Epitome of Paradox

INFJ. Trans. Type 2w3. Virgo. Feminist. Pagan. Poly. Autistic.

[submalevolentgrace]

dear Americans very concerned and angry about the concentration camps your government is running:

you should be angry, you should be furious, you should do everything and anything you can to shut them down.

but here in Australia, we've had concentration camps for refugees for nearly 25 years. we've protested and petitioned and yelled, but the government was 'clever' and put them offshore, away from the mainland where we can't reach them, can't storm them. then they banned journalists from going. then they banned doctors.

the only time mainstream news tends to report on the "offshore detention centres" is when yet another group of children try to commit suicide.

yes, the Australian government has concentration camps for people fleeing warzones, and the people in those camps are tortured so bad that the children try to kill themselves.

Americans, I hope you manage to close your governments camps, by law or by force. maybe when you're done, you can turn your attention to us? we could use some loud international outrage from a western ally, the government might care. the public has spent 20 years trying and failing.

non-Australians, please spread this information. I don't think many people know internationally, except the island nations we pay to host our camps and keep quiet.

[theslaybymic]

UNC rape survivor Delaney Robinson comes forward with brave statement

Delaney Robinson, a sophomore at the University of North Carolina Chapel Hill alleged Tuesday that a football player at the school raped her in February and that UNC has done nothing about it. In a powerful personal statement she explained how “she did everything a rape victim is supposed to do.”

[rudjedet]

Controversial Truths About Ancient Egypt Masterpost

The pyramids were built by contemporary workers who received wages and were fed and taken care of during construction

The Dendera “lightbulb” is a representation of the creation myth and has nothing to do with electricity

We didn’t find “““copper wiring””” in the great pyramid either

Hatshepsut wasn’t transgender

The gods didn’t actually have animal heads

Hieroglyphs aren’t mysteriously magical; they’re just a language (seriously we have shopping lists and work rosters and even ancient erotica)

The ancient Egyptian ethnicity wasn’t homogeneous

Noses (and ears, and arms) broke off statues and reliefs for a variety of reasons, none of which are “there is a widespread archaeological conspiracy to hide the Egyptian ethnicity”

[thatlittleegyptologist]

The carvings at Abydos aren’t modern machines but recarvings over old carvings. Sure they look like them but if you can read hieroglyphs and know that Ramesses II will even usurp the carvings of his own father just to be a little shit

[rudjedet]

‘No soot on the ceilings and walls of the Dendera temple!’ is actually because of extensive restoration works and not because Egyptians were in on shit like Baghdad “batteries”

While the Egyptians were fine-ass astronomers they didn’t align any of their enormous and/or important buildings to modern star constellations, because constellations look very different now than they did ~5000 years ago 

The pyramid is the simplest, sturdiest shape with which to build and many different cultures discovered this in their own time. There were never any weird fish humans/aliens involved

[rudjedet]

The sphinx of Gizah is only an approximate 5000 years old; the 10,000 year/rain erosion nonsense is proven hokum

Speaking of that particular sphinx, the Napoleonic expedition is not responsible for its missing nose

Akhenaten was not a “heretic” by contemporary standards

Ramses II appropriated a lot of his predecessors’ buildings/reliefs and isn’t really deserving of the epithet “the Great”

The Battle of Kadesh ended in a stalemate (twice)

[rudjedet]

While they had feline deities throughout their history, Egyptians didn’t actually worship cats themselves. This was a later Greek/Ptolemaeic addition

It was not, in fact, practice to shave off eyebrows after cats died; Herodotus lied about that

Herodotus lied about a lot of things and many misconceptions about ancient Egypt can be traced back to his Greek ass

[rudjedet]

I can’t believe I forgot my favourite Hill to Die On

Seth was not the god of “evil”, and despite his chaos providing a foil to order, he wasn’t completely villified until very late in Egyptian history, when he became associated with despised foreign enemies

[rudjedet]

Hats off to the few of you who’re reblogging this with tags saying you’re going to check my claims later. You make me not entirely despair of this hellhole.

Here are some vetted Egyptological books/sources (that are by and large appropriate for a lay-audience) you can find most, if not all of the above:

Lehner, M., The Complete Pyramids

Wilkinson, R. H., The Complete Temples of Ancient Egypt

Hornung, E., The One and the Many: Conceptions of God in Ancient Egypt

Dunand, F. & Zivie-Coche, C., Gods and Men in Egypt

Kemp, B., Ancient Egypt: Anatomy of a Civilization

Bard, K., An Introduction to the Archaeology of Ancient Egypt

Stevenson Smith, W., The Art and Architecture of Ancient Egypt

Kitchen, K. A., The Life and Times of Ramesses II, King of Egypt

Sweeney, D., Sex and Gender (in Ancient Egypt)

McDowell, A. G., Village Life in Ancient Egypt:  Laundry Lists and Love Songs

Te Velde, H., Seth, God of Confusion 

[rudjedet]

Guys do me a solid and reblog this version instead of continuously asking for sources on the other versions thanks

[marquise-de-clarabas]

^^^^^^^^^

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

Should be sleeping but having these thoughts...

How do I write new scripts?

Do I just not script?

So I have sexual feelings and I am aware of them but I am utterly confused about how to express them in any sort of way.

This goes for all people I have sexual feelings for.

I have tried to maybe redirect to Grindr but I only am interested in 1 person I met there only after going on a few dates. I don't have sexual feelings for all of them.

It isn't simple like objectification or aesthetic.

I don't know how to get there to what I'm thinking about. What I want to be doing or what I want you to be doing. My feelings are rarely context appropriate because they are largely tied to feeling safe and cared for.

When you caress me and hug me after we had a small miscommunication, I feel my dick harden next to my packer. I feel warmth in my chest and my nipples becoming sensitive.

I start to remember feeling this way with you and start to desire...

I want your lips around my cock. I want to feel the tiniest vibrations radiating through my bones, expressions of enjoyment. I want to see your eyes while I grab your head and push my hips forward and back. I want to feel my legs lose strength and my member pulsate against your tongue. I want to feel the wetness crawling down my vulva.

I want to feel you shake while I slap your ass. I want to smack until I leave a mark and you're quivering and dripping.

I want to feel your vaginal muscles tighten and release around my hand while I slowly insert, curl my fingers, and carefully, tuck my thumb. I wanna hear you wail. I wanna see your head throw back. I want to see and feel you shake.

I get these feelings for you and I don't know what to do.

I get these feelings for other people and I don't know what to do.

I don't want to cause discomfort. I don't want it to be something I am not supposed to do I just want to feel confident and I just...don't.

I feel confident in my feelings and in what I am wanting and in my abilities and my emotional capacity and my flexibility. I even feel okay if the person isn't interested. I just don't know how to even go about asking or expressing or any of it or how I am supposed to act around it. Do I lead up? Do I just do what I want? I want to have a relationship where this thing is talked about because I don't want to feel confusion.

I'm not used to these kinds of feelings; I feel brand new to them. I had scripts before that work but I can't do them anymore because they aren't me.

[officialqueer]

Controversial opinion, but ur allowed to like things that suck

Like, sometimes there are just shows or books that are so goddamn awful for any number of reasons… But ya still like ‘em somehow, and that’s fine

It’s not required to write a 20+ page essay defending why you enjoy something shitty, you can just… Enjoy shitty things

Not all content is made equally and you’re allowed to like things that are far from perfect

Like, just, “This show sucks, but I like it anyway” is a totally valid response

[dezdemonomania]

“It’s comforting,” is a legit answer.

“I like reading about clothes,” is a legit answer.

“it’s brain popcorn, and I don’t feel like delving into something deep,” is a legit answer.

“I’ve read it so many times I can basically recite it, and it relaxes me by being familiar,” is a legit answer.

You don’t need to justify your taste.  Stop feeling guilty about liking things, or liking the “wrong” things.  Life is hard and bleak right now, get fun where you can.

[paxardens]

I read a LOT of trashy pop urban fantasy.

I call them my “popcorn books”, and leave it at that. <3

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

I find this to be really challenging to deal with....but I'm trying.

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

[refinery29]

This is what a real, qualified OBGYN will tell you about what women feel when they get an abortion

Dr. Willie Parker, who is trained as a gynecologist and OBGYN, is a hero for the pro-choice movement because he’s honest about the undiscussed aspects of getting (or not getting) an abortion. Watch how he gives a consultation.

[afunnyfeminist]

That last statement about regret is so important, because so many people don’t understand what it is or what causes it. Anti-choicers exploit this by manipulating pregnant people and creating doubt, which only increases the likelihood of regret, no matter what decision the pregnant person makes. You know what is best for you, even if it takes some time to figure it out.

[profeminist]

[profeminist]

More posts on Dr. Willie Parker

[outforhealth]

Willie Parker is a HERO among common people! 

[eclecticmuses]

Dr. Parker is one of the few things I like about Alabama and we are so fortunate to have him here.

[loosinmynoodles]

Wow god looks just like how I imagined

[gahdamnpunk]

Not to disregard that stand your ground only protects white men..

[lovelyspider]

Her name is Jacqueline Dixon and she’s from Selma, AL. Here’s the article: https://www.al.com/news/birmingham/index.ssf/2018/07/woman_shot_killed_estranged_hu.html

[pinkvelvetfemme]

please help Jacqueline Dixon

[cuttyinjuly]

https://www.care2.com/causes/success-grand-jury-drops-charges-against-woman-who-shot-abuser-in-self-defense.html

[earthshaker1217]

Some good news.

[informative-feminist]

This combined with Cyntoia Brown’s case is such a slap in the face. Fuck anyone who ever says “why didn’t you defend yourself” to victims of abuse.

BECAUSE WE FUCKING CAN’T.

ESPECIALLY women of color.

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

Why do I have to fall apart at the worst times like when no one in my support group is awake?

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

I am not a good cat parent. I have not been a good cat parent. I have been abusive and I feel like a complete and utter monster inside. I am still working on my working definition of love and how it translates to day to day function. Because of her I have had to learn how to be a person, a good person. Most of my self development had been inspired because of her. I see her suffer and I see how I cause or am responsible for her suffering. That is not fair to her. None of this is fair to her. I am her caretaker and when I took her in it was for selfish reasons. I wanted a cat. I was unprepared and irresponsible. I feel like a miserable excuse for a person but I am trying so very hard to change that and I think that if I work very very hard, I don't think it has to be this way forever. She deserves at the very least that.

[mlmgods]

fat trans boys be like………. handsome and just as worthy of love as skinny trans boys …… yeehaw

[goodreadss]

““I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.””

— Marilyn Monroe (via goodreadss)

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

WTF

I've been trying to go to sleep for 1.5 hours and it usually isn't too hard.

First, I wanted to ask for touch from partner and just couldn't for 1 hour before and was feeling so alone and touch needy and I heard her get up and go to the kitchen so I went to the kitchen and hugged her. She could tell I had been crying and I told her that I missed her.

Back to bed. Still couldn't calm down. I knew I needed to take melatonin but just couldn't. I could get up and smoke weed. Could neutralize the racing thoughts. Could google and read about whatevers. Could remember the disorders and resist the numerous unhealthy urges.

We are v low on weed but I went to the TV room, asked about weed, and was aided in my quest. All despite anxiety about people, anxiety about being visibly upset, and fighting voices/racing thoughts.

After an awkward interaction ran back to room. Partner overrode the executive dysfunction I had around taking melatonin after I opened up about having executive dysfunction and ... I forgot.

Then I settled down a bit but was still having racing thoughts, high blood pressure and having difficulty relaxing. I sat up and heard a loud ringing/buzzing some sort of high pitched noise. I unplugged my charger and sure enough. I immediately relaxed.

I am upset that I broke. I hate breaking. It is so miserable everytime. I handled it this time but I feel like it was a fluke. I always feel like I barely make it. Idk it was just a clusterfuck of symptoms to run through. And I *have to like. I don't have a fucking choice. I have to go through all these fucking things to see what's really going on and I feel so angry now that that's a thing I have to do. Like I need to be asleep why tf am I typing this? So that I'll at least have something for next time bc my memory is just SOOOO shit for SOOO many reasons.

Getting through it in this way where I handled it myself (in quotations) I maintained healthy boundaries is what I really mean... it doesn't fucking feel good. I don't feel better. Better doesn't feel good. It just doesn't. It is hard and the payoff isn't great but idk I guess it isn't as bad? That's all there is...

My brain requires so much labor and I legitimately feel such dread around that. I don't know if I will be able to do any of the things I want to do with my life. I want to get a degree. I want to not be working this shit job that eats me. I want to have an actual career. I want to also take care of myself. I want to have kids. I want to have healthy relationships. I want to read and write and create. I want to do more than what I am capable of and it is just so fucking painful.

I just don't see how any of that is ever going to be possible. Legitimately. And I just feel so fucking hopeless about it.

Then I start to feel guilt. I know I have privileges. I .... blegh topic switch time...

Maybe I just need to keep my goals small and achievable. If I keep looking at what is out of my capabilities, of course I am going to fail and be miserable all the time.

I need to take care of me. I need to take care of me. I need to take care of me. I need to take care of me. I need to take care of me. I need to take care of me.

What do I need right now

I am starting to feel sleepy

But my mouth is dry

I need water

Then I need to sleep

Tomorrow is going to suck

It just will

No positive thinking

No but ....

It just will

And I am allowed to be honest about that

Get Water

Go To Sleep

Get Water

Go To Sleep

Go To Water

Get Sleep

Wait....what...

Get Water

Go To Sleep

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

Here's what I want...

An app where you type out your mental symptoms and it gives you a list of options and you look at what you're diagnosed with and effective ways of dealing with each bc like having to deal with the negative symptoms while also trying to figure out where it is coming from and how to deal with it is hard enough but no I have to go down a list of bipolar disorder, anxiety, ADHD, ASD, cptsd

And like so great. Fucking great. I just really really don't want this brain tbh. Can I have a new shinier model?

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

There's this juggler in my brain and like I feel like after 24 years of juggling you'd think he would know how to juggle but like fuck he doesn't know what the fuck he's doing

[bearclawsaremysoulfood]

Look...

I love my kid but fuck. I am playing guitar with her and she understands notes as far as timing goes so she is writing me music that I have to play and then she fucking gives me that teacher/condescending "You did great!" thing and every time she does I want to scream. Obviously I don't but it is seriously irritating. After I finished, she graded it????? Gave me an A+ and a check mark like omg I hated school when I was in it I am not about to be taught on how to play music when I am the one who knows more than her

And I understand her side so obviously I am not gonna be shitty to her. I'm gonna support and encourage her and also I hate it and I need to vent.

[naturaekos]