NCT Fanfics and More~

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hi everyone it’s been a while! this is mod Jaime (the only one still in contact lol) and i don’t know how many of you are still around checking up or anything but I (as well as the other mods who unfortunately i no longer have contact with) am very thankful for all of you and your continued support. having said that, however, i must move on to say that unfortunately this blog will officially become inactive (unless someone contacts me to take over writing). while i will always be thankful for my time in the NCT fandom and will always hold a special place in my heart for the boys, i have not listened to their music in years. i no longer keep up with them. therefore i cannot continue to write for them. i am so sorry it’s taken me so long to make this post, but again i want to express my gratitude to all of our followers and everyone who has ever interacted with our writing. you are all wonderful and stunning people! i wish you all the very best moving forward and i am so grateful that i could share this portion of my life and writing with you all.

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hi everyone it’s been a while! this is mod Jaime (the only one still in contact lol) and i don’t know how many of you are still around checking up or anything but I (as well as the other mods who unfortunately i no longer have contact with) am very thankful for all of you and your continued support. having said that, however, i must move on to say that unfortunately this blog will officially become inactive (unless someone contacts me to take over writing). while i will always be thankful for my time in the NCT fandom and will always hold a special place in my heart for the boys, i have not listened to their music in years. i no longer keep up with them. therefore i cannot continue to write for them. i am so sorry it’s taken me so long to make this post, but again i want to express my gratitude to all of our followers and everyone who has ever interacted with our writing. you are all wonderful and stunning people! i wish you all the very best moving forward and i am so grateful that i could share this portion of my life and writing with you all.

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If anyone would be interested 👀👀👀

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Looking For Writers

So to start off with I want to say that I’m not going to stop writing, I just might need some help to post stories on a pretty consistent basis. I want you all to continue being able to read my stories as well as give others a chance to write for you. So if you are a writer who wants to help me out or you know someone looking for a place to write, send me a message! I’ll be taking at least one writer and hopefully someone will contact me if they’re interested. You’d be doing me a huge favor as well as my followers. Please contact me if you’re interested. Also please if you don’t mind rebloggong this to spread it around, that would be a huge help! Thank you!

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As of 07/02/19 (July 2) we are still looking for writers!!! Please contact us if you are interested in becoming a writer for this blog!!!

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Looking For Writers

So to start off with I want to say that I’m not going to stop writing, I just might need some help to post stories on a pretty consistent basis. I want you all to continue being able to read my stories as well as give others a chance to write for you. So if you are a writer who wants to help me out or you know someone looking for a place to write, send me a message! I’ll be taking at least one writer and hopefully someone will contact me if they’re interested. You’d be doing me a huge favor as well as my followers. Please contact me if you’re interested. Also please if you don’t mind rebloggong this to spread it around, that would be a huge help! Thank you!

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Dating Lucas Wong

Summary: I love this baby boy so much. 

Author: ivy💫

(ps i have a side blog now! @xuxivy )

First things first, Lucas is CLINGY AS FUCK. 

you can’t deny it. 

no matter what you are doing he is always with you, trailing like a smol puppy. 

need groceries? Comes with you. going to a meeting? asks to come. going on a business trip or vacation? he shoves himself in the carry on. 

like even if y’all watching a movie with the boys and you stand to grab more snacks or whatever he either 

1. doesn’t let you get up and pulls you closer to him, chest warm and eyes begging for you to stay or 

2. grabs your hand and leads you to the small kitchen, wrapped behind you as you pour chips and gummies into the bowls. 

He loves skin ship and requires it to literally function. 

Holding hands, arms around waist, shoulders, aNYTHINg.

just literally being close enough that he can feel the heat radiating of your skin is enough, he just needs reassurance that you are THERE. 

like the managers are strict about PDA so even if there is no hand holding as you make line to order coffee he is just behind you

super close. hands brushing together. 

his pinky wrapped around yours loosely or his hand just grabbing your over size sweaters sleeves.

biggest LOVE EYES!

Lucas eyes literally melt every time he looks at you, no joke.

A simple glance at you and eyes get bigger, pupils filling up with love in an instant, smile getting brighter by the second. 

Even the most mundane thing y’all do ends up being like an adventure.

You can never be bored when you are with him, his presence is so comforting and heartwarming

You always find a way to have fun, like when you where trapped at the airport bc a delay and played a childish game of hide and seek with dream 

and it was the best 4 hrs spent of your life so far.

Lucas is always complementing you, it doesn’t matter you’re at your worst, he ends up praising you and throwing sweet words at you.

My heart bursts every time I thing of Winter!Lucas

Pulling you closer than normal, head finding home in the crook of your neck. softly rubbing his nose down your neck.

Unzipping his big ass jacket and somehow trying to wrap it around you as he’s still wearing it.

grabbing your hands in his, trying to warm u up.

pulling into his lap, wrapping the blanket over the both of you.

his chest warming up your back

placing small kisses all over ur neck and nape.

whinning whenever u want to go out

rather staying home, and being with you

warm up under the nest of blankets and pillow in bed

with u by his side. 

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Fake Text Imagine: Y/N’s boyfriend, Johnny, believes memes help on shitty days. They really don't, or at least not for him at this moment.

Author: Jaime

A/N: lmao I don’t even know what this is. I had motivation to do something for the blog but couldn’t write anything, so I guess I’m making fake texts now? If you want to request any of these sorts of imagines pls hit me up.

[lyresandlasers]

list of favorite things as a fanfic author:

When someone is really freaking mad at me for inducing an emotional response from them

when readers give me a background of how/when they read my writing

when readers give me a background of why they shouldn’t have been reading my writing (usually while at work)

when readers quote my work back to me in comments

the frickin’ real heroes here, the ones who comment on every chapter of an ongoing multi-chapter fic

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raise your hand if you reread fic comments when you’re having a bad day

those kind words can make all the difference sometimes

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Reblog if you are a fic writer who welcomes moodboards, playlists, remixes, art and any other type of gift based on your stories.

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I think I would actually faint if someone did this based on one my stories, but hey, you‘re welcome to do it🤗😬🙈

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Masterlist (Updated 08/28/18)

Legend

💫- Ivana

🌌- Jaime

💗- Fluff

💌- Romance

💜- Platonic

🖤- Angst

EXO

🌌The Small Barista (Krisoo): X

NCT

🌌A Certain Kind of Star-Crossed Romance (Taeyong X Male OC): X

🌌Lifetime Movies (Doyoung X Gender Neutral Reader): X💗💌

🌌Ten the Team Killer (NCT X Gender Neutral Reader): X💗💜

🌌3 AM Conversations (Mark X Platonic Gender Neutral Reader): X💗

🌌Way to Ruin the Moment (Doyoung X Male Reader): X💗💌

🌌XXX (Johnny X Gender Neutral Reader): X💗💌

🌌NCT Mysteries (NCT Dream X Gender Neutral Reader): X💗💜

🌌The Wedding (Yuta X Male Reader): Part One, Part Two💗💌

🌌Where Do We Go From Here? (Jaehyun X Female Reader): X💗🖤💌

💫Ethereal (Taeyong X Reader): X💌

💫Blueberries (Jeno X Reader): X💗💌

💫Hurt You (Lucas X Reader): X🖤💌

🌌That’s Love (Mark X Trans!Male Reader): X💗💌

🌌Shy, Shy, Shy (Jeno X Reader): X💗💌

🌌Pretty Damn Good (Taeyong X Male Reader): X💗💌

🌌Dissertation on Harry Potter (Johnny X Gender Neutral Reader): X💗💌

🌌Where Did We Go Wrong? (Taeil X Reader): X🖤💌

🌌Netflix and Chill Series (NCT X Gender Neutral Reader)💗💜

Netflix and Chill: X

Blanket Burrito: X

Stormy Weather: X

Alternate Coffee Universe: X

The Unpleasantly Pleasant: X

First Dates and Hospital Trips: X💌

🌌Soulmate AU Series (Gender Neutral Reader)

My Soulmate Has to Be An Asshole (Doyoung X Reader): X💗💌

HSM Discourse (Renjun X Reader): X💗💌

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That’s Love

Summary: That time of the months hits you with surprise, and your boyfriend comes home to help take care of you.

Pairing: Mark x Trans!Male Reader

Warnings: Some body dysphoria

Author: Jaime

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(A/N: I’m finally back with something! Thank you for your patience, and thank you Ivana for keeping our followers happy while I was gone!)

You woke up knowing the day was going to be awful. Well your entire week really. You woke up to a bloodstained pair of underwear, and immediately all the good vibes you'd been feeling went down the drain. You managed to drag yourself out of bed into the bathroom to take care of things before grabbing your heating pad and burrowing under a bunch of blankets to rewatch Queer Eye. Every month or so you had to go through this, and every time you were forced to acknowledge one of the worst things about yourself: you weren’t like others. Your boyfriend would shower you in affection and never made it seem like he thought any less of you, but you still couldn’t shake the thought that he deserved to be with someone better. Someone normal. 

Your phone would occasionally buzz with texts from your boyfriend and his friends with reminders to breathe and stretch, which on any normal day would warm your heart, but not on this day. The baggy shirt helped a bit, but whenever you moved a bit you couldn’t help but get angrier and angrier with yourself and the world. Not even Queer Eye, your go-to feel good show, was helping today. You were nauseous, in pain, and full of self-loathing. You couldn’t even get up without the pain getting so much worse, so you only left the comfort of your blankets and heating pad to go to the bathroom and not much else. Food was not something you could worry about when your uterus decided to be an asshole. As another text from Mark comes in reading: ‘time to stretch, sweetheart! i love you! Keep safe until i can get home!’ Fuck you didn’t deserve someone as sweet as him. You toss your phone on the coffee table, roll over, and try to get some sleep.

“Y/N!”

A small groan escaped your lips when you heard your boyfriend call for you. He must’ve just gotten home. Maybe he could get you some food; you were starving. Mark’s footsteps get closer to the couch until his face pops into view over the back of it.

“Hey, honey,” he greets you with a soft smile. “How you feeling?”

“Shitty.

“You eaten anything today?”

“…No.”

He sighs but presses a kiss to your forehead before disappearing back into the kitchen. “You need to take care of yourself, Y/N, especially during your period.”

“Ugh, I don’t wanna talk about it!” You kick a blanket off of you and stretch until you can glare at your boyfriend. “You don’t get them.”

“No, I don’t.”

You press a hand over the heating pad and let out a loud groan. “I fucking hate you,” you growl at your uterus.

“If you’re done yelling at your body, I’ve got some food for you.”

You greedily take the bowl Mark hands you, your nose wrinkling when you see what he’s prepared for you. “Really? Salad? Salmon? Mark, I want meat! You know I like greasy burgers when TOM is fucking me over!”

“I know you do, honey, but the internet says this will help. Also drinking a lot of water, something I see you’ve neglected to do.”

“Fuck off,” you grumble as he carefully readjusts you so he can cuddle up on the couch with you. “I bet you guys got to eat meat today…”

“Oh yeah, we gorged ourselves on McDonald’s after practice today.”

An orgasmic moan echoes from your throat at the thought of fast food. “Fuck, I’d kill for a McFlurry right now.”

“If you eat all of that and drink water, I’ve got some dark chocolate for you,” Mark promises as he rubs over your cramps. “Think you can do that for me?”

“…I guess.”

As you munch unhappily on your leaves and watch the Fab 5 help the crusty white man of the week, Mark’s hand slowly creeps up your shirt. He pretends to be watching along with you, but you know exactly what he’s doing, and while you appreciate him looking out for you, you’re not dumb.

“Mark, I’m not wearing it,” you say, causing his hand to freeze above your belly-button. “I appreciate your concern, but I’m not stupid enough to wear it during TOM anymore.”

“I just… I like to check. It makes me feel better, even if I know you’re not going to do it.”

“Mhm. You just want to cop a feel,” you mutter as you wink at your boyfriend.

“Honey, trust me, if I wanted to cop a feel, I’d do it like this.” His hand suddenly snakes around your back and pinches your butt.

“Mark!” you shriek through your giggles.

“I know you don’t like me touching up there,” he whispers into your hair a few moments later. “And I never want to make my boyfriend uncomfortable.”

“And why is that?”

“I love you.”

“Really?”

“Really. I love you so much, Y/N, no matter what.”

A smile creeps on your face as Mark nuzzles his face into your neck. “Well, I love you too.”

“I should hope so. Who else is going to text you stretch reminders or go to the trouble of getting you all this TOM safe food?”

“Hm, I guess I should keep you around then.”

“You better.”

He then gently moves you so he’s curled around you under the blankets, his hands massaging your stomach as he makes comments about the state of the guy’s house on TV. And in this moment, as it usually happens during TOM, you realize Mark doesn’t need anyone better. You’re perfect for him, and he’s perfect for you. He knows you’re perfect however you are, but he also supports whatever you want to be. And that? That’s love.

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ETHEREAL «Taeyong Lee»

Summary: Under the neon lights and booming base you feel invincible, and ethereal with alcohol flowing through your veins. Inspiration Song: Dembow by Danny Ocean.  Pairing: Taeyong x Reader Word Count: 1.6k Author: Ivana💫

Masterlist {A/N: its super short sorry} 

The songs beat flooded your every sense, every beat, hit and dropped filling your veins with a rush you had never experience. The neon lights only lighted what you need to see: your feet on the dance floor.

You had denied thousands of times drinks with the boys in fear of being left along at the table, yet here you where. As soon as your body reach the fourth shot and the DJ played a foreign song you were gone, Ten and Mark barely catching a glimpse of you as you quite literally divide into the crowded floor.

You never understood what Tae meant whenever he said ‘let the melody guide you’ when he tried to teach you some dance moves, but holy shit, you understood now.

Without permission your body swinged, dipped and moved to the songs soft melody, euphorbia filling your body to the max.

Soft hands encircled around your hips, the touch too familiar. You continue dancing, hips swaying.

“I think it’s time for us to go, baby.” Taeyong’s soft voice ranged into your ear. You connected eyes for a second, feeling how he pressed you tighter against him.

Fuck it.

You pressed your back against his chest and hands over his, you pressed harder, maintaining the same eye contact with him.

Swiftly you started rocking your hips slowly letting him grab the signal, and oh boy did he.  

Moving in complete sync with the music flow you felt as one, his hot breath and open mouth kisses being pressed against the right side of your neck.

You moan softly giving him more access to your neck, running your hands through his red hair. “Stop. Seriously, Y/n…i can-ah.” He tried to protest in vain, giving simply into you. Your bodies molded into one pressed so tightly together you could feel his rapid heartbeat match yours echoing through your chest.

Taeyong whispered sweet promises into your ear, turning your head upwards harsh breaths mingling together.

And as he pressed his lips against yours, a tsunami of emotions flooding through the kiss, you felt ethereal.

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Hello!! Who is your favorite blogs? I am in high need of good things and following sprees ^^^^^^

Sorry this took so long been searching the people I follow since I followed a lot.

Also since you didn’t specify what type of blogs Ill just put the blogs that write male reader and/or gender neutral.

@dongsxcheng -  His specialty is in Smut, he writes in bullet point and drabble in around 1k-3k words area.

@alostboi101 - This bitch knows how to make my heart hurt with them angst, is also good at writing different type of scenarios and aus which range from being a spy to being a merman. Usually writes in bullet point but occasionally writes in drabble form.

@daelicious-jongbulge - Writes mostly if not all gender neutral stuff. Likes to keep things short but ooh boy are they good. Whether it be angst or fluff she got you covered UwU. Usually writes in drabble form.

@warmau - Ooh boy if you are a fan of really long bulletpoint aus this is the place uwU. Usually writes in bullet point.

@myoongay - just ugh if you just want to read some good stuff and reaction his blog is everything I fucking live for it. Usually does reactions, drabbles, etc.

@beaglelinefics - is quite gender neutral and like lemme tell you their Nct Netflix and chill gender neutral platonic series or something like that is fucking gold like ghsbdgbwibw.

@xkpopbro - this is Jamies smut blog so like of course it is full of smut. Fair warning though you may occasionally encounter pictures of naked male buttocks, the male phallus, and also one time Jamies phallus itself. So I recommend being careful while scrolling his blog in public bnebniebgebui. writes short drabbles.

@starboyyoongi - just ugh the aus are everythiiiiinnnggggg nuff said. Writes drabbles.

@xlovelyidols - Now this is jamies fluff blog so just expect lots of fluff UwU.

I love all of these blogs and there are a lot more blogs I love but forgot to add here since this bitch is about to drop dead. So if I forget some I will put them here sometime.

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Omg thank you! :))) You're so sweet and seeing you in our notes is amazing! Thank you for your support!

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Hurt you

{Based on “Hurt You” by The Weeknd.}

Summary: Friends with benefits came with one rule, you were stupid to believe he would change it for you. 

Pairing: Lucas x Reader

Word Count: 

Author: Ivana💫

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“You try to fill the void with every man you meet, because you’re upset with me.”

The night was so quiet Seoul seem asleep for once. The city lights illuminated up the small dark room, neon colors bouncing of the delicate features of the adonis on top of you. 

Lucas was something else. 

His beauty drew you at first, but his charisma enchanted you, filling your tiny heart with nothing but sweet thoughts & feelings for him.

But his fucking sold the deal. 

You admired his long lashes and full luscious lips, big eyes filled with lust and the way his eyebrows furrowed as he groan, reaching his limit. 

“fUCK.” His voice was rough and husky, dropping an octave as his fell on top of you. He let out a shaky moan as you ran your fingers through his soft hair. 

He rolled off you laying on his back, sweat glistening on his tanned chest. Red marks covered his neck and chest, arms and shoulders proudly showing the marks you left behind.  Chest rising up and down quickly as he tried to come off his high. 

You couldn't stop staring, chewing on your lower lip, his beauty too intoxicating. You made eye contact, eyes wide as he threw you a charming smile. 

I love you.

Shaking those feelings away you sat up, hand grabbing the items on your nightstand. Quickly lighting up the cigarette you drew it in, hoping like every night  the nicotine would erase every feeling you had for the god next to you, feelings and fucking did not mix well with him. 

You let a shaky breath, smoke escaping your mouth, leaving behind its toxic shadow.

Lucas couldn’t help but roll his eyes as he tried to grab your cigarette, he had told you multiple times he hated the smell yet you continue to smoke in his presence every night. 

You pulled the toxic stick out of reach, blowing smoke in his face and giggling as you watch his features contoured into one of disgust, a loud cough echoing through the small flat. 

You continued smoking with a small smile, trying to act as enchanting as he was for you in hopes of capturing him the same way he did to you. 

“Its just smoke you big baby.” He shook his head, pulling the black shirt from under the covers and throwing it on. He picked up the scatter clothes into his arms, dressing up. 

12:55 am. Your phone read as you unlocked it checking your texts. 

12:10 am:

From ML: ??? 

11:56 pm:

From ML: I shouldn’t but I miss you so much it hurts. i love you. 

11:40 pm:

From ML: I’m sneaking after everybody asleep. u gonna be @ home? 

11:25 pm:

From TY: Can’t wait for friday! See you soon, baby. 

11:02 pm:

From 10: ugh u fcking bitch. you need to stOOop. 

10:45 pm:

From 10: i hope he ain’t coming to urs. srsly, u need to stop doing this.

10:45 pm:

From 10: he left his wallet here and took his charger.

10:43 pm:

From 10: love boi left to “the store” like 10 mins ago. 

Lucas cleared his throat as he glance at your phone, fully clothed. You looked up at him innocently yet a dead glint in your eyes. You dropped the sheet, fully exposing your bare chest at him. He turned red yet ignored you, scratching the back of his neck. 

Why are you texting my friends? Are you stilling seeing them? Are they better than me? Why? The questions burned on the back of his throat, a knot impossible to swallow. 

yet he manage to. “I am leaving.” 

“You gotta leave so soon? Why not stay?” You pouted.

With big innocent eyes and that cigarette hanging of your delicate fingers you looked as dangerous as ever, Lucas couldn’t help but feel a pang in his chest. 

Every time you hoped and begged he said yes, that he would cuddle with you in the warm sheets, whispering sweet promises into your ears. 

“No.” He deadpanned, ruffling his hair. he needed to go, now. He couldn’t handle another second near you, or he was going to burst. 

He dropped down and gave you a kiss, making you moan into his lips. 

“See you soon, alright?” 

Angry and hurt you dismiss him.  “I have a date on Friday. I hope you don’t get jealous, baby.” 

He turned to you, roughly grabbing your jaw as he stared into your eyes.

You smirk, loving it when he got rough with you. 

His smile wicked as he sucked a hickey into your neck. “How many times have you asked the same thing?” You didn’t answer, smile flattering a bit. 

“Every time it’s going to be the same answer-” he pressed his forehead to yours, eyes dead of emotion as he stated. “I don’t give a fuck.” 

Tears brimmed your eyes as he left the bed crossing the room without bothering to say goodbye. 

You screamed after him, throwing a pillow at his back. 

“Why do you never care?! Don’t I mean something to you?!” 

Frustrated tears running down your face. 

The pang in your chest echocing within you, the heavy weight of self hate making it hard to breath.

He opened the door with a bang & turned towards you, a sad look in his ocean filled eyes. 

“How many times have I told you, I don’t want to hurt you? Stop trying, seriously.” His hands gripped on the wooden door, turning white with pressure.

He took a deep breath, mustering enough courage to meet your puffy eyes.

He was so cold when the spoke you swore the room’s temperature dropped, ice covering the walls.

“But break my friends hearts and, I am warning you, you won’t love me anymore.” 

And with nothing left to say Lucas exited the small flat believing he was caring for the one who held his heart, yet failed to see how he had done the opposite.