'm now at 264. I know with being obese, I will lose the first bit of weight more quickly than later down the line. But a win is still a win. I'm going to keep busting my ass to get in shape and gain my health and energy back.

#getting fit #progress #gym talk #losing weight #weight loss #obese

Eat MORE???

I had my appointment with the nutritionist and she wants me eating 2200 calories a day where I was eating 1800. So 400 calories more a day. It's easy to make up but pretty much the issue is that I'm eating too late in the day and she says not eating often enough will make my body slow down.

So I need to actually eat breakfats (typo but i'm keeping it) now, instead of just a zero sugar monster or coffee in the morning which I usually have. I'm going to the gym for the first time in years tomorrow morning SUPER early because it's the only time I have to go.

So I'm trying to figure out what I should have for breakfast before the gym because I'm broke right now and my spouse doesn't get paid until Tuesday (alternating pay schedules). We don't really keep eggs in the house. So I'm thinking maybe just toast and peanut butter, or maybe instant oatmeal with chia. OR skip the bread - instant oatmeal with chia and peanut butter. Good protein and fiber which are the other things she wants me to focus on increasing.

Going to get a playlist made for the gym tomorrow. I'm genuinely excited for it.

#nutritionist appointment #update #gym tomorrow

Here we go....

I stepped on the scale for the first time in months last night and was horrified to see it says 270 lbs. I've been getting more active over the last few months and the last time I stepped on the scale I was 240. How the fuck do I put in more work and GAIN 30 fucking lbs.

So I made an appointment with a dietitian/ nutritionist to figure out what I can do to not just starve 100 lbs away. I feel disgusting.

Also got set up with a proper gym membership, but the only time I'll be able to go is around 5 AM. I'm so not ready, but I'm going to make it happen. I have to. I can't keep going this route.

SW: 270 (current)