BbyGLeen

Just me and my thoughts

[nature-hiking]

Autumn sunrise - Adlerweg, Tirol, Austria, October 2022

photo by: nature-hiking

[bbygleen3]

Guys what in the actual hell are the kind of DM's I'm getting????

[seabeck]

Mountain lake

[bbygleen3]

#nature

[maureen2musings]

Colorado color palette

austinpedersen__

[bbygleen3]

I'll see this one of these days

[bbygleen3]

To be loved is to be seen.

[bbygleen3]

It's not that I wanted to die or to kill myself. It's that I wanted the life as I knew it to end.

[bbygleen3]

Is it wrong to want more. I think that sometimes when I'm reflecting back on my life that I want more than what's in front of me. Not even partner wise just life in general. A part of me wants so badly to drop every single responsibility I have here and move and just forget everything. forget the life Had here besides my family and just move. I want to move a small hallmark town where everyone knows everyone and it really is a community out there. I want more for me and my life.

[bbygleen3]

I needed to lose you to love me

[bbygleen3]

My mind is empty and so loud all at once.

[bbygleen3]

Did you ever love me or was I just conveniently to you?

[bbygleen3]

Aura Points

How many Aura points did I lose when I knew if I answered your call it'd start a big argument but at least we were talking. Or How many aura points did I lose when we'd break up and you'd chase after me and I come back because somehow some way I knew it'd be different each time. Are we still keeping track of the aura points I lost when you would yell at me for being emotional and I would just apologize because then you'd stop being mad at me.

[bbygleen3]

to be loved is to be seen. do you see me? do you see when I come home after a 10 hour shift and I start cleaning and cooking dinner while you watch whatever game is playing that day. Do you see how I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders and I'm just tired. Do you see me when I get so anxious I start to clean and just zone out because my mind is so damned jumbled. Do you notice when I try to de escalate the fight yet you insist on arguing with me so it frustrates me yet I'm the reason for every fight? I'm not perfect but sometimes I don't feel seen which leads to feeling the lack of love you always say you have for me. I'm just tired and at what point do things change. at what point do I decide I'm deserving of better?

[fairytaleprincessart]

[ashotasfireandasdeepastheocean1]

Majestic 🌄

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[bbygleen3]

Take me here and leave me alone

[bbygleen3]

Does he know?

Is it true what they say about heaven? That when you go to heaven you see and hear everything. because if it is. Do you know how many times I've cried out for you, or how many times I've wished to talk to you. Do you know about the nights I lay awake hoping that this last year has been a nightmare and I'm just waiting to wake up. Do you know that? Do you know that I miss you or that my world crumbled the day you passed away. I wish heaven had visiting hours or that I can have at least 1 more conversation with you. But that would never be enough for me. Do you know when it gets easier? Does it ever?

[bbygleen3]

Lost

Being Lost has been one of the worst feelings I've ever experienced. Every time I feel like I'm getting close to feeling like myself again something always happens and the floor beneath me crumbles. I miss my dad. It feels like a big piece of me died with him that day. My world did in fact end when he passed.

[vangoghcore]

by spirithiker

[maureen2musings]

York

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