Sick masochistic lamb

Digital Diary

[beaubat]

Vent blog/diary

Hi this is my sideblog for more personal/venty/casual things. So be aware u may find triggering content on here, don’t like? don’t interact.

You can call me Bella/Beau here, i am 18, she/any prns and i’m a lesbian. I am also an age regressor(involuntarily) and otherkin. I am diagnosed with Major Depressive disorder and i suspect i also have ADHD. If you can’t tell already i heavily kin Bella Swan.

Fandoms: The Twilight Saga, The Hunger Games, The Long Walk, The Pitt, Yellowjackets, project Hail Mary. I’m in a few more but these are the ones I talk about the most.

I really like hiking, being by the ocean and reading, I find it relaxing. I’m a huge nature girlie!

This blog will just probably have a mix of Vents, life stuff, moodboards/edits and headcanons. It’s just a place for me to mind dump, A digital diary basically. Posts may be a little erratic.

BYI: I may post some things abt my sh recovery journey and dealing with major depressive disorders and other things, if this is a problem to u block the tags or ignore my blog idk.

[beaubat]

letting a minor miscommunication ruin my fucking day someone put me down

[love-ardour-anarchism]

Big shoutout to anybody who's fucking struggling right now who having just a real dogshit trying time right now anybody who's staying alive anybody who's staying sober anybody who relapsed but is moving forward anybody who is choosing harm reduction anybody who is seeking support when they need it anybody who is trying their best anybody whose best doesn't look that pretty right now anybody who's fucking sick and tired and doing it anyway

shoutout to the weirdos, to the struggling, to the dykes, the fags, the queers, the trannies and the cripples

shoutout to those flaring up and forced to cope to anybody who would really like to just not give a fuck but knows thats not an option to anybody who's exhausted to anybody who's alone or feels alone to anybody putting off the bad shit for just another day to anybody who's taking a nap instead of doing something permanent

I love you, the world's a fucking mess but it's a fucking better place with you in it

[chanceofbrainstimz]

hi hi!!! can i make a stimboard request please? id really love a bella swan from the twilight movies stimboard with No Slime and No Dividers but please put a gif of her in the middle of the board! 🥹 and i’d really appreciate fall themes & age regression themes for the stims please!!!!! <3

I was having trouble finding agere stimz that I felt fit her, so I went with some plushiez

🌊⭑🌄⭑🍂

🐇⭑🪽⭑🦌

🪟⭑🍁⭑🛣

[beaubat]

Bella would totally own the smude lamb jellycat

[beaubat]

[beaubat]

i can’t even hold a knife in my hand during dinner without getting the urge to just slice myself

[beaubat]

Bella Swan with self harm scars just makes sense

[loverslamb]

when you can live forever, what do you live for? 🍎

[ezzakennebba]

I'm soso sorry but may I request winter depression Bella

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[suitfer]

bella: where are your fangs?

[beaubat]

mfs will say “i’m getting better!! i quit!” and then move onto a different equally harmful coping mechanism

[beaubat]

[karazorsel]

#continued crash out NEW MOON (2009)

[twilight-sagas]

In the Olympic Peninsula of northwest Washington State, a small town named Forks exists under a near-constant cover of clouds. It rains on this inconsequential town more than any other place in the United States of America. It was from this town and its gloomy, omnipresent shade that my mother escaped with me when I was only a few months old.

[beaubat]

The nagging voice in my head telling me to relapse and cut deeper next time

[charismatic-cannibal420]

bitches on Twitter say small sesh and then show their leg hanging off by a singular tendon 😭😭