Broken Hearted Soul

Just another heart broken soul living in this god forsaken world!

[beautifulstruggle97]

Anyone up? It’s 00:47 here I need someone to talk to

[poems-and-word]

[bulimicbunnny]

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[sincerelymiri]

“You did your best to love them, in fact your best was to love them and so its clear that you did everything you could to shower them with your love. It’s so heartbreaking that they can’t seem to understand just how much you feel for them, it always is when people just can’t seem to accept the love you want to give them so badly. It doesn’t seem fair that they would rather accept people in their life who are wrong for them, bad for them and obviously so yet they’re always making clear to you that they will never choose you. For the ones who fell out of love, maybe you were in a relationship with them when it all went downhill. You tried your best to keep both of your heads above water but you can’t swim against a tide that doesn’t want you in it’s waves, same as you’re not going to be able to love someone who doesn’t want to be loved by you. I bet it has made you feel like you’re not good enough, I say that because it’s exactly how it made me feel when they were incapable of accepting the love I had to offer. I felt flawed, I felt unworthy of being loved because I felt my love wasn’t good enough, I felt as if I wasn’t doing enough, wasn’t trying enough; I eventually came to terms with the fact that it isn’t my fault. I did what I could, I always do and I’ve learned that regardless of how good you treat someone or how much you love them; they can still turn around and treat you as if you are absolutely nothing to you. For the ones who fell out of love, it’s okay and I understand you. I know it’s hard for you to admit that you fell out of love and I get it because it’s something that you never believed could happen, it never even crossed your mind until it happened. I guess one day you wake up and you realise that you deserve better and you want more from the people you’re involving yourself with. You’re allowed to feel this way, people change and so do their feelings; you’re human so for the ones who fell out of love; its okay.” - Sincerely, Miri

[sincerelymiri]

“It’s terrifying how quickly some people can walk out of your life without a bat of an eyelid, without a second thought about how it would impact you, it goes to show that I guess maybe they never really cared. When I came into your life, I guess you were already over your friendship with her so ours picked up. I should have known that it was going to happen to me too, you replaced her with me and then replaced me with her. If I had known that you were the type of person to treat genuine people in your life like they’re replaceable and keep fake ones in your life, I never would have gotten involved. You traded me in, a sad way to look at it yet so much truth. I gave you everything I had to offer, it became clear that you didn’t care when you didn’t give much notice to me as soon as she walked into your life. How you could give someone like me up for someone like that is beyond me, sometimes I think that decision just went right over your head. I understand though, for the ones they replaced I know what you’re going through and I get it because I’ve been through it too. The feeling of being replaced is gradual and painfully slow, you start to see all the signs before it actually happens. You just lie to yourself to convince your mind it isn’t actually happening but it is, it’s obvious and everyone can see it. And it might just be the scariest part about it, they just walk out of your life as fast as they walked into it; they live you behind because they found someone a lot better than you. You spend more time asking yourself why you didn’t say or do anything when you first saw the signs but you already know why, what is it that you could have possibly done that you weren’t already doing? For the ones they replaced, this experience doesn’t define who you are as a person. I believe in you, you are good enough and I am here for you.” - Sincerely, Miri

[sincerelymiri]

“You’re fed up, with everything and everyone. You just can’t take it anymore, you don’t understand what you’re doing so wrong for everything to fall apart and everyone in your life to walk away. You’ve done everything right, all the things that you could possibly think to do; you’ve done. For the ones who are fed up, these feelings of yours are valid and you have every right to feel fed up. We all get overwhelmed at some point, we all feel like giving up even after promising that you wouldn’t and we as time goes on; we all get fed up with everything and everyone in life. You’re human and this is normal, you’re only human and there is no need to feel guilty about these feelings. It’s okay and you’re going to be okay, I understand that right now you just want everything to stop so instead of that; stop what you’re doing, take a deep breath and let it flow. All the pent up tension and emotions you are feeling within you, let it all out and let it flow. Don’t allow things to bottle up within you, it’ll hurt your soul more in the long run then you realise and you don’t need that kind of pain in your life after everything you’ve already been through. Breathe, let it flow and then let it go. Release whatever no longer needs to live within you, I can guarantee you’ll feel better. For the ones who are fed up, I understand it and I understand you.” - Sincerely, Miri

[sincerelymiri]

“I found a key that I thought might be the one to open up the pathway that will take me to you, I tried it but it didn’t work. It never does, you’re so far from me that everything door I think might lead to you; leads to nothing.” - Sincerely, Miri

[sincerelymiri]

“I know you’re struggling with everything that’s going on in your life right now, it’s getting difficult for you to get through the days and nights that follow because the healing process it’s simply taking too long. I get it because it’s hard to accept all  the things you’re going through right now are happening for a reason, why does the bad things in life get to us even when we know deep down that everything is going to be okay in the end? For the ones struggling with the healing process, it is going to take time for things to start to feel as if they are getting better. Healing doesn’t happen overnight, there is a lot of energy that goes into it and you can’t get through expecting that things are going to get better the next day, healing will take time and that is okay because the truth is, all good things take time. You are going to survive whatever you are healing from and to anyone who needed to hear this today; you are going to survive whatever is trying to drag you down. It’s not going to win, you are. This will make you stronger, your healing process may take a little while but that doesn’t mean you aren’t healing. Celebrate all of your victories even if they’re small, getting out of bed in the morning is a victory and getting into bed at night after a long day is also a victory. For the ones struggling with the healing process, it’s going to be okay and you’re going to get through it.” - Sincerely, Miri

[sincerelymiri]

“I guess I should know better by now, nothing I do will ever be good enough for you and yet I keep trying to impress you. I keep fucking trying to be there for you, present in your life when I shouldn’t have to fight for a place to be in. You should appreciate me more but you do the opposite, of all the things I’ve achieved in my life you have found a way to tear them away from me. I’m 22, I’m still young and have my whole life ahead of me yet I feel like I have to get it all sorted out right here and now. You’re pushing me closer and closer to the edge, I would’ve jumped by now but I have too many people in my life who need me more than you, who deserve me even when you don’t. And so I stay but day in and day out, for goodness sakes you are making it fucking hard to do. I want to hate you, sometimes I think I do hate you but at the end of the day I never do. I hate the person you’ve turned me into and my biggest fear is turning into someone like you, there are times where I catch a glimpse of myself in the reflection of the mirror and I look like you so I hate myself all over again. I guess I should know better by now, nothing I do will ever be good enough for you and yet I still continue to try.” - Sincerely, Miri

[sincerelymiri]

“I know that deep down you want things to work out between us, of course I want the same thing but this part of me often weighs the pros and cons of you and I... it just makes me feel like I’m not making the right decisions when it comes to you, when it comes to us. I don’t like feeling that way but I don’t know how to make things any different.”

- Sincerely, Miri / unfinished

[thegoodvybe]

“I was the one who loved you even when you gave me thousands of reasons not to.”

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[horriblebeing-deactivated201906]

[lonely--nobody]

[insane131]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[sincerelymiri]

“My mind is in complete disarray, I don’t know what to do anymore. I wanted things to be different this time and that’s what you promised but maybe I had made a mistake in trusting you again. I didn’t want anyone to know about us, I wanted to save myself the hassle of doing the rounds of letting everyone in on us being over once again. I doubt anyone is surprised, I’m not either but I am disappointed. I’m disappointed in myself of course but I’m disappointed in you because I saw the progress that you had made and were in the middle of making. Now all I’m starting to see are patterns of hurt and betrayal, you’ll never be able to let it go but expect that I am to get over the pain you cause and continue to cause. Maybe this is my fault, I allow you to treat me this way and get away with it. It doesn’t matter what I do or what I say, you don’t care enough to care. I don’t know what hurts more, knowing that I have done all I can and still fail or knowing that you’ll never be able to see how much I love and care about you. I don’t know what to do from here, part of me feels like I should just shut up and be nice. That’s what you want isn’t it? You want a girl who is going to shut up and be nice but I guess I’m just not that girl for you.” - Sincerely, Miri