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cbbjon-bernthal:

Just when you think things can’t get any better, someone else makes a plan to arrive later this year. Lets hope they get their moms ears

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No shit - congratulations, man. That’s fuckin’ awesome.

#c: Jon

zayncooper:

I think that might be the most Dad thing you’ve ever said to me.

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Yet. The most Dad thing I’ve ever said to you... yet.

—— I uh - ...I noticed a certain person walking around the other day. Are you okay?

#c: Zayn

cbbsophia:

Well played, Cooper. Well played. What other traditions have ya managed to smart talk your way out of?

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Oh I’ve got to keep some of my secrets, don’t I? Can’t have everyone finding out my ways around things or I won’t be able to use ‘em as excuses anymore.

#c: Sophia

zayncooper:

Guess you were lucky I was high enough to forgive you back then. Now though? — I dunno. Might have to burn some bridges.

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Yeah? That’s a shame. You’ve been supporting the wrong team this whole time - but even if you can’t deal with our differences, I’ll still accept you for it.

#c: Zayn

zayncooper:

Shit. It was?

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Yeah, it was. Probably equally disappointed t’know I was a Godzilla guy back then too.

#c: Zayn

cbbsophia:

‘Fuck, that’s smart. I wish I’d thought of that one. Congratulations on out-witting tradition.’

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“After all these years? You have to get around the system of obligation. And now every year I’m a free bird not having a stupid resolution over my shoulders.”

#c: Sophia

zayncooper:

Team Kong. Obviously.

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Hm. Thought I raised you better than that.

———do you remember that was the first thing you ever said to me here? Who would win in a fight; Godzilla or King Kong?

#c: Zayn #this is a fact

zayncooper:

Not to sound dramatic, but if someone doesn’t watch Godzilla vs. Kong with me tonight, I might cry. You in?

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That solely depends on who you’re rooting for.

#c: Zayn

cbbsophia:

So, folks. We’re almost five months into 2021, which means I gotta ask the question almost everybody dreads being asked. What’s the sitch with people’s New Year resolutions? Are you still going strong or have they already been broken? I’m thinking of doing a Work-In-Progress piece on the realistic slash unrealistic goals we set ourselves just ‘cause it’s January and I’d love to have some personal stories to share. Maybe ya can even come on air with me.

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“My New Year’s resolution of not having a New Year’s resolution is going splendidly, actually. Of course it gets a little confusing if you start looking into it because it’s a circle of hypocrisy but, all that matters is that I’m definitely going strong.”

#c: Sophia

bbMessenger | Papa Coops

ZAYN: That’s the problem. It doesn’t feel like I’m only mourning a person. I feel like I’m mourning an entire life. When I said ‘till death do us part, I fucking meant it. That was it for me. Happily ever after. The possibility of me being here, in this position, it never even crossed my mind and I’m trying to process that, but it’s beyond anything my heart wants to comprehend right now.

ZAYN: Despite knowing I have to.

ZAYN: If not for my sake then for Khai. Which is.. a whole other thing I’m still trying to process.

ZAYN: [ TYPING ]

ZAYN: [ STILL TYPING ]

ZAYN: I wanna believe it gets better almost as much as I wanna believe Perrie will pull a Jenn and come back fighting for another chance. But I don't believe either of those things right now. I don't know how to.

ZAYN: [ TYPING ]

ZAYN: What if it doesn't lessen?

ZAYN: What if I’m doomed to feel this shitty ‘for as long as we both shall live’ like the vows I swore said I would?

BRAD: that's the thing you keep saying right now.

BRAD: You don't have to process it right now. You don't have to comprehend it right now. You don't have to do anything right now. There's no timeline for grief, Zayn

BRAD: you're the only one pushing yourself to have one, but you don't have to. You're going to go through it and it's going to take time - but you get to have as much time as you need.

BRAD: It meant everything to you. That's going to fucking hurt. But it doesn't mean that you'll never feel happiness again. That you're destined to feel this shitty forever. It will get better. I promise you, Zayn. It sure as fuck doesn't feel like it.. and no matter what anyone says to you? You're not going to believe it.

BRAD: but it will. It gets better. Slowly.... but it does.

#c: Zayn #t: Zayn

bbMessenger | Papa Coops

ZAYN: I dunno. Part of me thinks I should.

ZAYN: I don’t want to get stuck in the past and ignore the present. I’ve done that before and I think we both remember it didn’t end well for me. I don’t exactly have the healthiest of coping mechanisms when I get caught up in bad thoughts.

ZAYN: [ TYPING ]

ZAYN: It’s just..

ZAYN: [ TYPING ]

ZAYN: It’s been Zayn and Perrie for over two fucking years now. Even before we got back together, we were still living in the same house. She was my reason to get up in the morning ‘cuz I knew I’d see her.

ZAYN: Some mornings I get up and I still make breakfast for two.

ZAYN: I’ve forgotten how to be just Zayn.

ZAYN: I don’t /want/ to be just Zayn.

BRAD: I know...

BRAD: I know, Zayn.

BRAD: But you've grown so incredibly much as a person since then. We've learned. And it's okay to have these bad thoughts. To mourn the loss of something that's been a big part of your life. You're allowed to do that, kid. Especially for something like this. I will be there for you in case those unhealthy coping mechanisms try to sneak back but this? This is...part of the process.

BRAD: ...When Jenn left, I didn't know how to be Brad either. But...these things come back. With time.

BRAD: When you have your friends and family there for you. Guiding you. Supporting you. These things will come back easier. And you'll find things to slowly start filling that hole I know you feel.

BRAD: The pain is... never going to go away. The pain of losing someone never does. But things that will make you experience that pain will get less. Get smaller. You'll find yourself thinking about it less often and with less intensity. It'll always still be there, but... with time it won't hurt as badly as it does now.

BRAD: I promise.

#c: Zayn #t: Zayn

bbMessenger | Cooper

NORMAN: Good thing I like breaking the rules.

BRADLEY: yeah yeah don't we know it

#c: Norman #t: Norman

A heart shaped pizza, & cookie cake greeted Jenn for Breakfast in Bed (because who doesn’t want pizza for breakfast) - as well as a card, roses, candy basket and homemade dinosaur print from Lea.

@cbbjlaw

#c: Jennifer #x; Valentine's Day

bbMessenger | Papa Coops

ZAYN: I don't know how to be divorced. I'm not even sure I remember how to be single full stop.

ZAYN: [ TYPING ]

ZAYN: That probably sounds lame as fuck.

ZAYN: I get that relationships end all the time. I've had more than enough bad fucking break-ups to understand that, but none like this. This is different. I feel like I was still learning how to be someone's husband and now I'm just.. not. And I can't even explain that to people who think I should getting over it because none of them know.

BRAD: I don't think anyone thinks you should be getting over it regardless.

BRAD: It doesn't matter what level someone was at in a relationship everyone deals with the grief differently regardless and for anyone to just expect people to get over it no matter what is idiotic.

BRAD: You're allowed to feel this way. I'd be more concerned if you didn't. You lost your person. It's..normal not to know what to do with yourself or how to function 'properly' without them right now.

#c: Zayn #t: Zayn