sunshine // i was midnight rain.

penned and loved by bex.

[themuseandantarctica]

* 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒄 𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒆 𝒑𝒕. 2

sentence starters based on scarlett thomas’ novel our tragic universe.  change however necessary.

tw: depression, relationship conflict, infidelity, emotional abuse/manipulation

❛ i’m a fucking failure . i might as well admit it . ❜

❛ everything’s shit . i can’t do anything without making a mess of it . ❜

❛ i didn’t mean what i said before . i wouldn’t kill you . i wouldn’t even blame you . ❜

❛ what happened to us ? i don’t know if i’m even good for you anymore . i fuck everything up . ❜

❛ he often said that he wanted to minimize the footprint he was making on the environment , but i sometimes wondered whether really he didn’t want the environment to make a footprint on him as it trudged on into an unknown future . ❜

❛ surely it didn’t matter where you were , as long as you were happy ? ❜

❛ i fail all the time , but it’s just not so obvious . ❜

❛ life isn’t all about success . we don’t all have to be [ name ] . it’s ok to just be . that’s what we’re doing , isn’t it ? ❜

❛ we could build our farm and live off the land . then none of it would matter . ❜

❛ we would live happily ever after because of all that stuff , not despite it . ❜

❛ i am a monster . fuck . i said i wasn’t , but i am . ❜

❛ i’m a real shit sometimes , but i do love you . ❜

❛ sometimes [ name ] talked about what she felt for [ name ] , and i just couldn’t understand it . she seemed to want him , not what he could give her . ❜

❛ do you know the difference between a lie and a story ? ❜

❛ it’s not a bad thing to be good at telling stories , and in some ways everything we tell is a story , but sometimes it’s good to remember which parts of the stories we tell are true , and which parts are made up . ❜

❛ you’re not the kind of person to overcome monsters . that’s a good thing , isn’t it ? remember the story of beauty and the beast ? the beast looked like a monster , and all he needed was love , and then when beauty really loved him he turned into a prince . in that story , beauty didn’t overcome the monster either ; she loved him , and they lived happily ever after . ❜

❛ if a monster , or something you call a monster , comes to see you and you become its friend , it stops being a monster , at least to you . in that sense , there don’t have to be any such thing as monsters . you have to decide something is a monster before it becomes one . ❜

❛ i suppose in an ideal world you would go your separate ways and leave each other alone . ❜

❛ the main thing is that you don’t have to be violent towards something just because you don’t like it . ❜

❛ in a sense you could say he hasn’t made anything of himself , because he hasn’t become rich and famous , and he doesn’t have a family and a house , but he’s very happy with his simple life . ❜

❛ i was looking back at him , and suddenly something happened with our eyes : they touched . somewhere in the air between us , we touched without touching . ❜

❛ i wanted to run my theory past you . do you mind if i do it now ? it looks like we’re stuck here for a while , and there’s no one else to really talk to about this . ❜

❛ it seemed to be one of the small sadnesses of contemporary life that there was always someone in your office , or down the road , or across the river who understood your inner soul better than you partner did . ❜

❛ [ name ] had seemed to understand my inner soul once , i remembered , but he was well out of date on that score now . ❜

❛ it’s an interesting conversation to have while we wait to drown . ❜

❛ disaster is built into every man-made system . ❜

❛ people are simply reading technology as tragic . people somehow know that technology is always doomed . all that hubris . ❜

❛ all stories of success begin with failure , and the reverse . love stories begin with loneliness ; loneliness stories begin with love . ❜

❛ narrative has to have patterns , other it wouldn’t be narrative , and while life doesn’t have to have patterns , the minute we express it as narrative it does have to have patterns ; it has to make sense . therefore we impose patterns on life in order that we can express it as narrative . ❜

❛ whenever something good happens , we start anticipating its end . ❜

❛ i wanted to take his arm , or his hand , but i didn’t . ❜

❛ it’s too depressing ; no one wants anything ; no one does anything ; there are no questions to be resolved . ❜

❛ things seem like magic only when we don’t understand the underlying forces that make them happen . ❜

❛ perhaps he’d been killed in an accident , and that was why he hadn’t been at the bus stop . If he had been killed , i found myself thinking , then i’d be free . i erased the thought from my mind , but I couldn’t undo the fact that i’d had the thought in the first place . ❜

❛ here , in front of me , were so many different kinds of madness that i could hardly breathe . ❜

❛ I wondered if there really were that many people who felt so victimized by contemporary life . ❜

❛ i find it all so depressing , but i don’t know why . ❜

❛ i’ve got a friend who says that the human being is a big computer that can compute everything that machines can’t — feeling , emotion and so on . ❜

❛ i want [ name ] to start taking an interest in me , and i want some passion in my life . ❜

❛ if everyone had money and love and creative talent there’d be no need for world peace . ❜

❛ everything i’d ever thought about it had seemed like a good idea once , and then i had another ‘ good idea ’ and had to delete the one before . ❜

❛ life is a great quest , and you are its hero . the purpose of life is the completion of the quest . To complete the quest you must work out what you most want to find in some faraway cave , then take some weapons , go out and find the cave and get this thing . anything that stands in your way is a monster . ❜

❛ some beings have to be monsters , because otherwise how do you define other beings as heroes ? ❜

❛ it just wasn’t any good to find out that you are a monster and overcome yourself : the monster has to be outside you , and you have to kill it and move on until you get your treasure and your princess and become enlightened and then ascend to the road to perfection . ❜

❛ no . i mean she’s gone . i don’t know where . ❜

❛ it’s not really a mystery to me , but i’m too tired of it all to try to understand . ❜

❛ i was going to say i was sorry and i hoped his hand felt better , but actually i’m not sorry and i hope it drops off . ❜

❛ he didn’t say much . it was obviously one of those things i was supposed to know never to mention . ❜

❛ maybe there was always something . but there was also always the sense that if the something could be fixed , then all would be perfect . ❜

❛ i’ll never know , because i can never ask him about it again . you know how you can only ever talk about a problem once with [ name ] and then if you bring it up again he goes totally crackers ? ❜

❛ [ name ] could be a real skeptic when he wanted to be , which made his belief in aliens and sea monsters all the more interesting . ❜

❛ it means i’m not as mad as i thought i was . ❜

❛ if the future has already happened , or , at least , if it’s possible to compute , then of course you can predict it . ❜

❛ if a person’s collective thoughts are not kept in their head , but outside in a collective space , then anyone can access them . ❜

❛ I think the wrong type of person senses that there’s more power out there than they’ve been given access to , and so they pretend they’ve got it . ❜

❛ you’re always going to see fraudsters and tricksters out there on the street , peddling what they’ve got , because there’s no other way for them to live . ❜

❛ but what’s the point of it all ? this universe that’s just data . ❜

❛ death has to be what defines life , since living things are those things that will die but are not yet dead . ❜

❛ i saw the people themselves , already bad copies of pictures in magazines , aging , breaking , dying , for no reason at all , just like everything they ever bought . ❜

❛ each time two of them kiss in a disco , they imagine they are embarking on a perfect romance . ❜

❛ the people will lie , kill or steal for these items , which they believe to be love potions , beauty creams , elixirs of success or even flat-pack fairy castles . but in fact all they are trading are empty cardboard boxes , which they stack up in their houses until there are too many and then they throw some away . ❜

❛ why would you choose to die if there was an alternative ? ❜

❛ i half-wanted to say sorry , but i didn’t , because i also half-wanted to scream at him that it was his own fault , that everything he was upset about was his own fault . ❜

❛ i’m not sure i love you anymore , and i didn’t want to be anywhere near you this evening because you’re a fucking lunatic . ❜

❛ instead of comforting me , as i thought he would , he said , in a cold voice , ‘ you are just like your mother , ’ and left the room . i knew then that i’d lost him forever . ❜

❛ [ name ] didn’t like us playing together , so we’d stopped . ❜

❛ pretty shit . i keep having to go and cry in the toilet . ❜

❛ i don’t think i can come out tonight , unfortunately , which is such a bummer because i so don’t want to be at home . ❜

❛ of course , people did look after others in this way , sometimes for years . what was so wrong with me that i could barely manage it for a day ? ❜

❛ please don’t leave me alone . the world’s sort of vibrating . ❜

❛ i willed the phone to ring again . it didn’t . ❜

❛ don’t take the piss . i’m enjoying this . it’s making me feel better . ❜

❛ birds must be happy when they fly . ❜

❛ that weird plant must really like growing in sand . ❜

❛ evolution keeps on trucking until the end of time , which is never tomorrow , even though we all think it might be . ❜

❛ surely anything that existed and could think would find itself astonishing . ❜

❛ the placebo effect might not be the results of the patient’s mind , but your mind . ❜

❛ will you thank [ name ] for me when she gets back ? i’m too embarrassed to see anyone right now , especially her . ❜

❛ everyone’s got things they find hard to do . ❜

❛ she had her hands wrapped around her coffee as if it was the only source of warmth in her life . ❜

❛ i wanted to meet you again after that party , but i never did , and now i probably never will again , and it’s a shame , because i thought we could have been friends . ❜

❛ you know , not everyone is judging you . everyone’s got something that other people would think was awful if they knew . people like to attack the people who can’t or won’t hide , because that’s all part of their own camouflage . ❜

❛ i won’t ever come first for him , even though i’m the one who is there all the time , and i’m actually interested in him and his life . ❜

❛ he doesn’t mean to hurt my feelings , but he does , all the time , because he’s been put in this impossible position . ❜

❛ she has a nice big house , i imagine , and a cleaner , and nice furniture , and a husband and three lovely children , and that gives her the right to judge me , and decide how i should live . ❜

❛ i imagined being with [ name ] until we were both in our sixties and realized i’d probably rather shoot myself . ❜

❛ it was when i’d noticed the agelessness of his arms that i’d first realized he was a man , like any other man , and that he would also have feelings and memories and hopes and a heart and a naked body , just there under his clothes . ❜

❛ [ name ] told me he was going to tell [ name ] not to come round anymore . ❜

❛ you do look after me . sorry i’ve been a dick recently . ❜

❛ it’s so easy to start thinking that life is totally meaningless . ❜

❛ when i was a kid i thought death would happen to other people , but not to me . then when I grew up and realized it was inevitable for everyone , it was just such a fucking downer , you know ? ❜

❛ she’d even considered ruins , since , as she put it , she was already ruined herself . ❜

❛ don’t you think it’s interesting that people spent loads of time and money building structures for no reason other than to amuse themselves , or have something better than the neighbors , or so they could pretend to be living in the past , or in a fairy tale or something ? ❜

❛ was all that [ name ] , or was it just my idea of him ? ❜

❛ i just don’t want to go and play happy families with [ name ] and fucking [ name ] , of all people , especially when she’s shagging someone else . ❜

❛ i’m not into morally policing my friends . or my family , for that matter . ❜

❛ i wish i’d never told you any of that stuff now . i knew you’d find some way of using it against them . ❜

❛ if i sat there now , with so much life to contemplate , i felt that i might just watch the sea forever , and freeze with no fire and starve with no food . ❜

❛ i’m thinking about having an affair — which by the way will remain an affair even if i do leave [ name ] , because the , um , third party has got a partner as well . ❜

❛ you can’t really be in love with one person and officially living with another ; it has to be both at once . ❜

❛ i went through them all one by one after [ name ] rejected me . With the first three i convinced myself I was in love each time . ❜

❛ there was no conversation , but i understood , and he understood , that i’d had all his friends and now it was his turn . ❜

❛ i was wondering just what was so wrong with their relationship . it wasn’t just the harmonies and the easy conversation . ❜

[memedetonator]

☠ ― 𝑅𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑦 𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠. (𝐴 𝑚𝑖𝑥 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑜𝑙𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑎𝑖𝑛.)

"Oh, no, did it just start raining...?"

"Quick, into this cave!"

"That lightning almost hit us!"

"That thunder doesn't sound good."

"Let's take shelter in here for a while."

"I guess we're sleeping in here..."

"The sound of rain on the roof/window/etc. always calms me down."

"Shh... listen."

"Mind if I wait out the storm here?"

"Let's go play in the rain!"

"Of course it had to rain while we're out here..."

"Do you think the rain water is safe to drink out of this?"

"Those clouds don't look very good."

"We can still have fun, even if it rains!"

"You've never seen rain before?"

"This mud is thicker than glue..."

"My socks are soaked..."

"Yeah, yeah, I know. I look like a drenched rat."

"I'm not scared of thund--WAAAH!"

"Well, we picked a really bad time to go camping, huh?"

"We'll be stuck under this tree forever. We'll have to write our wills on leaves."

"Inside! Hurry!"

"The... the power just went out."

"This poor creature... we have to get it out of this storm!"

"Why do worms always come out when it rains?"

"At least I won't have to water the garden today."

"Relax, it's just rain."

"Gah! I just stepped in a puddle!"

"Would you mind if I stood under your umbrella...?"

"Do you want my coat?"

"I--It's so c-cold..."

"My hair is a mess!"

"Our clothes are soaked..."

"Look at us; we look like we just went swimming in all of our clothes!"

"Not the greatest time to get lost..."

[memehcwling]

☈ ― the sex lives of college girls ; sentence starters

❝ look, i care about you girls - just don't embarrass me, because then you're dead to me. ❞ ❝ i really need this job to pay for school, so the only kind of attitude i have is 'can do'. ❞ ❝ i am ready to smash some d's. ❞ ❝ i am sure we will have latte fun! ❞ ❝ i'm sorry to hear that, but can we please focus here on my problems? ❞ ❝ you're a good person - underneath all your bad qualities. ❞ ❝ that's because they want to have sex with you. ❞ ❝ i like men, not boys. ❞ ❝ are you mad my mom isn't a crackhead? ❞ ❝ we took each other's virginity and mine was just as fragile as yours! ❞ ❝ we had to listen to your crappy sex playlist on repeat. you made me hate ed sheeran! ❞ ❝ dude, can you move? your reflection is in my selfie. ❞ ❝ do not have sex with any of my roommates. she's not used to guys like you. ❞ ❝ tonight we're going to rage our brains out at the anything but clothes party. ❞ ❝ which group of butts looks more approachable? ❞ ❝ i'm always doing that. i never wake up in my own bed. ❞ ❝ you're so much hotter than your profile. it's like a reverse catfish. ❞ ❝ i came here to hook up, not be lectured by some urban mom in a bad cardigan. ❞ ❝ i don't think you realize it, but you are aggressively cupping your breasts in shame. ❞ ❝ the best way to get over somebody is to whore out with someone hotter. ❞ ❝ i kind of did something bad.. ❞ ❝ you don't always have to tell me the good things; i'm also here for the bad. especially when things are bad. ❞ ❝ you're like the most together person i know. ❞ ❝ i think the only way you can be happy is if you're yourself. ❞ ❝ we are gonna see some side dick tonight! ❞

[thesoulofasurvivor]

DIALOGUE PROMPTS, THE LAST OF US (season 1 episode 2) change pronouns as needed

~

"Of course not."

"Do you have the right person?"

"We have the right person."

"When did this happen?"

"Where?"

"What happened to the people she bit?"

"Who bit her?"

"We brought you here to help us keep this from spreading."

"We need a vaccine, or a medicine."

"I have spent my life studying these things."

"Please listen carefully."

"There is no medicine. There is no vaccine."

"So what do we do?"

"Do I look like I'm infected?"

"Show us your arm."

"Yeah it's not getting any worse, is it?"

"Don't worry about that."

"Well, I'm gonna."

"I'm not infected."

"Clearly not."

"I think what really impressed them was the fact that I didn't turn into a fucking monster."

"There's not gonna be anything bad in here?"

"Just you."

"Oh, funny."

"She made it through the fuckin' night."

"It doesn't matter."

"It's gonna happen, sooner or later."

"This is our best shot."

"Better them than us."

"You hungry?"

"You can share some of ours."

"Guess not you guys."

"Don't lie to me."

"You heard that?"

"I'm gonna talk to you like you're an adult."

"Answer my question."

"They're working on a cure."

"I've heard this before."

"Fuck you man, I didn't ask for this."

"You and me both."

"If she so much as twitches."

"Don't."

"Can I have a gun?"

"Absolutely not."

"No."

"I'll just throw a fuckin' sandwich at them."

"It's the long way or the we're fuckin dead way."

"How did you get bit?"

"How old are you?"

"Well, I mean, you got some balls on you, sister."

"Nobody's gonna be comin' after you, right?"

"Shit, I hope not."

"What was that?"

"Have you heard of books?"

"I don't know how to swim."

"No, smartass."

"I don't know how I was supposed to know that."

"Yes sir, I would like your finest suite please."

"Yes ma'am, would you like me to take your luggage?"

"You're a weird kid."

"Oh, fuck!"

"Fucking fabulous."

"When the fuck did that happen?"

"Can you give me a hand?"

"Nice knife."

"Where'd you learn to do that?"

"The circus."

"No more questions about me."

"Was it hard? Like, knowing they were people once?"

"Put the gun down."

"You're not immune from being ripped apart."

"You've gotta be fucking kidding me."

"More ground rules..."

"What the fuck is going on?"

"They went inside."

"Our luck had to run out sooner or later."

"Fuck. She's infected."

"Show me."

"Oops, right?"

"Shut the fuck up."

"Save who you can save."

"Get off me, you fucker!"

[eeveecryptid]

※ RESIDENT EVIL: WELCOME TO RACCOON CITY ( 2021 )

lines through the movie because - hello - i adore just how well done it was. feel free to adjust pronouns/phrasing if needed. May include nsfw material.

“s/he’s here again. s/he was watching me.” “try and get back to sleep before (name) finds you in my bed.” “what are you doing out of bed, little girl/boy?” “s/he sleepwalks sometimes since our parents died.” “you’re a good boy/girl for taking such care of your sister/brother/sibling.” “that must have been quite some dream.” “i almost shit my goddamn pants.” “if i knew you were gonna be screaming in your sleep, i would’ve left you at the side of the road.” “you know, one might have nightmares heading back into that shithole town.” “hey, why don’t you just take a seat and leave the poor kid alone, huh, (name)?” “ten bucks says you can’t shoot that off from here.” “twenty says i can knock the bottle without even looking.” “you snooze, you lose- it’s (sender’s name)’s sandwich now.” “i heard that you shot your partner in the ass during training.” “heard that your daddy, some big shot on the force, had to bail you out.” “what’s the ’S’ stand for? stupid?” “sooner they shut this whole town down, the better, as far as i’m concerned.” “we’re nice people once you get to know us.” “s/he’s only got eyes for the big fella, and I don’t fancy your chances against him.” “you really shoot your own partner?” “still pining after (name), i see.” “never gonna happen, bro.” “i see you wax your chest now.” “after you ran away, (name) was the closest thing i had to family.” they raised me, put me through school, the academy– they were there for me.” “where were you? i haven’t even heard from you in five years.” “they’ve been trying to contain that shit, but the genie is out of the bottle now, and i don’t think it’s going back in.” “what kind of person can pick a lock like that?” “it’s kind of impressive, but also, what the fuck?” “i’d never let anything hurt you.” “lock-pick the door behind you when you leave– and don’t touch the bike!” “what would the worst way to die be? to be swallowed whole by a snake or eaten alive by a great white shark?” “you’re a freak, (name).” “i plan on dying peacefully in bed, snuggled in (name)’s big burly arms. “you said ‘everyone into the briefing room,’ so- here i am.” “i didn’t mean you, you moron. not you, (name), everyone else. “what if someone wanders in and there’s no-one behind the front desk? an old lady’s looking for her cat or something.” “i’m sorry, (name), is that important? a new girlfriend?” “maybe you could take her out to eat at Planet Hollywood.” “they have a new one in Gatlin- oh, they got a great salad. little wine.” “maybe just take her back to your apartment, rent a movie at Blockbuster, get cozy on the couch, or put on some Journey.” “Steve Perry’s voice, what it does to a woman’s heart, huh? am i right?” “sounds like i might be getting laid.” “leaving, that’s what they want. so they can destroy my life’s work.” “it’s okay, little girl/boy, because we’ve found you a new family.” “don’t worry about your brother/sister, s/he’ll be coming along as well, in due course.” “we would never separate the two of you.” “who are you gonna call? you’re the police.” “i’m no medical expert, but i think that guy might just be beyond saving.” “congratulations, rookie, on the promotion.” “i’m sure your father would be incredibly proud that his pathetic specimen of a child is rising so quickly through the ranks.” “someone should confiscate that.” “the faster we find them, the faster we can get the fuck out of here.” “so you’re (name)’s little sister/brother, huh? i didn’t think the two of you spoke.” “my parents died in a car accident when i was eight.” “my brother and i grew up in an orphanage here.” “i ran away a long time ago.” “i had to learn to handle myself quickly.” “you’re probably wondering what a guy like me is doing as a cop, right?” “oh yeah, no, he’s fucking fine, yeah. who doesn’t cough up a little blood on the floor when they’re feeling sick? just a little cold.” “of course he’s not fucking okay, man, look at him.” “you’re no einstein, are you, buddy?” “get your shit together, or you’re not gonna make it through the night.” “i just really want to get out of this town.” “i don’t know who they are. i don’t know, and i don’t care.” “they’re just some people with a vested interest in getting hold of whatever dirty secrets Umbrella are keeping down there and exposing them.” “come on, (name). don’t look at me like that. it’s just money, alright? and they have plenty of it.” “it was just a way of getting out of this … small town, dead-end life.” “you were just gonna leave us?” “we have to find (name 1) and (name 2) and tell them (name 3) is dead.” “come on, these are your friends!” “they bought you off, didn’t they? they paid you to keep quiet about all the shit they were doing in here.” “now they’ve left you to rot in the gutter like the rest of us.” “don’t be so damn naïve.” “you got some weird friends.” “(name 1) betrayed us, (name 2). s/he was gonna leave us here to die.” “we have to follow him/her, 'cause i think it’s our only way out of here.” “this is my life’s work. i’m not giving it to anybody.” “i’m not really offering you a choice here, pal.” “you didn’t have to make it like this.” “what the hell is wrong with you?” “this is so fucked.” “jesus, (name), you and that fucking gun.” “i wouldn’t have pulled the trigger, kid.” “did you really believe you could be part of my family?” “oh, such a sweet little soldier. such a loyal drone.” “how could you be so dumb when your sister/brother’s so smart?” “i almost feel sad having to kill you. almost.” “i should have taken you and your sister/brother down to the lab. you would have made excellent specimens.” [ to an attacker ] “get. the fuck. away. from my brother/sister.” “this is really nice, but i think i broke some ribs.” “we got to get the fuck out of here, Umbrella is gonna level this place.” “trust me, i’m as surprised as you are, buddy.” “i should’ve listened to you a long time ago.” “i may have scratched the paint on your bike.” [ to a monster ] “hey! you ugly fuck!” “a rocket launcher? Found it in first class.” “i don’t understand, i thought i was dead.” “what happened to my eyes? i can’t see.” “it’s a side effect, one of the things we had to do to bring you back. there will be others.”

[memedetonator]

☠ ― 𝑅𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑜𝑚 𝑆𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠. (𝐴 𝑚𝑖𝑥 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠.)

"What are you hiding from me?"

"Close your eyes. No peeking!"

"Hey, can you help me real quick?"

"I'm hungry."

"Seriously, could you be any slower?"

"I think we missed our ride..."

"Are you okay?"

"No, really, breathe louder. It's not at all annoying."

"Do you want to head up to the roof?"

"You know, your taste in music really sucks."

"Whoa, wait, how late is it now?"

"Look at you, you're so cute!"

"Do you think we'll ever be able to fly?"

"Uh... there's only one bed in here..."

"Do we even have enough money for this?"

"Hey, take a walk with me. We have to talk."

"What are you even talking about?"

"I'm about three seconds away from screaming. Just a warning."

"Do you need any help with that?"

"Put that back right now!"

"You really believe that?"

"I hate this SO much."

"This is for me...?"

"Sorry, I'm just... really upset."

"May I have this dance?"

"I didn't mean to..."

"Do you think we'll be together forever?"

"I didn't think I could hate you more, but apparently I was wrong."

"You didn't think I would just leave, did you?"

"What I wouldn't have given to be a fly on the wall for that."

"How did you even... manage this?"

"Everything is okay, don't worry about it."

"...Do I even want to know?"

[loveandangstmemes]

Angsty Conversation Prompts

Here are some angst conversation prompts from this generator. Use them for your angsty needs!

"You must be mad, coming here like this."

"They've been missing since Friday and you're not worried?"

"I never meant to come between you and them."

"But this is the only thing that's made the last three years bearable."

"No! I'm tired of doing what you say."

"Tell me what you saw, for his/her/ their sake!"

"This isn't just about you. It's about what's best for all of us."

"How, exactly, did you think that having an affair would help our marriage?"

"Find some proof that they betrayed you."

"You did a bad thing for a good reason."

"I thought someone should tell you that your mother has died."

"Could you be happy here with me?"

"If you leave now, you lose everything."

"Move away from the door and let me at them."

"You had time to call the police. Why didn't you?"

"I'm too old to start again."

You think I'm being paranoid but the truth is I'm worth a lot more to them dead than alive."

"Were you really spying on me?"

"I've been waiting a long time for you."

"You've taken them back? You can't be serious?"

"You've only heard their point of view. You never asked mine."

"I don't think I could live alone again."

"Do you ever think we should just stop doing this?"

"I knew you wouldn't be able to see it through."

"Please don't argue. You have to leave right now, you aren't safe here."

"I just want a nice, easy life. What's wrong with that?"

[jessource]

THE MENU ( 2022 ) * sentence starters.

“please don’t smoke, it’ll kill your palete.”

“(name), tonight is huge.”

“when you smoke, you ruin your ability…”

“oh, come on!”

“thank you.”

“thank god.”

“is that gonna fit everyone?”

“a night?”

“you’re fucking kidding, right?”

“what, are we eating a rolex?”

“come on, let’s not ruin this by talking price, yeah?”

“just go with the flow, let it be magical.”

“not bad!”

“oh, thanks man.”

“you deserve this, baby.”

“you know who’s gonna love this? (name)!”

“fuck. we’re dicks, huh?”

“great. a power tasting.”

“they’ll be wasted by the amuse.”

“hi guys.”

“look at you on a gangplank in heels.”

“holy fucking shit.”

“(name), oh my god.”

“who’s (name)?”

”okay, well, it’s official.”

”tonight will be madness.”

“all aboard!”

”wow.”

”please make yourselves comfortable…”

“ahoy!”

“and avast, me hearties!”

“let’s hope she’s seaworthy, eh?”

“yes, sir. yeah.”

“boat jokes… we’re on a boat.”

“yeah. we’re on a boat.”

“hey, we got a famous person on board, huh?”

“hey, aren’t you supposed to be running interference for me?”

“make sure people don’t bother me, then?

“god, we both know you were not bothered.”

“i saw all his movies when i was a kid.”

“hey, listen.”

“apparently, he’s a big foodie.”

“beautiful. thank you.”

 “it’s one of his classics.”

“the lemon pearls are made with alginate.”

“alginate, as in…”

“pond scum.”

“it’s laughable.”

“it’s actually fucking laughably good.”

“think i prefer just the oyster, though.”

“please don’t say ‘mouthfeel’.”

“too late. mouthfeel.”

“jesus, this is like prom.”

“yeah? i never went to prom.”

“really? why not?

“‘cause none of the cool girls like you said, ‘yes’.”

“aw, poor baby.”

“well, fuck those bitches.”

“welcome.”

“it’s a pleasure to have you.”

“you gave my real name?”

“what about the paparazzi?”

“paparazzi? we’re on an island.

“i’m (name).”

“we’ll endeavor to make your evening as pleasant as possible.”

“that was really awkward, i’m so sorry.”

“don’t worry about it.”

“we’ll just go straight to the restaurant, if you don’t mind.”

“we’ve seen the tour many, many times.”

“thank you. please follow me.”

“so, like, what are you working on now?”

“aw, hey, thanks for asking.”

“see, people still know me.”

“we have the bounty of the sea surrounding us.”

“out there, right now, we are harvesting scallops. you’ll eat them tonight.”

“hey, harvest harder, me dude!”

“we’re starving!”

“this is insane.”

“smell that.”

“yeah, i’m a huge embarrassing foodie.”

“i love this stuff.”

“and i’m close, personal friends with the chef.”

“can we pop in here?”

“dude, i read about one of these online.”

“can i check it out?”

“but please, do not touch our proteins. they’re immature.”

“so, what happens if you serve it on the 153rd day?

“does all hell break loose, or…”

“well, i suppose the bacteria would introduce itself… to the consumer’s bloodstream and spread into their spinal membranes… after which point, he or she would become incapacitated… and shortly thereafter expire.”

“so, yes, all hell would break loose.”

“i’d like to work for her.”

“this is where we live.”

“you actually live here?”

“here we are family.”

“we harvest. we fement.”

“we slaughter.”

“dinner is typically four hours and twenty five minutes.”

“it’s best that we all live here.”

“burned out?”

“there is food at the end of this, right?”

“who lives there?”

“isn’t the GOAT the greatest of all time, though?”

“look at that view.”

“wanna take a picture?”

“just… you should have the better view.”

“well, i don’t need a better view.”

“you know my name?”

“well, the attention to detail, it’s like, fuck!”

“yeah, i noticed you didn’t ask his name.”

“this ongoing obsession with snow.”

“it’s officially a plague, and no one is immune.”

“i want to hear your pitch for the show…”

“come on. i’m trying to do a goodbye toast. can you please just let me do that?”

“i told you this two weeks ago.”

“we’re doing this? the ‘talking about our lives’ thing?”

“me and (name) aren’t good. it’s not good.”

“are you at fault?”

“i’m an asshole.”

“we’re pathetic, aren’t we?”

“so it’s okay… that i’m not as into this as you are?”

“i’m sitting with the coolest girl here.”

“they play with the raw materials of life itself. and death itself.”

“that was beautifully put, (name).”

“i think i’m starting to get it.”

“i have to beg of you one thing.”

“do not eat.”

“is he serious?”

“be mindful.”

“and look around you. here we are on this island. accept. accept all of it. and forgive.”

“here they come.”

“we, the people on the island, are not important.”

“what happens inside this room is meaningless…”

“nature is timeless.”

“are you crying?”

“it’s just that i find it all very moving. it’s all so beautiful.”

“i’m pretty sure he doesn’t even know about your existence.”

“relax. just eat your rock.”

“oh, my god. for crying out loud. it’s not brain surgery, okay?”

“okay, so we go to italy, right?”

“i eat the cheese, and then…”

“that’s a disaster.”

“whatever. at least we can say we’ve been here, right?”

“my dad used to say that you buy the experience.”

“i mean, this looks like… a suburban landscaping.”

“is he gonna keep doing that?”

“bread has existed in some form for over 12,000 years… especially amongst the poor.”

“ancient greek peasants dipped their stale, measly bread in wine for breakfast.”

“and how did jesus teach us to pray if not to beg for our daily bread?”

“he must be joking.”

“it’s gotta be a bit.”

“are you fuckin’ serious?”

“he’s basically insulting you.”

“it’s a concept.”

“i know what a concept is, (name).”

“call me the girl next door… but maybe there are some rules that you should give a fuck about…”

“this is all very clever, and i  didn’t want to pull this card… but you know who we are, right?”

“i know who you are.”

“we won’t tell a soul.”

“you will eat less than you desire and more than you deserve.”

“that is not what i meant, and you know it.”

“i am perfectly capable of deciding when i eat and what.”

“you shouldn’t be so fucking rude.”

“where do we know her from?”

“ so, let me tell you a memory of mine.”

“i finally had to stab him in the thigh with kitchen scissors.”

“we’re not so smart when we’re young.”

“no, the pictures. they’re all of us.”

“what the hell are these?”

“how did you get these?”

“yeah, a fucking taco that might hold up in court.”

“stop talking and let me think, okay?”

“did you just fucking snap at me?”

“you do not send shit back to this kitchen, you child.”

“what did you just call me?”

“i called you a child… because you’re fucking acting like it.”

“(name), you need to apologise to me right now. you cannot speak to me that way.”

“actually, i can because, ding dong, i’m the one who’s paying.”

“how can i assist you?”

“what’s behind that silver door?”

“you shouldn’t be in here.”

“why do you care?”

“i’ll ask again. who are you?”

“i’m (first name) (last name).”

“so, where are you from, (name)?”

“you want the address for mom’s trailer park, you asshole?”

“no, it’s not who you want me to think you are.”

“you shouldn’t be here tonight.”

“please get the fuck out of my way.”

“he aspires to greatness, but he’ll never achieve it.”

“there is no way to avoid the mess.”

“the mess you make of your life… of your body… of your sanity… by giving everything you have to pleasing people you will never know. ”

“what are you doing?”

“what’s wrong with you?”

“the fuck is that?”

“that was a shock. i didn’t see that comin’.”

“what happened?”

“it’s just part of the menu.”

“it’s part of the show.”

“that’s a stunt? what was that?”

“this is an exclusive experience.”

“is he dead?”

“it’s not funny.”

“it looks so damn real.”

“this is just theatre, right?”

“he just fucking shot himself, okay?”

“it looked very real, (name). quite real.”

“we’re leaving. now.”

“is something wrong?”

“there is no boat to leave on.”

“that would be very difficult without phone service.”

“fucking move.”

“i’ll handle this.”

“with which hand, (name)?”

“with which hand will you handle this? left or right?”

“what the fuck are you saying?”

“shall we choose?”

“come on. leave the guy alone.”

“what the hell’s goin’ on?”

“do you need assistance finding your seat?”

“there’s a finger right there.”

“it’s not funny, lady! jesus christ!”

“this is real, isn’t it? i can’t do it.”

“i can’t do a hostage thing. i can’t.”

“then why don’t you go talk to him?”

“because you know him, right?”

“i made that up.”

“because i’m a name-dropping whore.”

“your husband’s ring, madam.”

“i honestly think that this whole thing is just for our benefit.”

“that’s why he texted me.”

“why are you doing this?”

“i’ve served many (name)’s. you’re not a (name).”

“what the fuck does it matter?”

“you were not a part of that plan.”

“with us, or with them?”

“and then you’ll let me live?”

“let you live? no!”

“we’re all gonna die tonight.”

“so, the question is, do you wanna die with those who give, or with those who take?”

“it’s arbitrary.”

“these decisions are important…”

“god damn it. it’s not fucking fair.”

“you smoke all day. can’t even fucking taste it.”

“we’re cornered. let’s focus.”

“wait, what’s the play here?”

“what are our options?”

“the door is guarded… but that could be a play.”

“hey, guys. we gotta do something.”

“we can’t be cowards.”

“this worked in a movie i did once.”

“when they bring their knives and forks, we just storm the kitchen, okay?”

“you think we have better knife skills than them?”

“what other choice do we have?”

“fuck it. i’m gonna break this fucking window.”

“there’s a saying. ‘sometimes all you need is a good cup of tea’.”

“i’ve found that not only does tea cleanse the palate, but it offers a soothing balm when facing some hard home truths.”

“but before we continue… are there any questions about me?”

“i think i speak for everybody here when i say that… i wanna know… i mean, we wanna know…”

“why the fuck is this happening?”

“you loved that i texted you an invitation for this evening.”

“your ego was fed.”

“it wasn’t cod, you donkey.”

“and i’ve been fooled into trying to satisfy people who could never be satisfied.”

“just say how much, and we’ll give it to you.”

“do you hear that silence?”

“listen, can you hear it?”

“and what have you decided?”

“i shouldn’t be here.”

“all of this… is not meant for me.”

“you’re not sure i’m brilliant, so don’t say it.”

“i’m not sure that you’re brilliant.”

“i was expecting more.”

“i guess i’m gonna have to make your decision for you.”

“you thought i couldn’t tell?”

“i know a fellow service industry worker when i see one.”

“how do you know him?”

“you’ve been eyeing him all evening.”

“you don’t rattle easily. so, how did he rattle you?”

“if we can find a boat, we can make a break for it.”

“into the tranquil night air.”

“i’ll send for help. first thing.”

“i’ll leave you to it.”

“it’s getting chilly.”

“yes, well… there was a time that would have meant a lot to me, (name).”

“you know, it’s the emoji for me.”

“don’t fucking run next to me.”

“you’re running next to me!”

“it’s a big fucking’ forest! fuck off!”

“are we all really dying tonight?”

“everyone dying was my pitch, actually. i’m super proud of it.”

“anybody want any wine?”

“i heard a pop.”

“not that you guys give a single, flying fuck… but my name is not (name). it’s (name).”

“party’s over.”

“welcome back.”

“what did you get?”

“how’d you do out there?”

“i did great. i killed it.”

“i’m the only one who got away.”

“i’m sorry. i’m a fuckin’ failure.”

“i’ve been stealing money from you.”

“i know. you cc’d me in on it.”

“tell me why you’re here.”

“and what were you told?”

“what were you told ahead of time?”

“‘everyone would die.’”

“i seem to remember you had a date.”

“so, you hired her knowing she’d die?”

“you entitled piece of shit.”

“i’m gonna kill you, (name)!”

“calm down.”

“you can’t blame her, can you?”

“you’re not like the others, are you?”

“come with me.”

“i have something for you.”

“mr handsome boy.”

“i’m proud of you.”

“what do you need? we have everything.”

“shit? would you like some shit?”

“we strive for perfection… which of course does not exist, and that is a hard truth for me to accept… so please forgive me.”

“and that concludes our demonstration.”

“do you see a barrel?”

“look, i’m not trying to sound, like, all whatever here or anything… but i just don’t think it’s really fair.”

“do you wanna know why you’re being punished?”

“i saw the film calling doctor sunshine, and i did not enjoy it.”

“it was a sunday.”

“seeing you again now haunts me.”

“what happens to an artist when he loses his purpose?”

“what school did you go to?”

“i’m sorry. you’re dying.”

“motherfucker.”

“do you think you’re special?”

“you’ve disobeyed this rule.”

“you’ve been a nuisance since you have arrived.”

“you will not replace me.”

“i didn’t forget.”

“happy birthday to you.”

“you told them it was my birthday?”

“seemed funny about three hours ago.”

“i am a monster. no, was a monster. and a whore.”

“and at last, the pain is almost gone.”

“i can no longer be hurt, (name).”

“as dr. king once said, ‘we know through painful experience… that freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor. it must be demanded by the oppressed.’”

“did he just quote martin luther king?”

“i see you found our radio.”

“it’s a boat!”

“did you call someone?”

“why didn’t you all try harder to fight back? to get out of here? honestly, you probably could have. something to think about.”

“are you the owner?”

“come on. clearly, there’s a misunderstanding.”

“on your knees with your hands over your head. now.”

“you’ve betrayed our sacred bond of trust.”

“you’ve shown your craft to be careless.”

“you’re an eater. you’re a taker.”

“i don’t like your food.”

“what did you say?”

“for starters… you’ve taken the joy out of eating.”

“every dish you served tonight has been some intellectual exercise… rather than something you want to sit and enjoy.”

“when i eat your food… it tastes like it was made with no love.”

“oh, this is ridiculous.”

“you’ve failed.”

“you’ve bored me.”

“and the worst part is… i’m still fucking hungry.”

“you know what i’d really like?”

“tell me.”

“yeah, we can do a cheeseburger.”

“the cheap ones your parents could barely afford.”

“american cheese is the best cheese for a cheeseburger… because it melts without splitting.”

“is the fryer still on?”

“one moment, please.”

“thank you… for everything.”

“i told you, you weren’t leaving.”

“the s’more.”

“it’s everything wrong with us, and yet we associate it with innocence.”

“but what transforms this fucking monstrosity is fire.”

“i love you all!”

[jessource]

LYRIC  SENTENCE  STARTERS ,  RENNEÉ RAPP .

a collection of lyrics pulled from the ep everything to everyone.

everything to everyone (intro)

“ i can’t be everything to everyone. ” “ who do you talk to when you can’t talk to no one? ” “ forget all your problems, you know that i’m gonna solve them.” “ i hate when you’re crying. ” “ i’ll kill myself trying.” “ i’m not scared of dying. ” “ i hope that it’s over when i’m older. ”

in the kitchen.

“ it’s you that i’m missing. ” “ Please be careful, the knife is so big. ” “ we’re too young, too dumb. ” “ and now it’s just me. ” “ a hundred square feet of bittersweet memories. ” “ i still hear all your favourite melodies. ” “ strangers, to lovers, to enemies. ” “ i’ll dance with your ghost in the living room. ” “ i’ll play the piano alone. ” “ it’s real once everyone knows. ” “ could’ve at least shown me some decency. ” “ fallin’ in love, no, it ain’t for the weak. ” “ and i knew i would fall for you over and over. ” “ who would’ve known that the fallin’ would come to an end. ”

colorado.

“ i think my life might be better if i lived in colorado. ” “ sit around and get high. ” “ i threw my phone into a lake. ” “ maybe there i’d like myself. ” “ might even feel compelled to sing karaoke.” “ we’d start a brand new life and never be lonely. ” “ swear to god, i am going not that far. ” “ who am i kidding, i’m addicted to the chip on my shoulder. ” “ i’ll admit it would be nice to meet some one who’s not my type. ” “ i think i’ll probably hate my life. ” “ might even feel compelled to finally let go. ” “ it’s an empty dream. ” “ that shit’s not meant for me. ” “ i’d choose the devil i know over the heaven i don’t. ” “ this is hell, but i’ll stay right here.” “ i’ll stay right here. ”

don’t tell my mom.

“ do you like it? ” “ no, i cried. ” “ you did cry. ” “ sweetie, will you come home? ” “ who are you with? ” “  what are you on? ” “ when i was young my problems were her problems. ” “ i don’t wanna cause trouble at all. ” “ we’re worried about you. ” “ don’t worry about me. ” “ don’t tell my mom, i’m falling apart. ” “ she hurts when i hurt. ” “ my scars are her scars. ” ” what you don’t know won’t hurt you. ” “ at least in her mind, her daughter is fine. ” “ please don’t let her hear i’m dying inside. ” “ she’s dealt with this for years. ” “ i got it this time. ” “i worry about you. ” what can i do.

“ i’m holding your hand. ” “ i wonder if he notices the things that i can. ” “ you don’t even get it, no, you don’t understand. ” “ i want you, but i’m only one of your friends. ” “ i know all about you. ” “ i listen to your stories. ” “ he’s not what you need. ”  “ you know you’re too good for him. ” “ if it were me, i’d give you everything. ” “ so, what can i do? ” “ you feel it too? ” “ i just wanna say it. but i’m scared. ” “you ain’t looking at me the way i look at you. ” “i’d rather keep on lying than to tell you the truth. ” “ i’ll be here forever wondering. ” “ what can i—what can i do? ”

too well.

“ today i woke up in a good mood for once. ” “ i don’t hate you as much. ” “ you weren’t there in my dreams. ” “ i could finally sleep, i felt good. ” “ it’s easier holding a grudge. ” “ i’d rather be angry than crushed. ” “ i’m doing too much. i do too much. ” “ i’m back where i started again. ” “ this shit never ends. ” “ i get so sick of myself. ” “ i heard you’re happy somewhere else. ” “ i don’t forget too well. ” “ what a wreck. ”  “ what a shame. ” “ you called me at eight. ” “ you’re my biggest mistake. ”

moon.

“ i don’t miss you. ” “ i know it hurts. ” “ this shit’s persistent. ” “ you split my world in two, now i’m half the one you knew. ”  “ i know that we got different views, but we’re looking at the same moon. ” “ wonder if you miss me too. “ how can i be dead to you when we’re lookin’ at the same moon? ” “ are you lonely? ” “ are you movin’ on quick? ” “ i hope you’re healin’ slowly. ” “ i’m just talking with your ghost and dancing with your demons. ” “ they’re not leavin’. ” “ in the stars i can see your eyes. ” “ all the stars make me feel alive. ”

[bcssbitchs]

igcttabe

“DAD WE’VE MADE A LOT OF THINGS CLEAR TO EACH OTHER IN THE PAST.” the last few months it had been nothing but awful things, the worst kind of things that if she could have taken back. most of them, she would have. if she had just done as he said, if she hadn’t started this when she left with tony then – tony would be okay and she wouldn’t have that hole in her chest where she missed him as much as she did. not that she would show it, not to anyone, not even to al. although she was sure he’d seen that it was there. “i never meant to make you feel like you weren’t my family. you’re my only family.” and no matter how much that made her want to scream sometimes, it was true. evelyn wasn’t her family and her father could do what he wanted to her – she’d never agree that the woman was and edward? well, of course, it felt like he hated her as much as evelyn did. it made sense that he would, right? he had the witch whispering in his ear after all. “i’m sorry dad.” and she was. if she had made him feel like she didn’t want him as her dad? then she knew how much that hurt because she hadn’t always believed he wanted her as a daughter and it was gut wrenching. “uh, no?” and she was quick to disagree because what kind of bullshit was that? “you wanna’ say to his face you agree with his decision fine but don’t do it when it’s just us. he gave up on aegon and it was a shitty thing to do and i know you know it! look at us dad and yet we never give up on each other.” she wasn’t saying there were times when she wanted to, god, times when she wanted to hate him with everything she had but she was never able to. ever. “is that what we’re still calling it? a side project? pretty sure your son wants to make the guy an evernever.” and it was sick because… because it wasnt for the right reasons. or was it? it wasn’t her business to know, she wasn’t about to make it her business either. “i wasn’t hinting that i was going to sleep with the guy to get him back here. don’t be gross.” picking up one of the objects on his desk, she playfully threw it at him, flashing him a brief smile. “you’ll really give me a chance? you won’t just throw me away down there again when i get john back here?” of course, she had doubts and she would be stupid not to. she’d spent more time locked in the dungeon these last few years than she had anywhere else and she hated it. she didn’t want to live like this anymore. “i’ll do it. i’ll get him back here but dad…” oh she took the hint, she could only imagine what terrible things her father had planned for him and no she didn’t like it. “isn’t he like a single dad with a baby?” growing up with no parents and being forced to live on the streets wasnt something she wished on anyone. that was where she was coming from. “isn’t there someone else you could send this message through instead?”

“INDEED WE HAVE AND.. I HOPE THAT I HAVE FINALLY BEEN CLEAR ENOUGH? you know about what?” he raised an eyebrow at that, leaning back against his chair, because.. right now, he knew that he didn’t exactly need to be that precise. he knew that he didn’t exactly need to be that clear, because.. what he had done to tony stark and the brutal way in which the other had died had been something that he hoped that ellie would never forget. some lessons were better learned the hard way - just as his daughter would realize. right? “good,” he nodded, approving of the conclusion that it seemed as if she had come to herself. if things were to change? perhaps, it was a good thing that she was already headed there. “and yet, he did it and yet.. well, i find myself supporting him. the boy was a good for nothing drunk idiot. if anything - he is BETTER off being dead.” did he believe that? well, he tended to believe the worst when it came to the people who wanted to take his daughter off the right path and.. right now, that wasn’t going to be changing anytime soon. not in the slightest, no. “and considering who it is that he is related to - i am tempted to let him. we need the boswicks on our side, kid. and above all.. i need to keep matt boswick as my new and improved project.” and he would, because.. as far as he was concerned, there was no better killer. as far as he was concerned, there was no one better at doing so and yes, he wanted the other. he could have had anyone - probably people better than matt at killing, but.. then again, that wasn’t going to be changing it. he wanted the other - of course that he did. right? he picked up the stress ball, even finding himself smiling and.. right now, he didn’t know how. he didn’t know how it seemed that they were getting along again, but.. he appreciated it. in fact, it would have been idiotic to believe that it could last but he ALMOST wanted to. almost. “just saying. it is not the kind of job that i had in mind for you to do. not at all.” he raised an eyebrow at that, before shrugging. wasn’t the answer simple enough for her as it was? “don’t give me a reason to and i won’t. it’s as simple as it always has been, ellie.” and in his mind, it was and always had been, that was for sure. “oh, he is. his wife left him a few months ago. almost a year now, i believe,” because of course that he knew all of that - he was not dumb and never had been. “and no, there isn’t. he’s mark hoffman’s only family. if we’re going to get to him.. kramer is the way. him or you, ellie. choose. NOW.”

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MATT PARTED HIS LIPS TO ARGUE BACK. however, whereas he would have said whatever was on his mind and been honest about it. this time, he chose to shut his mouth and lie which was a reflection of how much he was changing or had changed. still, he didn’t like what edgar was getting at that so that’s when he chose to speak up again. “i don’t want anyone to know to be able to tell me otherwise. no one’s said anything.” angie and his brother could not find out, they could never ever know what he had done because he couldn’t bare it. “i know.” oh, he knew that what edgar said goes – he had learned the hard way and it was a lesson he would never be able to forget. “i could work for you without living here. right? report back here every day.” it was going to be a problem if edgar insisted on him living here and not leaving the farm. how was he going tog et to angie? how the hell was he going to come up for air if he was trapped in the very place that drowned him the first time? “so i need to make sure what i do for you benefits you more than you telling someone else? i can do that.” well, problem number one hundred it felt like. how the hell could he do that when he was going behind edgar’s back? when he was trying not to get to sucked into this trouble again. “i’ve been living with it.” hadn’t he? well, before it had made breathing easier when he hadn’t known what he was even really doing but now? well, he tried to bury it – he tried to bury that side of him so he didn’t have to address it. “WHEN?” because shit, he needed that time schedule and he needed it right now. no, his intention wasn’t to hurt john but if he wasn’t going to go through with this. then they needed to get to edgar before this came about. “i got it. slow and painful.”

“GOOD. BECAUSE.. IF THEY HAD AND THEY PROVED THEMSELVES TO BE A PROBLEM.. they would have to be removed out of the way right away. you know that, no?” and was he talking about that brother of his? was he talking about garza? yes, edgar knew the two of them far too well and no, that wasn’t going to be changing anytime soon. he knew exactly what he was meant to do and what he was going to do - if they did not behave. right? “what? our beds aren’t to your liking? or is it the room service?” he mocked, before shaking his head a little bit. did he care? not particularly, but.. it was important that he kept his people in check and yes, matt boswick was one of them. perhaps the most important one, was he not? that he was the case indeed. “that depends. work well and you will get the coming and going privileges. if not - you’re just going to end up locked down there. AGAIN.” he moved forward, in order to clap the other in the back, as he grinned from ear to ear. oh, how he loved tormenting matt boswick. he had forgotten just how much, that was for sure. “good. it seems as if you learned quickly, did you not? don’t need to kill anyone you love this around?” because.. well, if he doubted that he would do it - he was very wrong, for sure. “no, you haven’t. it’s been bringing you down. you’ve been allowing it to. that is not living. you need to learn how to accept that it is a PART of you and ALWAYS will be.” and this was the tricky part and exactly why he was watching the other as closely as he could for a reaction. any kind of reaction would be interesting and of course, he would analyze it through. right? “this week,” he wanted to see what the other would think about it. oh, he did. “as soon as possible. you have a few days to get ready, but.. i want him gone before next week. um?”

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ELLIE WILLIAMS in 1.01 WHEN YOU’RE LOST IN THE DARKNESS

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“ANG, I ONLY SEE YOU so it’s just lucky for me you’re the most beautiful person.” it was true, long before he even realised how deeply in love he was with his woman – he’d only ever had eyes for her and what was the point in pretending like that was ever going to change? he smiled though, leaning against her playfully in return. they had enough to worry about without her worrying this much about his injuries, it would be fine because uh… it had no other choice but to be. “i know we will but i don’t want stopping him to change you. he doesn’t get to take that like he has everything else. promise me?” because edgar had taken mostly everything else, he didn’t get to take who angie was too. no, that couldn’t happen. “you should try the kid.” matt couldn’t get to her, that was too risky with edgar’s eyes focused on him right now but maybe the police could. “she’s loyal, stubborn but he’s put her through hell – abusive dick that he is.” it might not go anywhere but it was the only thing he could think of. who else was going to turn on edgar? definitely not his son, that was a-whole-nother problem. “it’s not going to happen.” no, he didn’t sound so sure of that because there was more of a chance it would happen than it wouldn’t. still, this was they had to do. “if it does but it saves you? saves bos? then i say… let it happen.” which was reckless but they had both been hurt to much by him, no, he had to do this. not just for himself but for anyone he’d hurt in the past. it didn’t make it right but it was a start. “i’ve missed you.” he whispered, when she placed her hands on his face, managing to lean forward to press his forehead against hers. “and you’ll always have me. i promise.” there was no one else who would ever hold his heart, it was hers. whether she wanted it or not. he almost moved to catch her hand because even lifting his shirt hurt but he let her do it. this is what they did for each other. “this wasn’t the kind of dirty talk i had in mind…” he was joking, flashing her a half smile, allowing himself to glance down at the damage to. it was bad, probably – worthy of going to a hospital bad but he couldn’t. he didn’t want to step foot inside there. “i guess he wanted his message to be clear.” do it again and perhaps they would beat straight through him. “oh i know how lucky i am.” that did make him smile, bringing his hand slowly to tuck a piece of her hair behind her ear. “EHHHH,” shrugging, even if it was painful to do so. “you and me? we’ve lived through worse than this. it’ll be fine.” oh, it was truth, they definitely had received worse and came out the other side, the both of them. “a couple of bandages and your company for a distraction? i’ll be as good as new in the morning.”

“AND OF COURSE THAT EVEN NOW, YOU WOULD BE A FLATTERER,” and yes, she wanted to hide her face with her hands and pretend that he hadn’t just said what he had, but.. then again, as always - it brought a smile to her face that angie found herself unable to stop. in fact, he had always been the one who had been able to see right through her and no, she had no doubts that it would keep on happening, time and time again. oh, not at ALL, no. “change me? matt, will schenk couldn’t change me and he did what he did. that is something that i have never forgotten, but listen.. it won’t happen. I PROMISE. will continue to be regular, grumpy old me. i swear it.” could she promise that, when it came to edgar evernever? no, perhaps she could not, but.. then again, right now - it felt like the right thing to do. right now, it felt like the only thing to do and no, she didn’t doubt that at all. NO. “ellie? i’ve.. i’ve met her, once or twice. she’s a good kid. deserves better than edgar as a dad. do you think that.. she would help us out? get him from the inside? that’s actually a good idea.” she shook her head a little bit, shoving him away from her a little bit. “no. that’s not fuckin’ happening, do you hear me? you’re not being the one to do the sacrifice play. not AGAIN. why does it fucking always have to be you?” and she wasn’t going to accept it - she wasn’t going to lose him and yes, perhaps that was exactly why she was so on edge. how could she not be, angie wondered? leaning against him, she sighed, because.. yes, she had to. “me too. that’s why i can’t let you keep on doing this. even if i have to chain you - you’ll stay here, with me and i am putting you somewhere that you can’t EVER get hurt again. you hear me?” and yet, as always, he was able to get a laugh out of her, even as she moved his shirt out of the way, in oder to look at the damage. “oh, shut up. you know my real dirty talk and you like it.” and it felt as if the two of them could remain here forever and be alright, but.. the truth was that sooner or later, the past could catch up with them and she wouldn’t know what to do. not at all and not in the slightest, that was for sure. “yeah, yeah, now let me bandage you up, doctor. seems as if i am your nurse for the night. promise to take very good care of you, um?” she placed a bandage over one of his ribs, after giving it the proper care. “and a drink? suppose that since you are in this kind of state.. i should be kind and share my BED, no?”

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“YOU HAVE THE LOOK.” the look that she dreaded seeing but one that always came up sooner or later. whether it was on her expression or his. they had been through so much together and yet they were still here. still together and she wouldn’t have it any other way. when he moved forward so did she, her arms wrapping tightly around his shoulders because she didn’t want to let go. “the past?” could there be much worse than what had already been thrown at them? she wasn’t so sure. “well, all i know is that when it does you don’t have to face it alone.” because that’s not what they did. “hey?” her one hand moving to gently hold the side of his face. “what’s going on? whatever it is? we’ve been safe up till now, right? no one knows.”

“IT’S A WORRIED LOOK, NOTHING MORE,” and as of now, otto had to nod a little bit, because.. as far as he was concerned, he did not wish to worry her. he did not wish to worry her about the past and.. no, he wasn’t going to. that would have been letting daemon win and right now, he despised the other far too much to ever let that happen, that was for sure. “and it already has. viserys’ brother.. he’s even worse than viserys himself. when the king has his moments of anger.. daemon is all anger. he would not hesitate to strike you down, if it means that it would hurt me. that’s why i need you to be safe. even if it means you needing to be away from me.” and right now, he was willing to make that sacrifice, as long as she was safe. he was willing to make that sacrifice, as long as.. as long as she was alright. “daemon will know. he always does. and you don’t understand - he’s a MONSTER!”

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NEITHER ANGIE NOR HIS BROTHER COULD EVER HEAR THOSE WORDS. “please don’t say that out loud.” it even made him uncomfortable to think that the likes of evernever were impressed with what he could now. it didn’t matter how many times he told himself that it had happened because he’d finally broke. that, after everything he had been through, that he couldn’t take anymore. it didn’t matter, it felt like an excuse… a poor one at that. even if it was the complete and only truth. “i’m not so sure how welcome i am here…” meaning the farm. matt didn’t want to have to live here on top of being forced into spending so much time at edgar’s side again. maybe, they could work something out but if edgar didn’t want to… then, well, they wouldn’t. right? “if i do this?” he knew there wasn’t a choice, he’d been enough of those conversations with edgar to know – he wasn’t being asked. “no one can know. deal?” because he still had to make it seem like angie or his brother had no idea he was here. matt had become a doctor because he wanted to help people, he wanted to save them. he didn’t want the power to be able to hurt them. that wasn’t who he was. “IT’S THERE but i don’t want it to be.” it wasn’t easy to shake. “kramer?” yeah, matt was familiar with him, he’d gotten kramer twisted up in his mess once before too. unintentionally but that didn’t matter. matt took the envelope, oh, it hadn’t really been a question whether he could or not. he took it before he was backed into a darker corner. “his little friend, hoffman? edgar, the guy’s like a legendary detective. he’s gotten awards. taking out kramer’s just going to fuel him more?”

“OH, MY FRIEND.. IT IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF. and whoever tells you otherwise? well, perhaps you have been hanging around the wrong people so far.” was he suggesting that he would get rid of the people that would stand in his way? yes, perhaps he was and right now, matt would do well to remember that. he would do well to remember just who he was talking to, because.. well, there was nothing edgar would not do. right? “you are very welcome here. at least, when i say you are and.. what i say usually goes for EVERYONE here. you know?” once again - a reminder that he was in charge and that he would never stop being. a lot of them had tried to take him down over the years - hello, betty cooper, but.. none of them had actually been able to do it. perhaps they never would, him? “that depends. if it benefits me to tell someone.. you know i will. that’s how it works, friend,” he shrugged - he played for his own side and his own side alone and no, that would never change. “it’s never going away. it’s part of you, so.. you better start learning to live with it.” a suggestion of something that he knew well himself? yes, because.. well, he didn’t want matt to be stuck in some stupid crisis, when he could be doing something much better. when he could be doing something more and right now, he knew that was the case, for sure. right? “yes, kramer,” and for a moment, he had to laugh, shaking his head a little bit. “oh, hoffman? leave him with me. if he.. tries to step out of line or attempts to fight back - i will deal with him myself. it’s been a long time since i’ve had a challenge to face and.. perhaps, mr. hoffman will prove to be just that. your job is to stay here and.. when the time comes, kramer will be brought here by someone i trust. your job is to make it slow and painful. got it?”

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DAEMON WANTED TO GRIP HIS THROAT AND CONTINUE TO SQUEEZE. he wanted to watch his life begin to fade in his very hands before letting him take in a breath, to start the process all over again. little did his older brother know but that’s exactly what the hightowers were doing to him, slowly suffocating him over time… so slowly, he could not see it. they would deserve everything daemon wanted to do to them and more. “no, they are your words! your desires that you wish to have my brother act upon for you! his grace may have difficulty distinguishing between the two but i do not. i see what you are!” daemon always had, he was not a friend nor family to his brother and he would not rest until he had put a stop to this cunt’s work. however, was there a possibility that was true? behind his hardened expression, doubt had already began to form, especially after the conversation he’d already had with his brother. daemon could hold his nerve but the moment he dared speak of mysaria. well, otto was about to regret it, moving forward he caught otto’s throat in his hand. daemon stepped forward, placing a hand on otto’s shoulder to make it look like a friendly conversation to anyone else watching… when it was quite the opposite. “would you like to say it again?” all it would take was one hard squeeze and this cunt’s vocable cords would be permanently damaged. perhaps he would squeeze regardless and do them all a favor.

“AND WHAT DOES IT MATTER? IF YOU SEE ME FOR WHO I AM? viserys still does not. in fact, he’s as much of an hopeless fool as he always has been. you cannot save him. not from himself, not from me. you know that as well as i do.” otto could feel as if the other was about to do something but.. right now, he couldn’t bring himself to care. right now, if something were to happen - perhaps it would be a welcome something, because.. it wouldn’t happen to noa. it would happen to himself and right now, he was more than willing to sacrifice himself for his family. and as long as he got to take down daemon in the process - that would make it even better. as long as he got to get rid of him, right? when the other’s hand wrapped around his throat, otto smirked, because.. could he not see what he was doing? was he so stupid that he did not know? apparently he was and right now, the only thing that he could do was laugh. oh, how idiotic could someone be, he wondered? “go on. do it. kill me while everyone is watching. my people.... my people will make sure your darling mysaria does not make it through the day and you? you will get to spend the rest of your life in jail, knowing that you were the very same reason why she lost her life. AGAIN. so.. go on, keep doing it.” right now, he got to move forward with the satisfaction of knowing that he had already won. perhaps he was running out of air, but.. it didn’t mean he hadn’t still won. right?

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“YEAH?” it was childish to be so hopeful over something that shouldn’t matter but as messed as it was, this did matter to her. her father’s opinion of her mattered, whether she liked to act as if it did or not. “i didn’t know if you would have been relieved…” it wasn’t as if she had heard her father sing her praises for a long time. the two of them fought more than they did anything else but she still loved him, probably more than she could love anyone else. “you still want to side with them? if that fucker could kill his own kid, what makes you think he wouldn’t try to do that to us?” aegon had told her enough about viserys for her to be able to work out what had happened on her own, of course, once the shock had worn off. she was locked in the dungeons, it wasn’t like she was short on time to think. “LET’S NOT?” seeing as every single person she loved ended up dead, other than for edgar and her little brother. “dad, no offence. i have no intention of being anywhere near your potential clients to be able to shame you infront of them. that’s what you’ve got wonderful shiny edward for, right?” jealous? definitely. ellie knew this freedom wouldn’t come without a cost. it never ever did. she remained silent, taking in what he was asking because she knew what his version of having something handled felt like. “isn’t he like… old?” not that she cared, in fact, she was quite charming in the sense that she could normally make connections with anyone – street life had taught her that much. still. “wait. you’re letting me out of the farm to do this?” uh? she figured it must be important if he was willing to do that much. “YEAH… i can do it.”

“RELIEVED? ELLIE, YOU WOUND ME. OF COURSE I WOULDN’T BE RELIEVED. if anything, i would have been ashamed. we might have had our differences over the years, but.. you are part of my family. i don’t wish that to change. i’ve made that clear to you in the past, did i not?” he wondered, raising his eyebrow a little at that, because.. as far as he was concerned, that had been exactly why he had done what he had to tony stark. or rather - why he had sent viserys’ lapdog to do it and right now.. well, he was more than happy to remind his daughter of what would happen, if she were to do something like that again. he was her father - whether she liked it or not and right now, that wouldn’t change anytime soon. “well, ellie... being a parent is terribly difficult. each of us decides how to do it best. if he figured that his own son wasn’t worthy of living anymore.. well, each to their own, no?” and he didn’t particularly care what happened to the boy - after all, he deserved every single bit of it and right now, he didn’t see that changing anytime soon, that was for sure. anyone that messed with his daughter.. well, they would end up deserving it, sooner or later. “your brother has enough trouble to worry about with his little side project. this is your job.” and for a moment, he laughed, shaking his head a little bit. “i certainly hope you weren’t asking that question for the reason i’m thinking. yes, he’s old. yes, he’s currently trying to get over the fact that his wife ditched him. feel free to EXPLORE that, if you wish.” he nodded a little bit, because.. well, she would be watched through every minute by his best guys but then again, she also didn’t need to know that. not at all, no. “this is your time to prove to me that i can trust you. i want you back by my side, ellie. edward on one side, you on the other. it’s how i have always wanted things to be. WHAT DO YOU SAY?” he asked, hoping she’d say yes.