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[longseasons]

does anyone like me and want to understand me

[wuggen]

Heard a car horn today that was tuned to a fifth. Fucked up, kinda delightful

[wuggen]

I want people to understand how jarring this was. Most car horns are either a single tone or two tones somewhere in the neighborhood of a minor third apart:

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Pretty normal rush hour sounds, yeah? But this thing sounded something like this:

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Fucked up! Didn't even realize it was a car horn at first, I didn't know what the fuck it was! It was weird as hell!

[fictionvssleep]

[bean-buns]

10 ish People You'd Like to Get To Know Better

@blurpsandthoughts thank u for tagging me. the way im struggling to think of 10 omg can I start tagging people I already know. you can always get to know someone better even if you know them well

Last song: I did my annual re-listen of Philippe B's La grande nuit vidéo yesterday while working at my desk so my last song would be the last song on the album, Les disparus ! love that album so so much. been listening to his new drop cigale and it reminded me of his older work so I went back to this classic

Currently watching: been going 2 da movies but tv-wise nothing rn... I think we should watch the sopranos together when I'm less busy... the only ongoing things I'm following right now are online video series. I like TX Watson's series on academic communication, they're sharing their phd work on yt in a rly accessible fun way and I tune in for every video, I've been following them on TikTok for years

Currently reading: one million (4 but I'm feeling sulky and cranky about it) academic papers for school simultaneously. current rotation for personal reading is Carl Wilson's let's talk about love for 33 1/3, Yasunari Kawabata's house of the sleeping beauties and other stories, C. Thi Nguyen's the score (loving this so much it's my lunch break read atm. keeping it in my lil cubicle), the fall 2025 volume of The Paris Review that I've been picking at slowly since I got it, Jon Bois's 20020, and I've had crime & punishment on hold since like. December. I think I need to give up and just drop it halfway through I'm not in the mood for it. sick and tired of raskolnikov

Currently working on: gonna take this question super literally and complain bc being busy makes me feel evil and annoying >:( mostly a bunch of school and work stuff that isn't going anywhere. co-authored a research thing w/ some classmates from the winter semester that just got accepted for a poster presentation but I'm 99.9% sure I won't actually get to attend the conference and only the TA+prof will present it. been job-hunting for 6 months now which is like a second job and it's brought me nothing but stress. currently working on a short report, longer research paper, and 2 presentations for my summer class. all my fun projects are on hold >:((( I think those are more in the spirit of a Tumblr ask game though so I can list them too: multimedia zine about dreams, pocket-sized found object junk journal, painting clay figurines and trinkets I sculpted, chinese vocabulary (studying from the HSK4 list rn, there's quite a few characters at that level that I can't read/write even if I mostly recognize them when spoken), clearing out my fic drafts and compiling them into some kind of WIP drabble series which I've been meaning to do for literal years but I just never ever have the bandwidth to get around to it ugh. I have so much fanart planned too. imagine being able to do anything. oh I've been keeping up with my book blog regularly I guess that's something! read my may reading post everyone...

Last google search: Magda Szabó (I had the name of the book katalin street on the tip of my tongue and couldn't remember it)

I tag the same handful of people in every ask game sorry. for being full of love @reineyday @treecovery @plasmalink @babey @thatsthenorthstar @somehowfurious @permanent-emotion @bao-is-reading @tamago-in-an-onsen @stylographic-blue-rhapsody

[apologea]

[chrono-phage]

[medievaljournalist]

this pride month will be special because of giant ice snake will appear

[fanficmemes]

Babygirl I know fandom history that you wouldn’t even care about

[mikkeneko]

i know fandom history that even I don’t care about

[antlershade]

well, i know about lump fish

[cyber-seagull404]

Good to see we’re all on the same page

[fiore-firelily]

OP must have been mischievously chewing on a big carrot with a leafy top when she was writing this ... 🙄

[contextfreepatentart]

[targetedknowledge]

[bean-buns]

it’s pride month!! happy birthday gay people 💗🌸

[sauccywitthavibes]

Healthy & Sexy summer

[smoqueen-deactivated20251108]

this makes me feel something totally indescribable

[effie2001]

Redwood bonsai

[notahorseindisguise]

i know hes trying to make fun of the city slickers here but the way this is written really makes it sound like he is Not At All having fun with his country work and he wants to be at party

[taraxippos]

This is dangerously close to "MORE 👏STORIES 👏 ABOUT 👏 HOW 👏 HOUSEWIVES 👏 CAN 👏 BE 👏 BADASS" in the subject matter of the stories I'm requesting, but when it comes to "feminist" historical fiction I am infinitely more interested in stories centering on the lived realities of the majority of women throughout history than centering on epic girlbosses who defied EVERYTHING and PROVED women can do everything men can! Like yeah I'm your presumed audience of people with at least the most basic feminist lens to their worldview so I don't really need to be informed about that and you're saying very little here?

Like there's definitely a more limited scope of stories you can tell about the average woman in recorded history (ie peasant in a settled agrarian society who spent most of her waking hours occupied in grueling domestic and agricultural labor from childhood to death, had to spend most of her reproductive age pregnant or nursing not just due to patriarchal norms but hard subsistence pressures), but that limitation says so much about class and misogyny by its mere presence. The most privileged women in most of these societies still had limited ability to exert any power over the world or control over their lives except through male proxies. Like the sheer weight of the number of women throughout history who were disenfranchised and exploited by class and lacking any real autonomy within patriarchal systems is staggering and fucking horrific. In a lot of cases we only know of them by implication; we know these famous men had wives, we know a huge bulk of peasantry Existed to sustain their societies and kept exploited to enrich the upper classes, we know these were people who had the full scope of humanity and had dreams and were able to feel pain about their circumstances. They were denied humanity by the world they lived in, and then are further denied humanity by complete and utter disinterest in their lives because their lack of autonomy is inconvenient and uncomfy for a "feminist" narrative where the feminism of it all is predicated on having figures who are Empowered. I don't see the point of feminist historical fiction that is utterly disinterested in the lives of women in that historical context.

Like of course historical fiction is written for a contemporary audience and people generally want to relate to a protagonist in Some capacity. Most women in the target audience of these stories have more autonomy than the women of the story's historical period, so "PROVING women can do anything men can" is at least superficially more relatable than "not being able to 'prove' jack shit because you have to spin wool all your whole goddamn life", but I really do think that resemblance is mostly superficial. Like you probably do have a lot more in common with the peasant woman doing textile labor until the day she dies than the badass paradigm-shifting queen who ruled in her own name. There's continuous throughlines between patriarchal and class conditions of the distant past and the present. It's just that you're so rarely being asked to find common ground with these women or even See them to begin with, and I think that's a colossal disservice to the possibilities of this medium as well as a pretty damning omission.

[catchymemes]