my heart is full of ache and sorrow and I don’t know where else to put it, this blog has been here only about half as long as the character who inspires this grief in my heart. My sweet boy, my one and only Bill boy. My very first dog that made me love them all so, is finally getting the rest he needs today. Today is a sad day, he for so many years was the only man in my life, my only Valentine and to lose him at this time when I have finally found another to take care of me, I can’t fathom losing him. I’m not scared or full of regret, I simply wished for more days- infinite days with the sweetest dog known to man. I know many who have felt this pain but despite being so dog focused in my life, this will be my first big goodbye. Bill taught me to be patient and kind and inspired me to work with dogs professionally all from the love he created in me. He will be 14 years and 5 months tomorrow on the dot but unfortunately today is his last day. He did such a good job carrying me and my family from pain and hatred back east and helped us resettle our life and home here in CO. I’m so glad he got to see the mountains and run for miles chasing our jeep, I wish I could have got him to the ocean but he had many fun days running on pond beaches drinking muck water. He loves seaweed but more the nori type for sushi rolling. He loves lots of things dogs aren’t supposed to eat, I think M&Ms were his favorite, but he loved lots of candy and chocolates in his life. He will have more today. M&Ms are my favorite too. He never went without, my boy never experienced hardship or hard times like many other animals do. He lived a long long good life for a dog of his breeds and size, and he knows only one family has loved him for his whole time. God I am going to miss him but I know he will be chasing rabbits and actually catching them wherever he’s off to next. Good luck my boy, my sweet Billy boy, the billster, billions and billions of good things in my life and heart I love you so so so much. The only boy who will ever have his name on my skin forever. I’ll miss you more than you can imagine.
