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Will always be a part of Clexakru, Aussie, located in NSW, Lesbian Just me, my writing and my life. Rookie Blue = Gail/Holly Shipper, the 100's both Clexa and Doctor Mechanic, Sanvers, Bechloe, Wayhaught, Avalance, Saula, Marina and Swarla shipper. You can send me prompt fic requests if you like and I'll try my best ;-)

[bec77broo]

Hi hi, do you still per chance write rookie blue fanfics? Haha

I do. I have updates written now. I just haven’t posted them. I have a few appointments this week that will wipe me out. I’m hoping to get them posted soon. Nice to know there’s still some interest.

[melloncolliegalaxies]

[bec77broo]

Sorry for my lack of posting my writing. Life is difficult sometimes. For example I have a sprained ankle, a broken toe, I had a fall yesterday and I think I broke my little finger on my left hand and about an hour after my fall I had to go have an injection in my spine to try and get some extra pain relief over Christmas. Oh and I had to have my pet bearded Dragon Euthanised today as she had terminal cancer from a malignant melanoma. And had lost a lot of condition over the last week. It doesn’t sound like a big thing but it was for me. I’ll do my best to get something up soon. Sorry for the whinge I just need to get it out I guess.

[bec77broo]

Would you consider writing Golly again? I have recently gotten back into the fandom after however many years and your writing was always a favorite of mine. Anyways, thanks for everything you wrote. I’m still enjoying it in 2022, hope you know your effort is appreciated

I am still writing Golly. I just have had a few things going on with my own pain with the damage in my back and my own health, most recent is I need to have an iron infusion cos I’m anemic. My mum had heart surgery to replace a valve last year and my dad is having a stent put in his aorta at the beginning of next month. So I’ve been a bit distracted and very tired which makes writing difficult. I do have enough to post a chapter on both of my current stories and will do my best to get them edited and uploaded as soon as I can. Thanks for asking. Thanks for the praise. Feel free to nag me, I don’t mind. Hope this finds you well.

Bec oxox

[iredreamer]

The fact that AW almost always says Anne's name when she says I love you? The way AL's face and whole being lights up at that? Or when she says "I love Y O U" with so much emphasis on the YOU part, as if she could NEVER phantom loving anyone else. did Mariana even said that? Or was it smth like "oh freddy; I love you so much" like... just ANNE LISTER being loved for her full self, not whatever version they need her to be to deal with their internalized homophobia. Love to see it

“I love you, Anne”

“I’m in love with you.”

“I always have been.”

the way her chin trembles, her smile, the tears in her eyes, the way she looks at Ann’s face, the happiness in her expression after hearing that Ann loves her for who she is, the way she gets closer to Ann, the fact that you cAN SEE ANN’S REFLECTION IN HER EYES!!!! I caNT–

[iredreamer]

So, since this ask was also about the difference between Ann Walker and Mariana when it comes to express their love for Anne Lister, and since @iswearfealtytolexa told me that she was the one to send the ask and that she would like my take on Marianna and how/if she loved Anne, I’ve decided to articulate a bit more on the subject.

I didn’t want to ruin the love radiating from that post 👆 so I condensed my thoughts about Mariana in the notes of my reply: #Mariana uses the I love you as an excuse to say hurtful things #she’s always like #you’ll never marry you’ll never find someone who will commit to you #I say these things because I love you #Oh Anne how embarrassed I am to be seen with you #but I endure it because I love you #and I’m like #no bitch #you’re just saying hurtful mean sad things #sHUT up

Those are basically my thoughts in a nutshell. Now, let me explain.

I think that the different way in which Mariana and Ann Walker express their love is not only a matter of characterization, it doesn’t only help us to see how different they are, but it is also one of the details that helps us feel how much history there is between Mariana and Anne.

Every time Mariana says that she loves Anne, every time she says “I love you”, her “I love you” is always linked to something else or used as A. an excuse to say harsh truths to Anne – ”I tell you these things because I care about you, because I love you.” [1x01] – or B. a way of comparing her love to Ann Walker’s love, with the intent to highlight that her love (Mariana’s) is better or greater. AL: “Well, good heavens, I’m surprised you ever bothered with me at all if that was the case.” – ML: “Because I loved you. I still love you, more than your Miss Walker ever would have done.” [1x07]

I think that Mariana loves Anne. She does. I just think that she loves her not in the way Anne wants/needs to be loved. Mariana argues that she loves Anne “more than” her “Miss Walker”. I personally think that love is like a switch, either you feel it or you don’t, loving someone “more than” is not the point, the point is loving them “right”.

The fact that Mariana doesn’t say “I love you” just to say it, but she uses it when “it’s needed” to make a point (“I love you more than…”, “I love you despite…”) says a lot about their relationship. They are at a stage where the “I love you”, on its own, is not enough. “I love you” is not enough to leave Charles, “I love you” is not enough to go and live at Shibden. And so Mariana has to prove her love in some other way: “of course I love you, my honesty proves it.”; “it’s clear that I love you because, despite your looks and your attitude that make me feel ashamed and embarrassed, I’m still here.” At the same time, her “I love you” is quite manipulative: she always says it right after having said some very hurtful things, making Anne sad and miserable. The “I love you” that comes right after temporarily soothes Anne’s wound, the wound that Mariana re-opened just seconds before. With Mariana and Anne we are watching always the same scene, we are hearing always the same “I love you”.

On the contrary every “I love you” Ann Walker says is a little different, and it’s different because she becomes more and more aware of the meaning and the implications of her feelings as the series progresses. Starting from the one she blurts out because she’s experiencing a strong sexual and romantic desire, every new “I love you” is said more firmly, more consciously, till the one on the hilltop where Ann is totally aware of her feelings and desires.

I particularly like this line: “I’ve been so in love with you. I always have been, ever since the first time I saw you when I was 18, younger! I think the first time I ever saw you I was 14 and then I knew then, I just knew…” I love how Ann Walker doesn’t even know how to explain or properly express her love for Anne, but she just knew. Ann Walker never says “I’m doing this because I love you”, “I’m saying this because I love you”, and she never does because (contrary to Mariana) she doesn’t feel the need to prove herself. All the other things (what people say, what people think, etc.) have nothing to do with her love for Anne Lister. Her love doesn’t depend on anything other than herself and her feelings. Ann Walker doesn’t feel the need to enrich her “I love you” with something else, her “I love you” is enough, as it should be. She doesn’t have to convince Anne Lister of her love.

Anne Lister doesn’t need (and doesn’t want) someone who loves her despite all the things she is, she just wants someone who loves her. And that’s what Ann Walker does. Ann Walker doesn’t love Anne despite or because of what she is or isn’t. Ann Walker just loves her, period.

I love you, Anne.

[bec77broo]

Melbourne Aquarium Witnesses Rare Reptile Gender Transition

In an extraordinary rare turn of events at Melbourne’s SEALIFE Aquarium, the crew has ascertained that a Boyd’s Forest dragon has transition

[bec77broo]

Happy New Year to all. Hope your all staying safe.

[bec77broo]

[bec77broo]

[ars0nism]

Pros of chubby gf

- soft

- nice hugs

- thigh pillows??? Tiddy pillows??

Cons of chubby gf

- none

Pros of skinny gf

- fits in ur arms rly nicely

- ur hoodies are too big on her which is beautiful

Cons of skinny gf

- none

Pros of muscled gf

- abs?? Biceps??? Please???

- strong gf pick me up pls

- most likely works out a lot which is hot

Cons of muscled gf

- none

[pipebomb-malewife-deactivated20]

Pros of a tall gf:

-she can reach everything

-she can wear those gorgeous and long swooshy dresses without drowning in the fabric

-she still rocks heels, I mean, hello??? Tall girls in heels??? Yes??? PLEASE?

- can curb stomp facist easily

Cons of a tall gf

-none, you’re just cowardly

Pros of a short gf

- I can give her piggyback rides

- she short which means I can pick her up randomly

- she’s got a better angle for throat punching facist

- great at stealing my clothes and wearing em

Cons of a short gf

- none

Pros of a disabled gf

- she’s still her own independent person

- she’s intelligent, often times having some of the most profound things to say that people often ignore because they’re stupid

-she’s got a unique lifestyle that’s gonna be best for her and she’s gonna live life as much as she can as comfortably as she can

-stronger than any US marine

-hates fascist

Cons of a disabled gf

-none

[lily-orchard]

Finally a Tumblr Post that speaks to me

[hilbeth]

Pros of an autistic gf

-She stims when she’s happy

-She tells you about her special interests

-She’s super knowledgeable about her favorite topics

Cons of an autistic gf

-none

[the-spawn-of-loki]

This makes me happy.

[brightlotusmoon]

Me, a short disabled autistic, who needs to be constantly reminded of this:

[naamahdarling]

Pros of an ADHD girlfriend:

- Endlessly creative and imaginative.

- Compassionate and understands you aren’t perfect.

- Beautiful mind that is always up to something fun.

- Adapts quickly to help u in a crisis.

- Can be very easy to surprise with flowers if distracted.

Cons of an ADHD gf:

- None

[bec77broo]

[randomregularmd]

Dr. Carina DeLuca x Captain Maya Bishop || Station 19

[booasaur]

Station 19 - 3x09

[booasaur]

Station 19 - 3x10

[booasaur]

Station 19 - 3x11

[fagapult]

From reddit.

[worshiptherain]

a note on the Australian bushfires

just like to spread any awareness i can about the current bushfire crisis in Australia.

Australia has been burning since late September/early November 2019 and over 280 homes have been lost just since New Year’s eve.

in 2019, the Amazon lost 900, 000 hectares of land and California lost 1, 800, 000 hectares of land. Australia has now lost 5, 000, 000 hectares.

almost a third of koalas in NSW alone have been killed, and a total of 500 million animals across Australia have been lost as well.

as far as we know, 20 human lives have been lost, including 2 of our amazing firefighters after their truck caught alight. it has been reported that 28 people are missing.

my heart breaks to see this happening, especially since it could have been prevented or at least delayed if proper actions and provisions had been put into place.

i cannot thank the aussie firefighters enough for putting their lives on the line for all of us. they are so amazing, brave and selfless and deserve so much more than what our Primeminister has promised them.

this is climate change, people. seeing it so close to home has made it even more real, and our right wing politicians continue to deny the issue.