lets talk about splitting over and over again until you can physically feel that crack in your very being lets talk about getting so attached that even the slightest thought of them not being there is enough to send you into fits of hysteria lets talk about going against all your morals just to get approval lets talk about scrutinizing a conversation for days trying to pinpoint just where it all fell to peices lets talk about the dread you feel when you think that you will end up alone lets talk about the euphoria of being texted first lets talk about the days when it is a struggle to convince yourself that you fucking exist lets talk about loneliness you can feel in your bones lets talk about sobbing until your throat becomes raw and your eyes sting lets talk about going to outrageous lengths to attract even a moment of attention lets talk about desperately wanting to feel something besides anger, jealousy, fear, sadness, anything lets talk about the feeling that nothing will ever work lets talk about recognizing that awful pattern of behavior every time and realize you cannot stop it lets talk about being unsure if you can continue living like this lets talk about the feeling in your chest as you wait desperately for a response you dont know will ever come lets talk about the severe, ugly symptoms of bpd.
