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Jack Chapmanās mother, Linda, has filed a wrongful death suit against Dylan Hafertepen,Ā Daniel Balderas Hafertepen, Charles Osborn, Matthew Scott, and Philip Myers.
Shout out to Blake Montgomery of The Daily Beast for reporting on Jackās death, Lindaās journey for closure and this zinger at the end of the article:
Be careful Seattleites, Dylan Hafertepen and the pups have re-emerged on the apps.
Daniel Villarreal of the Seattle Alt Weekly, The Stranger, has uncovered private messages from Dylan Hafertepen that contradict his public statements regarding his connection to silicone injections and his characterization of Jack Chapman.
Per Jackās (now deleted) Tumblr: "Master will decide when enough is enough. I trust his judgment and I think we're on the same page."
The Australian news program, The Project, has followed up on their initial report on Jack Chapmanās death.
Updates include:
Jackās updated death certificate which now lists his death as accidental,Ā caused by silicone injectionĀ and administered at Dylanās home in Seattle at 3AM.
This new information directly contradicts every single thing Dylan Hafertepen/ Chuck Osborne has told both the internet and Jackās mother, Linda Chapman.
Who administered Jackās final injection of silicone and under what circumstances?
Daniel Villarrealās amazing investigative report on Jack Chapmanās death via silicone injections (and Dylan Hafertepenās involvement) made the front page of The Stranger.
The cover features a haunting image of Noodles and Beef.Ā Seattleites can now pick up a physical copy. Can someone grab one for us?
Jack Chapmanās death (and Dylan Hafertepenās involvement) has made national news over at the New York Post.Ā
No new information, but the fact that Jackās story has reached mainstream US Mainstream Media is a very big deal.
Hereās a higher quality version of the news segment from The Project.
Jack Chapmanās mother, Linda Chapman, shares her grief over the death of her son and being left in the dark about his abuse. She also bravely confronts Dylan Hafertepen when he comes to deliver Jackās ashes.
One important thing learned from this segment is that Jack left an inheritance of $200,000 AUD to Dylan (according to the will he signed just a few weeks before his death).Ā
During the confrontation, Linda asks Dylan if her family will receive that money. His response,Ā ānot with this animosity.ā He says this with a straight face to a grieving mother.Ā
Itās clear he began his attempts to manipulate SEO on his name when he got back from Australia.
Daniel Villarreal of the Seattle Alt Weekly, The Stranger, has done an incredible investigative report on Dylan Hafertepenās connections to the deaths of Jack Chapman, Joe Quader and Peter Dovak.
Villarreal covers:
Jackās cause of death with an updated death certificate
interviews Peter Dovakās boyfriend Robert Waltman
confirms Joe Quaderās suicide
interviews Jackās friend Arman Ellis (the friend who clipped Jackās padlock)
the entire story so far
Anyone with any information or close ties to Dylan Hafertepen or Jack Chapman should contact Linda Chapman.
Is it worth asking the question: how did Jack get the silicone injection(s)? Did he see a doctor, or did Dylan do it himself?
He said he knewĀ āa champ in Sacramentoā, obviously someone Dylan knew. Much like how he knew Joe Quader and connected him with Peter Dovak for silicone injections.
Linda Chapman (Jackās mother) opens up about being left in the dark regarding Jackās condition and passing on the Australian news program, The Project. She even confronts Dylan Hafertepen and his slave Chuck. Itās clear that Dylan began updating his website and manipulating the SEO on his return from Australia.Ā
Update:
You can watch the full report here.
Dylan now appears to be trying to fool search engine algorithms by posing his website (which previously served as a memorial to Jack) as a cooking recipe resource, tying in the words āsiliconeā so it looks innocuous.
Anyone interested in exploring noodlesandbeefās sites please use this link:
https://donotlink.it/Qpw9
Do not allow him to manipulate SEO.
When Jack was ousted from Dylanās inner circle, Dylan refused to hand over the key to Jackās chain collar. He had to wear it throughout the entire time he attempted to remove himself from Dylanās control.Ā
Hereās a video of Jack finally destroying the collar at Home Depot with help from his friend and a bolt cutter.
Jack Chapman
Previously: Dependence, Fuck it, Iāll Name Names, Tank
My friend Jack Chapman (@brandedbulltank) died last week. Iāve been going back through our texts, old photos, and talking with his friends. There are a few things I havenāt said before thatā¦ I think I need to say now. And there are some things that need clearing up.
His Name
When I knew Jack, he was Tank Chapman; later, he took Dylanās (@noodlesandbeefās) last name, becoming Tank Hafertepen. The name Tank was important to him, and something that he expressed joy and pride inābut it was also a marker of Dylanās control and erasure of his identity. This is a complicated matter, because Jack eroticized a lack of control, but one of his closest friends told me that he expressed a desire to change his name back to Jack. Thatās what Iāll call him here.
His Death
A friend of my Sir pulled the death certificate in Seattle. Jack didnāt die as a result of an āundiagnosed lung conditionā. He died because of silicone poisoning. He was not, as Dylan claimed,Ā alive on Tuesday. He wasnāt ārather upsetā about the rumors of his death, and he didnāt care about finding out who spread them. He wasnāt āstudying for the GREā. He had been dead since Monday morning.
I donāt know how long Jack was in the hospital, and I donāt know what his experience was like thereābut I know that Dylan isolated him and kept his death from his friends, and that makes me deeply uncomfortable. I donāt know if Jack would have wanted privacy, or how he would have felt in those final days, but if he did want his friends there, I know they would have been there for him.
Submission & Abuse
Jack was deeply submissive, and found joy, love, and belonging in his relationship with Dylan Hafertepen (@noodlesandbeef). He eroticized an uncommon level of physical and emotional domination. It was difficult for me to tell whether Jackās relationshipāinvolving behavioral restrictions, physical changes, reverence towards his master, and deep shame at disappointing himāwere hallmarks of abuse, or a part of a healthy Master/slave relationship.
Many submissive boys struggle with depression and other mental health issues. When Jack expressed feelings of shame and inadequacy, or negative feelings towards Dylan, I was unsure as to whether these feelings were caused by his relationship, or whether Dylan was doing his best to be there for a man in the grips of a depressive episode. And when Jack returned to Dylan, and expressed happiness at being accepted into the family again, wellā¦ maybe it was all right after all.
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Because of this ambiguity, it took years for me to decide that Jackās relationship with Dylan was abusive. Finally, Jack told me he was being abused; that he was scared, that he needed to escape. He told other friends he was being abused. And while much of Dylanās manipulation remained subtle and ambiguous, he took concrete actions which cannot, I feel, be interpreted as a part of a healthy Dom/sub relationship: he isolated Jack from his friends, and used legal and financial threats to reassert control when Jack tried to leave.
In December 2016, Jack told me he needed to get out of the relationship, that he was scared of Dylan, and expressed concern for Dylanās mental health.
Keep it to yourself, but for my own sake I need to develop an exit strategy for myself.
[Iām] scared of him. Also I know in leaving I wonāt be able to talk to my other partners.
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In March of 2017, Jack left the relationship. Dylan threatened Jack with small claims court if he talked about the relationship Jack told me that Dylan had covered his rent as a gift, and that gift unexpectedly became a loan when he left. The $4700 Dylan sought, roughly 1.5% of Dylanās annual income, would have completely wiped out Jackās escape fund.
I had to get out of that to save myself
He threatened me last night, that if I talked about our relationship heād take me to small claims court.
His desire for control runs deep. But I know that my silence is his power.
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Like many of Jackās friends, I didnāt talk about this publicly out of respect for his privacy, and concern over possible repercussions for Jack and the other subs in Dylanās family. With Jackās death, that ethical calculus has shifted. I think a lot about this line:
I emotionally backed off when I knew he could fill me with so much shame that I would either have a nervous breakdown or dissociate from myself.
Jack told @sirssoutherncomfort, another of Dylanās former boys, about the threats as well.
He [made] me promise him (under duress) that I wouldnāt speak to anyone about our relationship, otherwise he would take me to small claims court.
@macrophile-and-cheese saw the same thing.
Itās an intimidation tactic to prevent me from speaking about our relationshipā¦ [He] is extremely manipulative and abusive
And Tanner Gittens:
I reached the limit of what I could take. He was being emotionally abusive, making me feel awful constantly, walking on eggshells - spending all my mental energy keeping him happy and failing.
A mutual friend told me that Jack invited him over for dinner, and announced that he was returning to Dylan. Nobody I talked to knows exactly what happened, or why he went back, but we knew we had to be careful. Jackās longtime friends found themselves blocked after having spoken out too strongly against Dylan. Others, like Tanner, received strange apologies from Jack:
Hey Tanner, I just wanted to express to you that in the past I have said things about Master Dylan that have been unfair, cruel, and mean. Over time I have come to recognise that I am the origin of so much of the hurt that has existed between him and I, and feel that in trying to make things better I need to take responsibility for some of the things that I have done, and to take back some [of] the hurtful things that I have said about him.
Hi Tanner, I just wanted to go back to the apology that I made the other day. I donāt think it went far enough. Everything I said was more than just spite, they were malicious lies with the intention of damaging both him and his reputation. Master Dylan has not done anything wrong except making the mistake of trusting me, and for that I am sorry - to both you and him.
So we expressed our cautious support, and reassured Jack that should he ever need to talk, weād be there for him. Iāve done a lot of second-guessing this past week: if Iād checked in more, pushed harder, would he have made it out for good? Would he be alive?
I donāt know. Probably never will. Jackās isolation was such that many of us donāt know much about his last year. I very much doubt weāll get the truth from Dylan.
As Leathermen we play with fire, both physical and emotional. What makes this practice ethical is the enthusiastic consent of all parties. What makes it healthy is the exploration, healing, and flourishing of the spirit. What Dylan did to Jack denied his consent and isolated him from the friends who offered him support. I donāt think it was healthy S/M. I think it was abuse.
Where Do We Go From Here
Dylan has four other boys who are in the family proper. While their stories are their own to tell, I suspect they may face similar challenges as Jack. They are also, I imagine, grieving the loss of their partner and friend. They deserve our understanding and support.
In the past, Dylan maintained a rotating group of ~4 uncollared subs in addition to the 4-5 publicly acknowledged pups, whom he groomed for service. Dylanās standard practice was to prohibit these boys from revealing his identity as their Dom, and often they were unaware of how many other boys there were. Look out for your friends with mysterious Doms they canāt talk about. Remind them that while a relationship with a Dom can be fun and exciting, it shouldnāt cut them off from their friends and family, and they should alwaysĀ be free to walk away.
Dylanās been something of an open secret in the SF and Seattle leather communities for years now, but weāre a fractious lot, and the whisper network is slow, incomplete, and often vague. Thatās part of why Iām publishing these conversations with Jack now: to provide a specific point of reference for people the whisper network doesnāt reach.Ā
As queer people, our friends and chosen family are a powerful force. Iām thankful that Jack shared his love with so many, and heartened that so many of his friends offered him their unconditional support. Thereās so much I donāt know about Jackās story, butā¦ he wasnāt alone. You arenāt either.
Talk about abuse with your friends and family. It can be hard to recognize even when itās happening to you, but the Center for Relationship Abuse Awareness has a good checklist of warning signs. If you or someone you know is scared to leave a relationship, if threats or coercion continues after youāve withdrawn consent, if your partner isolates you from your support network, check in with a friend. Make a plan. Get help.
Jackās admission of the fear he felt as a pup and his exit strategy during the initial breakup.
Noodles and Beef - Rules and Responsibilities for his Pups
Obtained from an archive of Jackās tumblr.Ā
Highlights
āAs a pup progresses deeper into his subspace, a pup may find his ability to create words and coherent sentences is diminished, whimpering and grunting are usually considered adequate substitutions.ā
Key word here is āsubspaceā. This a text book example of thought reformĀ (methods used to manipulate people). We see how much this deeply impacted Jack in a now deleted post where he discusses hisĀ āsubspaceā:
Subspace: A Home Away from Home.
Hi there, this is my shrine. I keep it to remind me of the most important thing in my life, and the most beautiful thing in my world: my Master. Itās not as good as the real thing. but nothing is *blush*.
Anywhere I look, I see love, beauty, and a life filled with wonderful experiences shared with fantastic people. It fills this pup with subby feelings, happiness, and that youāre not so far away.
The colours pop, and it makes this tiny apartment feel a bit more like home. I love it - but there is always more to add to it š
Youāre my light. Youāre my world. Youāre my everything. I love you so very much <3. Thank you for allowing me to worship you, Master.
"A pup will identify as any name that his Master bestows upon him. If the name sticks, the pup will be encouraged to change the name legally."
Dispensing with identity allows for easier thought reform and control.Ā Then comes the physical and emotional control.
A pup is to be completely emotionally dependant upon his Master. Master has the power to lift his pupās spirits to extreme highs as well as bring them down as required. Short times away from oneās Master will make a pup feel uncomfortable, long periods away are enough to cause extreme mental distress.
Master has explicit body goals for his pup regarding their weight, their muscle mass, their measurements and their proportions.
Physical and emotional conditioning come hand in hand. Which allows for the acceptance of outright abuse.
A pup is to relinquish his salary to his Master, who will ensure the money is securely saved. Every week/fortnight a pup will get an allowance loaded onto a prepaid card, this allowance will be both based upon the pupās performance and anticipated needs in the coming weeks. Master has the right to view his pupās transaction history at any time.
Additionally, a pup will submit to all orders for body modifications, including piercings, tattoos, scrotal saline inflation as well as body growth supplements including steroids and HGH - in accordance to the wishes of the Master.Ā
Thoroughly physically, mentally and emotionally conditioned pups then lose any resource or agency to protect themselves or remove themselves from the abusive situation.
This is Charles Manson with a grindr account. This is Jim Jones if he threw circuit parties.
Anyone claiming Jack consented to this is in the wrong.
Looks like noodlesandbeef deleted his Reddit account. Here are a few screen shots of him discussing his steroid use, his love of ābreaking men,ā and his desire to make people dependent on him.
Silicone Kills
TL;DR - large-volume silicone injection kills healthy young men
Iām wading into this on my own page because when I heard of Tank/Jackās sudden passing, it really sent me reeling - not because we were close, but because Iām an acquaintance of Dylan and a few of his household members. I know what itās like to lose an emotional intimate suddenly, and I wouldnāt wish that on anyone. My initial response was that of sympathy and compassion because thatās what decent people do when a family experiences a loss.
The other thing that struck me - hard enough to make me stop what I was doing - was the reported mechanism of his demise: a āpreviously undiagnosed respiratory conditionā that was rapidly fatal and untreatable in a modern medical context.
As some of you know, Iām living with lung cancer, and in the last year, Iāve had an intense education in oddball pulmonary conditions of the young and seemingly healthy, like me. The number of potentially fatal conditions that a young immunocompetent guy can develop or have worsen dramatically between Folsom and October 15th is pretty small and all are horrific.
Iām not an MD, but let me walk you through my thinking.
Jack looked good in photos from Folsom - specifically, he didnāt look blue-lipped, gaunt, bloated nor, most importantly, did he have clubbed fingertips. So he didnāt have something like congestive heart failure or end-stage pulmonary hypertension. He also had enough performance status to be mobile, so he wasnāt on deathās door by conventional measures. Lung cancer was right out - aside from being rare (but not unheard of) in young nonsmokers, you donāt go from āmild coughā to ādeadā in two weeks.
So Jack presumably died of an acute respiratory illness - not something heād been living with from birth or years. His exercise tolerance historically is well documented - people with profoundly diminished lung function typically do not crush it at the gym. Dying quickly from a lung problem is usually what is known in the literature as ARDS - acute respiratory distress syndrome. Itās like saying āorgan failure of the lungā, and once you get to that stage, itās commonly fatal - even if youāre young and healthy, itās overwhelming.
So what could cause his ARDS? The two broad categories are inflammatory and infectious causes. Respectively, these are known as pneumonitis and pneumonia. Pneumonitis is an inflammatory response to lung insults, and pneumonia is a pneumonitis caused by lungs getting infected with a microorganism.
Pneumonia you develop while not hospitalized is routinely fatal if youāre very young, very old or very sick. The number of healthy young people who develop an untreatable pneumonia is vanishingly small. Jack was treated at a hospital with an exceptional pulmonary medicine program - Iām a patient there myself and they are fully prepared to handle even the direst situations. So barring some incredibly exotic superbug and a very late presentation, survival is more likely than not in the young and healthy. His similarly young and healthy family members living in close quarters arenāt symptomatic either. This puts lung infection on the back burner.
So now Iām thinking inflammatory pathology. What are the things that can cause an overwhelming bronchiolitis or pneumonitis that arenāt pneumonia and that canāt be successfully halted enough to let the lung tissue recover when someone is in a well-equipped hospital environment and was OK enough to walk around a few days before? Itās a super small list. Almost all of the causes of massive lung inflammation are either chronic in nature, extraordinarily rare or not relevant (my assumption was that he wouldnāt have industrial exposures to toxins, he didnāt have recent radiation therapy, etc). If it was something like a medication reaction or other brief exposure to a toxin, you can usually halt administering the causative agent and steroid the fuck out of the patient and they get better. If it was caused by sepsis, an infection outside the lung throwing off enough inflammatory factors to damage lung tissue, the steroids would help the lungs while the antibiotics or antifungals or antivirals got the fire under control. If it was a chronic inflammatory condition like lupus, it would be rare AF to have a flare this severe that wasnāt responsive to treatment. All these things are rare in a healthy young person.
So after pondering this, I was left with āWhat can cause a massive inflammatory response that is resistant to treatment and progresses to ARDS despite optimal medical care, that wasnāt impacting his life much two weeks ago?ā
I was aware of Jackās body mods - I have social media and two functioning eyes. I was instantly curious if, aside from the risks caused by hitting a vein during silicone injection, if there was an evidence base for silicone-induced bronchiolitis or pneumonitis months to years after the original large-volume injection of silicone oil.
It didnāt take long to come up with dozens of papers and case reports - the risks of lung disease caused by silicone oil migration have been understood since the mid 1950s, which led to the later development of encapsulated breast implants. Women who had capsule failures suffered similar injuries with remarkably similar courses of disease progress and death.
So Tuesday night, I speculated that the cause of Jackās death would ultimately be determined as migrated silicone leading to bronchiolitis leading to ARDS and death. The reason nothing could be done is that thereās not a single pool of silicone that can be magically removed - itās distributed through tissue and in pockets and will continue to insult the lungs beyond the ability to treat the inflammatory reaction. Thereās no substitute for the human lung and transplants would be impossible due to the silicone oil throughout the body, the contamination found in silicone oils and the lack of mechanism to capture and remove it.
This was, of course, all speculation on my part. Iām no MD, I didnāt have access to the imaging, and Iām looking from the sidelines from very incomplete information.
This morning, I was shocked to receive a photograph of what I have good reason to believe is an authentic King County death certificate. I have personally known the source for over twenty years and have no reason to question his integrity or motives. I have the unredacted version and I alone obscured certain personally identifying information of Jack and other parties. I have not seen the underlying medical records nor have I used any protected information from any source.
The cause of death is precisely as I speculated: silicone-induced lung injury leading to pneumonitis, progressing to ARDS and death due to alveolar hemorrhage - the smallest air exchange tissue became so damaged it could no longer maintain a barrier between blood liquids and the gas in the lungs. The inflammatory response turned a gas-permeable membrane into a useless sieve.
This is tragic and senseless and awful. No one deserves to die in pursuit of an aesthetic āidealā.
Iāve spent the past year since my diagnosis vocally advocating for lung health - Iāve begged people to stop smoking cigarettes, Iāve congratulated them for doing so, I encouraged people to avoid exposure to wildfire particulates and I remain committed to all these ways of protecting these vital yet under-appreciated organs. I admit I wasnāt aware of a lung angle to silicone body modification last week, in the same way I wasnāt aware I was at risk for lung cancer last year.
Today, that all changes.
My goal with this post isnāt to kink-shame anyone. My goal is simple: I want to make men aware that large-volume silicone injection can be fatal - not just during and immediately after the procedure - but as a ticking time bomb for decades to come. It is irreversible, a proximate cause of an untreatable clinical syndrome that can lead to a horrible death and there is no way to make it safe.
Iām not here to figure out what would lead someone to engage in extreme modifications, who did this to Jack or assign blame. There are people closer to this. Iām here to say that this happened, an MD signed her name to the diagnosis and that nobody can engage in ābrand protectionā activity to change it.
I recognize that by leaking this, Iām risking some social opprobrium from the brand and his fan base. I just donāt fucking care. I donāt attend circuit parties. I donāt do Folsom. I donāt need acolytes. I care about lung health for good and well-known reasons. I care about my friends grieving the loss of a good man. I care about men on the Internet Iāll never even meet that are considering this type of body mod and come across my words in years to come.
Jack, your death is not in vain. Regardless of the consequences, I and others like me will use this tragic outcome to warn others that large-volume silicone injection is potentially fatal even years after the last injection, and make it socially unacceptable to promote or glamorize it in any way.
Rest In Power, Jack
