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Me trying to explain to someone that doesn’t have Visual Snow about the static that covers everything I see.

Here’s a gif to demonstrate.

Imagine that, overlayed over your entire field of vision. Even when your eyes are closed. (especially when your eyes are closed.)

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*looks up from computer* now wait just one minute

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This is a real thing that exists, not intrusive thought. This is the reason I have glasses. I was a little kid, thought it was normal, tried to point them out to my mom, and she freaked out and brought me to an eye doctor. Where we found out I have shit eyesight. And also apparently where she learned what visual snow was.

But. She deicded. Not. To tell me.

(Like she’s also decided not to tell me or my twin that we’re autistic)

So it literally took me more than a decade to find a word for this.

Which is why I made this post.

She mentioned casually last year to her boyfriend that she learned I had visual snow when I was little and I’m jyst sitting there, having already painstakingly figured all of this out on my own like, “and you didn’t think that was worth explaining to me even when I brought it to your atfention?????”

So ueah.

It’s a thing. If you see staticy moving dots everywhere even with your eyes closed, you’ve got Visual Snow.

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I HAVE THIS!!~~ I tried asking my teacher in grade 2 what they were, and she just told me to drink water. Never went away. Wasn’t even studied until like 2013 or something. Sorta fun, mostly irritating!

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i have this too! no one explained it to me i just found out from a fuckinf sixpenceee post like a fool.

i just thought EVERYONE had static and floaters in their vision. and that afterimages were that bad for everyone.

like even if im not looking into a bright light or my eyes pass over something slightly bright i get afterimages that can be blinding. when i close my eyes i always have after images of anything reflecting even a little light. i didnt realize that was part of visual snow until last year

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here’s some more symptoms for anyone curious if they have this:

(illustration by Emily Roberts)

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now wait just a darn tootin moment here

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This… this isn’t how everyone sees…? This isn’t what normal vision is like…?

Are you telling me y’all just see straight black when you close your eyes or something??? You telling me that the world doesnt actually look just slightly low res? Like. Shadows aren’t all pixelated??? What??????

I… deadass thought that’s just how vision worked.

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me, as a child lining up stuff in rows: now this is how you have fun

Thing I do that I didn’t know we’re Autism Traits

As a Kid 0-16:

Though I would eat almost anything, I couldn’t deal with bits of fat on meat and such

Unable to eat without a drink, if I got thirsty I couldn’t eat and would avoid foods that made me thirsty (cookies, cake)

Long humming

Toe walking and sitting weird

Being VERY blunt (when I was 6-7, I told some non-religious friends they would go to hell because I heard that in church, yikes)

A love of textures and hands-on experiemnts

Special interests in rocks, space, and history

Hating hugs, and contact with strangers

Not being able to shout/going non verbal

MELTDOWNS EVERYWHERE

Being very literal (at age 4 I walked away from my grandma in public and wouldn’t come back even when she called because she jokingly told me to)

Body stims, singing, fiddling with things and toys, putting heavy books on myself, squishing myself into boxes

As an Adult 16-25

SO MUCH STIMMING (now I know I need to stim I do it more and make myself do it if I notice I’m stressed)

Chewing/self injury stims

Enjoying the same music over and over and over

Pressure stimming is still big

I follow my wife around the house a lot, without realizing

I sort and order my food (also did this as a kid but not as much)

I’ve noticed that a lot of times I’m upset and I don’t even know I am until my wife tells me I’m acting agitated

I walk with T-Rex hands at home, I’m not sure if I always did this

I now know I’ve been missing A LOT of social cues, even when younger

#beetalks #bee talks #asd #actually autistic #autism

Usually, I’m pretty good at tone and stuff but when I get depressed or really tired I go all flat and weird and it upsets my wife because (due to past trauma) she gets worried I”m angry at here. Autism struggles

#asd #actuallyautistic #autism #beetalks

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Back to School Stim Item Care Package Giveaway!

Need some stimmy items to get you through the first weeks of school? Choose one of the 6 care packages from the photos above and enter for a chance to win a small bag filled with fidgets and chewables.

How to enter:

Answer or reblog this post, before noon EST on Sunday August 12th, with the number of the care package you’d like to receive.

Rules and other details:

Each care package includes the bag shown in the photo filled with a random selection of chewable jewelry, fidget jewelry and small stim toys/fidgets as shown.

The items in each pack are very similar to make it easier to choose. :)

We have tried to avoid items that are often associated with sensory sensitivities or materials allergies.

Winners will be asked to provide their ring size so an appropriately sized spinner ring can be sent (the size 13s showing in the photos are just placeholders).

The giveaway is open to followers worldwide.

One entry per person please.

You are not required to be going back to school to enter (that’s just the theme!).

Six random winners will be drawn Sunday afternoon (August 12, 2018)

You must have a way for us to contact you open on your Tumblr and reply within 72 hours of receiving notification that you are a winner.

If needed, we can hold your care package and mail it to your school address when you arrive for the new semester later this summer.

Good luck!

Photo Descriptions:

Photo 1: A green rectangular silicone bag with a black and white cartoon line drawing of a fox wearing a scarf surrounded by minimalist forest scenery. The bag has black trim along the top and bottom (short side) edges. Above the fox are the words “Find a new space”. The bag is mostly opaque but some stim items can be seen through the surface.

Photo 2: A grey rectangular fine mesh bag with darker grey trim and a zipper along the top edge. The bag is mostly transparent and inside a white feather chewable pendant, blue cloud chewable pendant, and yellow spiky fish are among the visible items.

Photo 3: A dark grey rectangular see-through vinyl bag with a light blue zipper along the top. Across the front, it has a black and white illustration of penguins swimming and white print that reads “THE SOUTH POLE.” The bag is mostly transparent and inside a white feather chewable pendant, blue cloud chewable pendant,spinner ring, light color phone cord bracelet, bead lanyard and blue spiky fish are among the visible items.

Photo 4: A shimmery bright blue rectangular vinyl bag with a white zipper along the top and blue plastic ball zipper pull. There is loose, flower and disc shaped multi-color glitter within the front panel of the bag. Across the front, it has an line illustration of 4 hands outlined in white with red fingernails. The fingers are making shapes that look like an L, O, V, and E. The bag is semi-transparent and a light blue braid chewable pendant is visible.

Photo 5: A light blue rectangular vinyl bag with a zipper along the top edge. The bag is mostly transparent and inside a dark blue chewable bracelet, phone cord bracelets, black beaded bracelet, spinner ring, white chewable feather pendant and yellow spiky fish are among the visible items.

Photo 6: A very dark grey rectangular vinyl bag with a light blue zipper along the top. Across the front, it has a mostly white illustration of a polar bear standing on a snowy landscape. The bear has an exclamation point in a word bubble and in the top left corner there is grey print that reads “THE NORTH POLE.” The bag is semi- transparent and inside a light blue braid chewable pendant ,black bead bracelet, snap and click fidget and pink spiky fish are among the visible items.

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2 hopefully!

My first Gorillaz drawing

#2D #gorillaz #art #myart

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I have a playlist called repeats that is just full of these Gorillaz songs. When I find a new Gorillaz song that makes me brain Do the Thing, I add it. This is only after 2 months of listening.

#asd #actuallyautistic #beetalks