shane hollander hype moments and aura

heatriva idea dump | bearmets on ao3

[bearmets]

hello asian, any pronouns idc tbh

bearmets = boston bears + montreal metros i like the alliteration

this blog is for heated rivalry fic ideas, thoughts, quote analyses, character analyses/studies, the like

hudson+shaneholic so a lot of my posts are about them

can find childhood friends hollanov under #cf hollanov

thats kinda all i got have fun

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dude he looks like he's gonna eat my pieces his mischievous ass itching to tell me a riddle...

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one big thing i love about hudson williams’ fits is the use of a necklace.

this tweet reminded me how much i love the fact that’s there’s always something going on at the neck/chest area. it elevates his look sooo much and fills what would otherwise be an empty expanse of neck and chest which can make the outfit itself feel incomplete.

hudson williams doesn’t do that tho! he’s got something around his neck the entire time and it’s gorgeousss. even when he styles himself he has that pearl necklace choker that fits so well with the rest of his outfit. i love the use of these neck accessories so much <3

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my breath got stolen. holy fucking shit. mama swan hudson williams ♡

the angles on this are INSANE. the hand on his hip and elbow popping out. the head tilt and eyeliner/shadow and hair following the same slope. the folds of his train. im OBSESSED.

[hollanderdiaz]

HUDSON WILLIAMS ON THE CARPET MET GALA 2026

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watching hudson williams become a household heartthrob in real time kinda has me feeling really crazy because sometimes it feels like he's treading very hyper-masculine waters but the best heartthrobs know to embrace their femininity too and hudson is so GOOD at it.

i mean kinda the entirety of heated rivalry + its subsequent promotions

the wonderland photoshoot. just. yeah.

the choreography for the peloton ad

(NEW) his met gala look

and that's just off the top of my head! i think i just really love how he kinda brings the beauty of queerness and queer identity into everything he's a part of ♡

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why is he so stiff and why does he only know two poses. maybe let’s let him prance around a little bit to create some dynamicism cuz every picture i’ve seen so far has been 🧍or a hand in the hip

hudson williams sir there’s gotta be more than that…pop a hip maybe? i know you can

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im actually gonna cry at hudson's met gala outfit actually. the eye makeup the dueling masculinity and femininity on each side the EYE MAKE UP his HAIR the soft baby blue foundation of his suit the little peek of tummy. the beautiful train and earring and pink eye makeup on the feminine-esque side. this means so much to me actually.

like yeah okay serve that boygirl genderful realness my beautiful monarch hudson williams

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when i think about how long hollanov hid their relationship from the world and each other and i feel the urge to hurt myself and others like it was so long before they could even Be together for an extended period of time let alone be out to people oh my goddd

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now that the song is out, six missed calls by lumï is very shane to me and has always been even before its official release. when listening to this song, i'm always thinking of shane episodes like, 2-4/5 ish, shane before he gets really honest with ilya in ep5. shane who's still learning to be honest with everyone around him and himself, shane who has so much to him and is trying to hold it all in his rough 'n tough arms.

let's breakdown the lyrics with me and relate them all to shanexperiences everynyan ♡ because i'm still diseased about this show and shanebug ♡ ideas are a mix of fanon and show-canon!

six missed calls its 3 o'clock in the morning didn’t notice street lights on buildings growing taller feeling smaller

shane being too in his own head and distracted to notice the phone calls from ilya/hayden/his parents wondering where he is, how he's doing, where he's been. can also be the Great Six-Month Ghosting of episode 2

too in his own head to notice any of his surroundings, looking up at the skyscrapers, feeling so beneath everything. almost like a what-the-fuck-am-i-doing-here moment. of course, shane knows he's worked hard to get here and knows he's deserving of it. but he does a lot more things than just hockey. i wonder how he feels about everything thrust upon him.

left the party early i felt like burden i really tried to stay

shane being overstimulated at a party/social event and feeling bad about it

or shane getting hurt and feeling so bad about his injuries (The Concussion) affecting not only him but the entire team

was observing every moment every word i said i wish i could have changed

anxious sensitive beautiful neurotic flower shane hollander

overthinking every sentence he says, hoping nothing gives him away as weird or stoic ("we didn't even kiss" obviously, but also whenever he's talking to his teammates, hayden teasing him all the time about "boston lily" even as he tries to vehemently defend himself, kinda just the entire latter half of e6 when he thinks his mom is disappointed in him and he's wondering what's wrong)

hoping people don’t notice his absence as he slips away (#irishgoodbyeshanehollander)

taken by the storm and i run but it's pulling me under i can’t seem to reach the quiet

desperately trying to carve a safe space for himself and constructing his barriers so that he can be comfortably alone

everything around him is too much, needing him under the water, not giving him time to breathe

i lose all control feeling numb all the noise now my body isn’t mine anymore

body is used to sell products, advertisements → permission to sexualize + own 

body used as a representative for asians → he’s not allowed to mess up or it reflects badly on the asian population

someone pointed out how he probably doesn’t know his “ethnic” languagg | growing up in canada, 3rd gen japanese, reflection of how disconnected he is from his culture

a lot of people are already looking up to him for a variety of reasons, and so his body belongs to the collective

till the sudden wave of silence

you guys can see how this is ilya right. ilya who quiets his thoughts and rising anxieties (bathroom scene e2, after they get caught + panic building at the dinner table e6), ilya who makes everything feels like its just the two of them even though it's almost never not

rays of light my eyes can barely open feel so swollen

shane waking up in rose's bed send tweet. not much needed for this one! i just like this verse and want to keep it in this post ♡

flashes of last night try to rinse it off but my skin’s stained like red wine on the carpet

i like to think of this verse as shane post-vegas. even though he's showered and clean, he's still got the scent of ilya on him

i love this song so much and i've just been waiting for its official release and now it's here so i get to share it with the void and talk about all the lyrics and how they relate to shane, the character of all time! i have many other songs that i feel are very hollanov/ilya/shane to me in a playlist. if you would like to read analyses on them...well, i'll probably do lyrics analyses anyways.

thank you for reading to the end if you do!（づ￣3￣）づ╭❤️～

[bearmets]

this edit changed my life. every clip is so perfect, and the song's beat almost being like them dancing around each other. and yet they're both the same; they both want each other, so, so much.

the first and second "you" repeats of their gazes at each other. the third and fourth "you" repeats with the date cards and them being together. they wanted each other for so fucking Long.

AND THE ENDING, with their i love yous being to "three little words, dedicate them to me, please make them personal, then say them to me".

please watch. its my favorite hollanov edit kind of ever?

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ohhh my god this tweet are you JOKING? he points at himself??? GODD it's almost like ilya's saying "it's me It's me who's always loved you. i always have loved you. i love you now. backward and onward." and shane coming in with the chin kiss just so overwhelmed by his love for ilya that he has to express it physically his love overflowing from his body and into ilya's.

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note during my heated rivalry rewatch back in january because of course and oh my good rookieoftheyear shane is so...young?? if that makes sense? like, i know everyone likes posting the clip of shane taking a shot in line with the other players at the awards ceremony after-party and the way he squints at the taste of alcohol but oh my god looking so close he really is just like "ooo Bleghhh" and it's so so cute i love him so much he's trying so hard ughhh. the flipping the glass over to match everyone else too like he's really just learning...

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childhood friends hollanov based off the movie monster (2023) where the rozanovs just moved into a new neighborhood for their father's work. ilya quickly becomes attached to the steady shane hollander when he joins the 5th grade class. shane talks little, mostly in his own world, but that only means every word he says is important because he mulls over them for so long. shane helps "translate" for ilya when he notices ilya's been outcasted too because he can read ilya's tone well, especially when they get close after bonding over their affinities for hockey. their individual attitudes towards hockey become more prevalent as time passes: ilya loves hearing shane talk, and shane likes having someone to talk to about it.

pinpointing monster (2023) specifically because of the pig's brain line at the beginning. throughout the movie, minato is still taking time to figure himself out, from his initial confusion to his introspective thoughts shared with his principal. he doesn't want to bring shame to his family and feels like something is inherently "wrong" with him ("my brain was switched out with a pig's!").....like how shane feels about himself. and yes, shane eventually comes to realize that there's nothing wrong with him for loving ilya and he becomes so, so sure of himself, like how minato comes back for yori and they escape together. there's something so beautifully liberating about shane's acceptance journey and trying so, so hard to carve a space for him and ilya to simply exist together.

ilya's isolation and connection to queerness is more open than shane's because he knew from much, much earlier and a big part of heated rivalry's story is that shane is figuring that side of him out. ilya's tightly controlled by societal standards, but he's more secure in his identity than shane is -- so i think he would resonate with yori more than minato. ilya pushes shane away because he knows they can't be together like this at all while they're in russia -> yori's forced to call himself "normal" and "fixed" from his effeminacy and queerness (before he recants, at least).

i have so many more thoughts about their parallels but will leave it at this for now because goshhhh

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it's like. i want to think that quiet life would suit hollanov and i want to see them live a peaceful life but that would literally unnerve the both of them to no end. their entire relationship is built off of tension and i really believe there always has to be some sort of tension for them to work. even when they both start playing for the centaurs (i'm a show watcher but have been book-spoiled), there's still the want to "do better" than the other through stats and play and all that stuff. leading a comfortable life of dilly-dallying domesticity just does not seem like them if that is the only thing in their lives.

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will smith eyebrow slit!

anon im a dog and you just spoke my favorite words what do u mean will smith eyebrow slit

i didnt even notice in the interview holy shit thank you boston

how did you know i also have a deep affinity for wsh like i do macklin thank you to whoever sent this holy shit wsh mention

hey anon come back talk to me more about wsh

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hello can someone make a compilation of /does anyone have/are there clips of toff rolling mack onto glass every pre-game it's so cute and i know they've done it a few times and i want them all in one place if not i will collect them myself #thankyou for your time