My first CNC (consentual non-consent)
“I can’t believe it’s finally going to happen” I thought to myself as I was maticulously preparing for the night.
We had talked for weeks…or was it months? It felt like we had known each other forever. This was it..the first meet and it was going to be a rape! I was excited and a little surprised at how at ease I was with it all. I really wasn’t nervous at all while I finish up the last of my make up.
I get in the car and start the drive there “please let me get there first” I thought to myself. I called to see what time he thought he’d be at the hotel. He hadn’t left yet. “Good, I’ll be early and have a little time to mentally prepare.”
The drive seemed to take forever and my mind went spinning out of control the closer I got. “Am I really meeting some guy off the internet? What if he’s not who he’s said he was? I just told a man to rape me that I’ve never actually met before! What the hell did I get myself into!?” The fear started creeping up on me. There was an internal war raging inside me. My head was saying “this is crazy and dangerous! Turn around while you still can!” And my pussy was saying “don’t you dare back out now! We’ve been waiting way too long for this!”
As I am struggling to keep control of the debate happening inside me, he called. “I’ll be there in 10 mins, are you sure you want to go through with this?” Everything inside me stopped. Time just stood still..I was frozen in confusion. Moments passed and I couldn’t answer his question.
Finally I had come back to reality. “ Yes I want to do this, but I’m struggling with if it is a good idea.” I say shyly. “I trust you and want you to rape me but at the same time there is a part of me that is worried”
His response was better than anything I could have hoped for… “Well if you’re not sure we can always just meet and have a normal first date with no sex or rape play or any of that. I want you to be sure and I need to know this is what you really want. I’m not going to force anything on you that you’re not ready for.” He pause for a moment and then I hear “don’t get me wrong, I’ll force myself inside of you and I’ll force you to do things you haven’t even thought of yet, buy only if you want me to.”
That was it..everything I was worried about, every thought of danger or fear was gone. I knew I was ready and I knew I could trust him. “I needed to hear that. I trust you. I trust you with my life.”
He somehow gets there before me and calls to tell me that when I get to the door and I ask to use the phone, that is his cue that I am there and I am ready, giving him permission to go ahead with the CNC. If I say anything else he will just invite me to come to chat.
I walk up to the door and before I can even knock, it opens. I ask if I can use the phone and the look in his eyes was pure excitement. “Sure come on in” he says and I take one step into the room. I’m not even all the way in and he grabs me by my hair and throws me onto the dresser. I was stunned. I wasn’t expecting it to happen so fast. I brace myself as I fall into the dresser and within a split second his hand was around my neck squeezing. Fear consumes me as I realize there is no way I could over power him or get away if this goes to far. The trust we established made that fear the most exciting feeling I’d ever felt. I was dripping wet as I feel him rip my cloths off me. His hand held me down by my throat while the other inspected every part of my body. As he rubs my cunt, he could feel how wet I was. He smiled and said “you are so wet! You want me to push my cock inside you, don’t you?” His hand around my neck preventing me from being able to answer. I tried to push him away with my feet. I grab a hold of his arm and push in an attempt to get out from under him.
Apparently this was not the right choice. He picked me up and threw me on to the bed. Stunned I layed there. “Did he really just throw me like a rag doll!?” I thought. I was shocked and terrified at the realization of just how strong he was. Before I could recover from shock, he had me turned with my head between his legs.
“open up bitch!” He growled as his dick was slapping my face.
I shake my head no and seal my lips. Again…wrong choice. He slapped me so hard my eyes went fuzzy and then continued to smack my face with his dick. “Don’t make me ask again! I promise you’ll regret it!” Fear and instict took over and I opened my mouth. “Bite me, and you won’t have teeth left when I’m done with you!” He slides his hard long hard cock in my mouth. He pauses for only a moment before he pushes it down my throat. He is so big I can’t help but gag as he forces deeper and deeper. My body shakes with fear as he continues to push himself in and out of my throat. He is careful not to pull out far enough for me to get a full breath. I can feel myself getting weaker as I struggle to breath and try to fight him.
Finally he pulls out of my throat and I take a long deep breath. I’m so focused on getting air back into my lungs, I don’t even notice him get on the bed. As I inhale my second deep breath he puts his hand around my neck and squeezes. I look up at him and can see he has no intention on going easy on me. My eyes begin to fill with tears and my face turns bright red. He holds my neck tight while he positions himself between my legs.
I try to push him away with my feet. He grabs my ankle and holds my leg off to the side. Reaching up to his hand around my neck, I feel him open my slit with the tip of his cock. I try pushing him off me and in an instant he is inside me. He is so big and feels so good. For a moment I forget that this CNC play and let out a moan. As my hand runs across his chest, feeling every muscle, I can feel myself close to climax. He sees me arch my back and slams into me so hard and so deep I cry out. In an attempt to keep him from slamming in again, I push on his hips. Again..wrong move! He slams into me so hard the whole bed slides. He pulls back and slams again. The pain is intense and the rush of being forced to take it is too much. I cum, hard, as soon as he slams into me again. I can feel my juices dripping out as he now has me bent in half with my feet by head. Each thrust pushing me deeper and deeper into submission, bringing me closer and closer to climax again. He continues to violate my pussy harder and deeper than before. Just as he is about to cum, he pulls out and grabs me by the hair. Holding my head in place he sprays his hot cum all over my face, wipping the last drops on my cheek. I lay there, spent and sore, for a few minutes before getting up to clean myself off.
As I walk out of the bathroom, he is waiting. Gently putting his arm around my shoulders he says to me “hi, nice to finally meet you. By the way, I’m Derick.”
*based on a true CNC play I had. It was one of the best experience I’ve ever had. We spent the next hour cuddling and talking.
