buggirl hive

it/she tma plural disabled adult lifes a fuck, the worlds a fuck, but right now you have to survive.

[beetlestrogen]

welp, its about time i start migrating to bluesky. anyone whos cool and willing to brave a different flavor of hellsite should follow me there

https://bsky.app/profile/beetlestrogenized.bsky.social

[beetlestrogen]

btw im still cutes

[calamity-corner]

twerfs will try to convince you that they are the silent majority but that couldn't be further from the truth. they are extremely loud but they are also very much the minority of opinion. this isn't to say we don't live in a transmisogynistic world, but i think it's important to remember that a lot more people will be kinder and more well-intentioned than you think. even people who are uninformed or misinformed will at the very least try to be kind, because people in general want to be kind to each other. there is hope, even if it is not as loud nor spotlighted as the hate.

[calamity-corner]

i keep thinking about how one of my nurses after surgery, a cis woman, was so eager to talk to me about how she also got reconstructive vaginoplasty, to commiserate over the tribulations of the healing process, to be excited about the advances in medicine, to be happy for me. and she was older, and she slipped up occasionally with pronouns and deadnames, but she also always corrected herself and any other nurses who made the same mistake, it was honestly endearing and made me emotional how firmly and repeatedly she made note to everyone that while my chart said my deadname, my name was Zoe.

idk just. people in general will try to be kind, even if they aren't the most informed and even if they don't always do the best job. people tend to try. despite what twerfs want you to believe, you are not alone in a world full of people who will never accept you, your best options are not just a handful of people humoring you. people care, people love. and trans people have existed longer than any twerf has been alive, and nobody has succeeded in stamping us out. we'll always be here and we'll always be able to find happiness, family, friends, love, even amidst those who hate to see us happy. we're stronger than them, and most people would much rather us just be happy. even people who might not Get it tend to not Get blindingly intense hatred more. hate is easy and loud and makes one feel strong, but it's all empty lonely posturing. most people would rather just let us live.

[viviprotrudes]

I'm somewhat unimpressed by at least what i see as an apparence of shallowness of some who claim the transfeminist label and how much it seems to perhaps unwittingly center specific aspect of colonialist and white supremacist methodologies at times in their interpretation and to say this is not to make it untrue that this is a widespread phenomenon observable in most any online thought circles emanating from those within the imperial core, just that if we are to seriously address the needs of trans women everywhere, we are going to have to participate to fights much wider, much vaster than swim times and housing, and those fights are going to need us to understand what it means to be white and be trans and be trans women and how that affects the intersections of our oppression within colonial structure compared to that of any Indigenous and/or Black backgrounds everywhere on the globe. I say that within my limited agency, I have the incredible luxury of time and was told that this reads not as a luxury. I state that it is to bring attention that the time I have left is an immense privilege not granted to the victims of the ICE furnaces. BECAUSE I am white.

I can take the time to share and develop my thoughts and my thoughts are that if there is a single trans woman burned in the furnaces, which there is likely to have been several so far by sheer statistical feats of genocide, we need to fight those structures that end up affecting not merely trans women and transfeminine people all over, but any and every single person which is victimized so thoroughly by the exportation of queerphobia and twerfism, by the current global geopolitical system of neocolonial economics, by the borders that are guarded to keep any of those victims out of a propagandized falsehood of a "better life" and to fight those things, we can bring the transfeminist voice, but it has to be one of many ideological catalysts to actualize its goals.

[revenant-dollthing-feet]

You have to let the schizophrenic tgirl ramble semi-coherently at you through signals more akin to listening to the radio at the edge of the broadcaster's range, as the voice of the singer becomes muddled and drowns beneath a sea of static and interference from other signals, their own voices interspersing and interfering and eating each other like a pack of hungry dogs turning on one another after a week of no successful hunts, more akin to a torrent of water hurtling down the side of a mountain and ripping deep into the soil and the stone and the trees and the plants and drowning anything unlucky enough to fall into the vortex, than they are to real human language please please please

[metanarrates]

my friends and i won't fucking stop saying ETERNITY MENTION literally every time the concept of eternity comes up in anything so i made an image for all your ETERNITY MENTION react needs

[metanarrates]

adding the remaster by @fostersffff onto the post. for your eternity mention needs

[estro-boi]

we gotta get back to torrent distribution, i just watched someone eat eight grand in bandwidth charges because they ran a direct-download piracy site with local file hosting through cloudflare. torrents were invented literally for this exact reason

[estro-boi]

torrents work like this

i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.

please learn to torrent

[hexhive]

[beetlestrogen]

having to relearn how to be a person is the biggest bullshit

[lesbianfidelcastro]

Being anti-USA is the bare minimum for legitimate leftists I'm not even kidding

[miraclemaya]

MADOKA - “I’m thinking I’ll order a beef udon bowl, since Sayaka-chan told me that they make those really good here. What about you, Homura-chan?”

CONSERVATION OF ENERGY - Food needs can be met with an expenditure of 1.23% of total magic. Proceed?

GRIEF SYNDROME [Trivial: Success] - MAGICAL GIRLS THAT IGNORE FOOD ARE OFTEN MORE PRONE TO GRIEF ACCUMULATION. MY ARMS WILL ALWAYS BE WAITING FOR YOU, HOMURA, BUT IT’S IMPORTANT TO BE HAPPY UNTIL THAT DAY. BESIDES, MADOKA WANTS TO EAT WITH YOU. DISAPPOINTING HER WILL FILL YOUR SOUL GEM WITH A HALF A GRIEF SEED WORTH OF DESPAIR.

TEA WITH MAMI-SAN [Legendary: Success] - Sayaka says the beef bowl is good? Maybe go for that. She knows Madoka’s tastes better than anyone — and if Madoka likes something, you will certainly like it too.

“I will have the same as you, Madoka.”

“I’m not feeling very hungry.”

[CALL AND RESPONSE - Medium 10] Come up with an order on your own

CALL AND RESPONSE - [Medium: Failure] - You’ve eaten here before, you’re pretty sure. Was it Loop 32… no, Loop 12..? No, wait, it was on the first Friday of Loop 68. No… that’s not right. You’ve never eaten here before. In a stunning display of incompetence, you have taken Madoka on a date to a restaurant that you have never experienced before.

THE ANGEL - It’s okay, Homura-chan! I don’t mind if you haven’t eaten here before. Remember what real me said, Sayaka thinks this place is good! And even if it’s not perfect, that’s okay, just spending time with you makes me happy.

THE CRAVEN MASSES - Sayaka has raised her blade against Madoka 16 times before. You should leave this restaurant and kill her. It would only take-

FALLING SAND [Trivial: Success] - 1528 seconds on average.

CONSERVATION OF ENERGY - It can be cut down to 1243 seconds with an expenditure of 2.7% of total magic pool.

THE CRAVEN MASSES - Exactly. Do it in front of her family and make it bloody. Kyoko would likely try and stop you, but even she isn’t immune to bullets. And if Mami comes for revenge, well, you know the exact words you could say that would destroy her, don’t you?

THE ANGEL - A-Ah, I think that’s a bit of an extreme reaction, Homura-chan!

HUMAN SHELL - Your heart rate is increasing. Stop that. You have absolute control over your flesh. Act like it.

MOE INSTINCT - AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHAT ARE WE GOING TO ORDER MADOKA IS GOING TO LAUGH AT US

WITCH’S NIGHT - Is… is this a trap? Walpurgis may be defeated, but you know that the stage witch never truly ceases its show. Perhaps this restaurant is a part of the stage?

MADOKA - “Um, are you okay, Homura-chan?”

MOE INSTINCT - OH GOD SHE HATES US

“I’m going to kill myself.”

“I’m so sorry. Would killing myself make you feel more comfortable?”

Isn’t there anything else you can say?

YOU - Isn’t there anything else you can say?

THE DEVIL - Come on, Homura. It’s high time you do it. Really, this is just another in the long, long chain of failures that make up your life. The only way to fix it is to kill yourself.

CLOCKWORK PRECISION - Target: Located on right ring finger. Target is not moving. Chance to hit: High. Plan: Retrieve pistol. Aim pistol at ring. Pull trigger.

THE ANGEL - Oh my god, please do not do that!

"I am going to kill myself."

"I'm so sorry, I'll kill myself if it makes you feel better."

"I'm so sorry. Should I kill myself?"

There. There has to be better options than this.

YOU - There. There has to be better options than this.

MOE INSTINCT - I CAN’T TAKE IT ANY MORE. THE ONLY RECOURSE IS IMMEDIATE SUICIDE. THAT’S THE ONLY WAY MADOKA WILL LOVE YOU AGAIN.

"I am going to kill myself."

"I'm so sorry, I'll kill myself if it makes you feel better."

"I'm so sorry. Should I kill myself?"

YOU - “I’m going to kill myself.”

MADOKA - Madoka’s face twists, her eyebrows raising slightly in shock. Whatever response she was expecting, it was clearly not this.

GRIEF SYNDROME [Challenging: Success] - IF MADOKA WAS A MAGICAL GIRL, HER SOUL GEM WOULD FILL BY A QUARTER HEARING YOU SPEAK THOSE WORDS. THAT WAS CRUEL, HOMURA.

MOE INSTINCT - WHY DID YOU SAY THAT?

MADOKA - “I’m so sorry, Homura-chan. Please don’t do that. I… I really care about you and so does everyone else.” Madoka’s eyes fill with tears as she speaks. She hugs you.

DAMAGED MORALE -4

CALL AND RESPONSE [Trivial: Success] - Quick, tell her you were making an edgy joke that didn’t land. You’ve gotten away with that before, you’re pretty sure.

SPACE-TIME MASSACRE - Twelve quarter shifts left and two up from your current space-time position, and there’s a Japan that it’s actually illegal to not commit suicide in.

FALLING SAND - You’ve been seated for 5 minutes and 32.5 seconds already and still have not ordered. Mami has requested your presence at her apartment in 3.4 hours from now.

TEA WITH MAMI-SAN - She wants to help you find a hobby. She’s really worried about you, you know.

STRINGS OF FATE - You can feel Madoka’s heart beat in sync with yours as she holds you. Everything will be alright, as long as you follow the beat.

THE ANGEL - Yeah! It’s okay Homura-chan. Just explain what’s been going on and Madoka will understand. And then order something, it’s important to eat a full meal!

YOU - “Ah, sorry Madoka. I was… overwhelmed with choice, and my… brain spit out the first thing it thought. I am not planning on killing myself.”

MADOKA - “Um, I think we should probably talk about this more, Homura-chan….”

CALL AND RESPONSE - Ask her a question to change the topic. It’s worked in three different loops, it should work here.

RATIONALITY COMPLEX [Trival: Success] - Ask her if she wants to try anything else and then order that for yourself. This will accomplish your goal of deciding on what to order, as well as showing Madoka that her desires are important to you.

YOU - “Is there anything else you’d like to try, Madoka? We can share our dishes.”

MADOKA - “Uh, okay Homura-chan. Maybe get some tempura?”

Order 10000 yen worth of tempura

Order 1000 yen worth of tempura

Order 100 yen worth of tempura

YOU - “Excuse me waiter, give me 10000 yen worth of tempura.”

HUMAN SHELL - Calories and magic are just two different types of fuel. Feed me and control me.

THE ANGEL - T-that’s probably too much, Homura-chan. Maybe you can sneak some into your cool shield, though!

MADOKA - Madoka doesn’t say anything, but her eyes do bulge out slightly. She gives you a gentle pat on the shoulder and smiles at you.

HEALED MORALE +1

RATIONALITY COMPLEX - Displays of wealth like this can broadcast value to potential mates. This will increase your value in Madoka’s eyes, furthering along one of your goals.

THE ANGEL - I think you should just focus on enjoying the food, Homura-chan. Take a break, everything is okay.

Thank you.

Why don’t you hate me?

YOU - Why don’t you hate me?

THE ANGEL - Because I care about you, Homura-chan! And besides, you hate yourself far too much already.

Thank you.

THE ANGEL - You’re welcome! Now, please, enjoy your meal with real Madoka. She loves you a lot too, you know.

[jagerbombastic99]

Literally smoking some shit called "memory loss"

[jagerbombastic99]

Literally smoking some shit called "memory loss"

[jagerbombastic99]

[enbaluka-tokyo-drift]

[hyenaehyenae]

Shes so awesome i love her so much........

[tlirsgender]

I'm not fond of the lgbt at this point like as a demographic white queers aren't any less likely to be racist than any other type of white people. Native queer people get fucking murdered and you can't talk about how their race is relevant, like you haven't been killing us for centuries. Happy pride month

[tlirsgender]

I could wax sociological about how homophobia and transphobia are entwined with white supremacy but none of you fucking listen when we try to tell you anything, you just dig your heels in when we try putting it gently & confirm us as savages when we get angry. I'm so beyond sick of your shit

[tlirsgender]

And I say Native *people* plural because this has happened before. This is what happens. You do this shit to Black people, too. Sometimes it's not about YOU it's about race first before anything else

[tlirsgender]

[ID: a reply from @pacificnorthwhore that reads, "I understand your point but damn this is an aggressive and hateful way to say it" /end ID]

Good cause I hate you but also let me redirect you back to that "not listening when we put it gently and confirming us as savages when we get angry" point

[storyweavingspider]

Wanna second this on the Black side. I’ve brought it up on here before but like this is how crackers reacted to me gently spoon-feeding them the most basic of Black transfeminism/intersectional theory, the kinda shit we get taught AS FUCKING KIDS for our own safety:

If a white can’t stand by us when we’re mad and (rightfully tbh) lashing out at them collectively for the oppression and suffering they stick us into, they DEFINITELY won’t stand by us the second shit gets hard. The trash is taking itself out but damn do I wish it wasn’t leaking all over the place and leaving us to clean up after it.

[duskargentum]

I think quite possibly my favorite line from GLaDOS in all of the media she's been in is "Federal regulations require me to inform you that this next test chamber... Is lookin' pretty good."

She sounds so smug and pleased with herself

[duskargentum]

Visit Original Link

[villainessbian]

My favourite line from GLaDOS is "get your hands off me! no! stop! no! no no no NOAAAAAAAAAAA-" but I might be a weird dyke

[doll-shell]

You're right.

[yasmin1000000]

Msg literally stands for Makes Shit Good so why would you not want it