Beyond-my-thoughts

Wanderlust 👣 •In love with a bad boy with a good heart• Music is the gateway to the soul.

[thememedaddy]

me irl

[johnathan-armanithan]

[parkchanwoohoo]

[omisan]

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #5326

  Because I don’t want my soulmate to be all alone out there without me. – Guest Submission

(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)

[protypepub]

“It was not until I kept silent and heard every heartbeat that I realized that our hearts were in sync. This ended my search for my soul mate, you are right here next to me. Our hearts beating as one.”

— Tanya E. Munroe 

[thememoryofwhoiwas]

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[silk101]

damn a bitch be feeling empty as fuck sometimes

[meanplastic]

[toastbutteregg]

[naslostcontrol]

Mutaz Essa Barshim and Gianmarco Tamberi decided to share the title in the men’s high jump.

[niihiiil-deactivated20210913]

this . :)

[balkanica]

this is the only sports content you’ll see me posting because it’s so fucking sweet of them

[carryonmywaywardcaptain]

I went and looked up the clip just to get a better feel for what happened. I knew the ending, I knew what was coming, and I still got chills and almost cried.

THIS IS THE KIND OF WHOLESOME HUMAN CONTENT I LOVE TO SEE ON MY DASH.

[chase-your-dreams-away]

[annathesillyfriend]

this is incredible I love it I wish them all the best 🥺🥺

[wordsmithic]

IT GOT BETTER

[besteurope]

Paris - France (by Ben Ramirez) 

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I remember once hearing a 40 year old tell me she had been depressed since 15.

I was 14 at the time. And back then I thought to myself, "it can't really last that long, can it...?"

I'm 20 now, and I'm still as depressed as I was back then. And it doesn't seem to ever stop.

I was wrong. Very wrong.

This pain feels endless.

[impaulsiveschizoid]

You know what sucks? Having a breakdown over something you KNOW is stupid. Like it’s still making you feel sick, and beyond upset but you can’t tell anyone because you KNOW its ridiculous and no one will GET it so you just lay there suffering and wanting to cry with no out put or way to fix or work through the feelings.

[fckawrytr]

I wasn’t looking,

But I was lost,

If anything,

And you walked right up like you knew me all my life,

Like “Oh there you are!”

You found me,

By chance,

Exactly where I shouldn’t be,

Exactly where you didn’t mean to be,

But maybe right where we were meant to be.

[the-sun-moon-stars]

“And like the moon we must go through phases of emptiness to feel full again.”

— Unknown

[wishing-for-deathx]

Things no one tells you about when you’ve been mentally ill for years and it won’t get better

— everyone will give up on you. Some will say it upfront, some will have indirect ways of showing it (you’re a lucky mf if you still have someone )

— your symptoms/ breakdowns/ panic attacks are cute for a few months. Everyone wants to help. Later on people find them annoying and inconvenient

— you will be blamed for not getting better. Doesn’t matter if you’re doing therapy, taking meds, exercising, eating well and sleeping. You can do all of it, some of it or none of it. They will find fault in your efforts.

— desensitization to your pain. This one isn’t their fault, it’s human nature. But it happens and yes it hurts cuz you would wish you were desensitized to your own pain but you have to feel it no matter what. Doesn’t matter if it’s the millionth time. It demands to be felt.

— people move on. But you can’t. You see people cope and get over things while you simply can’t. And it’s so much worse if you’ve been mentally ill for years. Even the smallest things break you and trigger you.

— you slowly realize this world isn’t made for mentally ill people in any way

— you’re tired / fatigued all the time. You have been for years now. You simply exist but you aren’t capable of living anymore. Your illnesses have taken everything that made you feel alive. You’re nothing but a shell. A body.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[deadbyinsidee]