i'm the kind of human wreckage that you love

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[avpdfox]

tavpdfw you feel like a faker because you dont have it the Absolute Worst. like “oh i went to class today, so i must not REALLY be avoidant. Doesnt matter that i couldnt even leave my room to get food the last four days”

[ihategingfreecss-deactivated202]

Perks of avpd: I don’t get into much drama Cons: literally everything else

[bisexualboygirlfriend]

i don’t think people realise how exhausting it is to have such rapid mood swings. like i’ve just cycled through 3 or 4 extreme emotions in about 5 to 10 minutes and I Am Worn Out.

[scornfluke-archive]

*hitting depression with a stick* i have to pass this class

[archivedkanamycine]

quinx squad going home from a bakery trip!! drawing this hurt me a lot, emotionally

i’m considering drawing an aftermath because i want to render more yummy food *________*…….

forgot to say, this’ll be a print at AX!

[sleepsie]

me when im about to say something really depressing and self-deprecating: yo

[1aju-archive-deactivated2017121]

me: haha im so mad that this person hurt me

me inside: reevaluating every single action that happened from the exact beginning of us interacting so that i can in some way blame it on myself because clearly, if someone hurt me, i did something wrong to deserve it 

[naixaie]

[galacticsonder]

the 4 trauma responses

black hole nothingness

WTF IS WRONG WITH THAT MOTHERFUCKER I’LL KILL THEM I’LL KILL THEM I’LL KILL THEM

hahaha wasn’t that fucked up lmao look at this meme i found

shaking in a corner rocking back and forth with a stuffed animal

[lifeisourcause]

u know when ur Depression Tired and it’s not like Lack Of Sleep Tired it’s a completely different thing it’s like….all the energy you’ve ever had has been drained from ur body and u don’t feel like u can handle any part of the world even if it’s just getting up to eat so Sleep Is the Only Option

[bpdgorl-deactivated20170916]

me: *doin anything at all* me: is this okay??? can i do this?? like that?? is it okay to do this like that?? am i doing this right???????

[sagongsa-blog]

[avpdkaneki]

me: i want someone 2 love me

someone: i love u.

me: u haD ME GOIN FOR A SEC BUD UR FUNNY

[recoveryinreach]

*me crawling through 67 fake personalities and foaming from the mouth* why won’t you love me?

[nuka-rockit]

Depression™! 

comes with multiple fun features such as:

exhaustion! but not enough to sleep just lie on the floor like a wet towel

whoops! shouldve eaten 2 hours ago

all food tastes equally boring! yeah that piece of old bread and 4 pickles will do

staring at the ceiling!

lose your train of thought every 5 minutes! whatever youre trying to do sure won’t get done anytime soon

every activtiy feels pointless! even your favourite hobbies. Especially your favourite hobbies!

loneliness! but also you feel like a burden to everyone you know so good luck with that

staring at the wall!

wearing the same sweatpants for 3 days straight! because who can be bothered? not you that’s for sure!

yelling at people for no reason! because now even their breathing annoys you 

staring at the wall some more!

Suddenly crying over tiny things! such as dropping your favourite pencil. it’s not even broken. but who gives a fuck!

ORDER TODAY! 

Or don’t. You’ll receive it either way!

because there is no escape!

[aewm]

me in the group chat:

[kidwhore]

repressed memories are so wild because like….. is there really something there? was the abuse worse than can be remembered? or is this just faked and are we lying to ourse