There is No Other Side

18+ | Trigger Warning | Depressed | Mid 20s | Digital Artist | General Fuck-Up | Shitty Writer

[be-my-violent-smile]

Let me be your violent smile

That’s what I need

[be-my-violent-smile]

How do you have a therapist make you realize you were SA’d as a child and then go about the rest of your day like everything is normal? …asking for a friend…

[be-my-violent-smile]

When you love someone who hates themselves, you fell in love with potential. The air of genius. The misunderstood soul. You saw someone with the world in front of them and ignored the world in front of you.

-Lisa Martens (When You Loves Someone Who Hates Themselves - Medium Sep 22, 2022)

[be-my-violent-smile]

Why is it so hard to get help. I’m trying so hard to get help.

[be-my-violent-smile]

Somewhere along the line passion turned into a project

A project to an obligation

An obligation to resentment

When you take something you love

And try to turn it into profit

It’s no longer “I’m improving”

It’s “I’m not good enough”

It’s no longer stress relief

Its a reminder of your failures

You’re not exploring new things

You’re wasting time

You’re not relaxing

You’re being lazy

You didn’t find a new interest

You quit

And in the end

All I have is a pile of supplies

Sitting in the corner

Mocking me for what I never was

And what I couldn’t be

[ink-pedia]

ig: slavenavena

[narukee]

[thingswedontunbox]

[forestinfire]

the amity affliction / pittsburgh

[unaliveish]

barbara dzērve-ozoliņa

[skeletonette]

[frachella]

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

i was never supposed to make it this far what do you mean my future depends on me i cant even get my ass out of bed to make myself a sandwich

[shisasan]

April 26, 1931 Journals of Anais Nin 1927-1931  [volume 4]

[psapfos]

me: *gets drunk*

mental illnesses: we’re still here btw (:

me: what the fuck??????????

[509depressed]

Hey

Let’s get drunk and pretend we are ok!

[heartshop]

Anne Sexton, ‘The Addict’